Rant, angry and depressed

faji2015

Hey everyone,
I started maintaince back in august 2016 at 152lbs. I was ok with it at that time. During the summers of 2017, I randomly lost weight and my range became 147-150lbs. Due to some personal issues I didn’t control what i ate and now back at 152lbs. I sm angry at myself that Why I couldn’t maintain it. Secondly, I am constantly in a fear i might gain all what i have lost because of this. Should i worry this much and try to lose. I go to college and it’s kinda hard to lose their. Though I have started exercise and my normal diet again.

Ps.
I look fine to me

Alatariel75

If you look fine to you and your clothes fit, I say stop obsessing over the numbers. A couple of lbs either way is normal fluctuation for the human body, especially women. If you've started exercising and you eat well, you'll probably just drop it anyway.

ContraryMaryMary

Know the feeling. I hit goal (which was lower than my original goal, my dream goal, and then some), dropped below that a couple of months ago and now am pissed that I put on a couple of kilos, even though I'm still below my dream goal. It's ridiculous. I'm trying not to beat myself up about it, and will slowly creep downwards in the next couple of months. We know how to do this, so, back to the programme.

apullum

If you're happy with how you look, then perhaps you're okay with your maintenance weight range including 152. There's nothing wrong with re-evaluating your maintenance range. However, if you want to lose back to your previous weight range, you can go back to a calorie deficit for a little while. Gaining a couple of pounds absolutely doesn't mean that you're going to gain it all back. It's just a time to evaluate how you want to handle the situation.

LivingtheLeanDream

If you're happy with how you look now then all is well you can keep an eye from now on and if you see your weight climb higher then you know the score and its back to eating at calorie deficit.

kommodevaran

It sounds like a normal maintenance range to me?

cmriverside

I have a five pound weight range. In the winter my weight hovers at the higher end and in the summer it hovers in the lower end. I think that's natural.

Need2Exerc1se

I don't understand the problem. You've maintained your weight within a 5 lb range since 2016. That is maintenance.

nxd10

You have done fantastically well. We all bobble around a bit - a lot of salt and you can go up and down five pounds. It can be hard to maintain weight at college (I'm a professor and I see that all the time). What you do have is lots of opportunities to walk. You will have to be careful about eating some munchies but not too many (my kids laugh because I can look at pretzels or potato chips and know exactly how many are in the small bowl I put them to eat out of. If you drink, look at calories - some beers are 400 calories and some are 150. Keep logging. You look good - keep at it.

PAV8888

Not only are you maintaining within a tight 5lb range but as a college age student it is possible that you just finished growing...

sijomial

Not seeing the problem with your weight maintenance, if you expect your weight to be a flat line for the rest of your life that's simply not realistic - the issue I'm seeing is "I am constantly in a fear....".

MarkusDarwath

I concur with the others that 5 pounds is not enough to get upset over. Just for some perspective, if you go by the "drink eight 8-oz glasses of water per day" thing, that is half a gallon. Water weighs 8 pounds per gallon. So the frequently recommended daily water intake is 4 pounds all by itself. Five pounds isn't overly extreme for even a 24 hour weight fluctuation depending on what one eats and drinks that day, and how they space it out.

nexangelus

sijomial wrote: »

Not seeing the problem with your weight maintenance, if you expect your weight to be a flat line for the rest of your life that's simply not realistic - the issue I'm seeing is "I am constantly in a fear....".

^^^^ Agree totally, plus the header being so negative on top. You have accomplished what many still dream of. Pat yourself on the back and relax....

RulaAsaad

"Why I couldn’t maintain it", because of the issues you COULDN'T control it is not your fault. we are humans and we are not THAT tough to not be affected by things around us!

"I am constantly in a fear i might gain all what i have lost because of this"- I won't lie. It could happen. however, constant fear wouldn't prevent it. what do you mean by "this"? this as in that you gained weight or this your personal issues? whatever it is, we need to learn to accept it and live with it. not work around it, but more to work with it to reach our goals.

"I go to college and it’s kinda hard to lose their", what makes it hard? I've been an undergraduate student for more years than I should be lol and I might know a thing or two about being a student.

If you want to talk in private and not here, you can always message me (and even add me!)
This is NOT the end and we are here with you and supporting you

crb426

Just take that little bump as a reminder that you need to pay a bit more attention. A few weeks of making sure you are eating slightly below maintenance or a bit more exercise and you should be just fine.

icemom011

I was expecting something really drastic, judging from the thread title. I hope you have a good handle on the personal issues you've mentioned. Reach out for help, if you need it. Schools have counseling and even therapists sometimes, so use it if you feel that it's too much to deal with on your own. On your maintenance issues, I agree with most responses here, you've done a great job, and clearly handle this pretty well. If you feel like it's important, go into slight deficit, and you will lose those extra couple of pounds in no time. Try not to be so negative, you have tons of other stresses, I'm sure. You've got this, op.

88olds

Two thoughts. Lots of folks lose a bit in the summer and gain a bit in the winter.

That said, is 152 your line in the sand? Don’t cross it. Instead of being angry and depressed, try determined. I think it’s wise to keep your guard up. Regaining is a never ending threat. Stay vigilant.

zyxst

I know how OP feels. When you've lost a lot, gaining a few pounds over a couple days can be heartbreaking. I gained nearly 10# during the Xmas break and I'm freaking out because I know myself and how easy it is for me to slip back into sitting on my butt and stuffing food in my pie hole all day.

susanp57

Yesterday I weighed 122.4. This morning I weighed 121 even. Weight fluctuates madly sometimes.

wizzybeth

I see absolutely no reason to be angry. Staying between 147 and 152 seems reasonable to me. You can't stay at a single exact number. That's only 5 pounds. Good grief water weight can cause your weight to fluctuate five to seven pounds. Take a deep breath be proud of yourself and just make sure it doesn't keep going upward

psychod787

Semper perge pugnare!