Monday, August 17, 2015

valmaebel

valmaebel

Marla - I definitely understand not wanting to be stuck at home with the car that doesn't have AC. Is it supposed to be smokey that day?

Laura - I have the same struggle with getting my cadence up...both on running and biking. My hubby kept pestering me about why I use the indoor bike once a week and it was for that reason. I can see my cadence and it forces me to start pedaling faster. So I definitely understand the mental battle, because it feels harder to me too for some reason.

This weekend was rough a bit for me emotionally. I think it might be TOM but I can't tell anymore since my hysterectomy so who knows for sure. But it was all those small things that have built and built and finally exploded. The kids refusing to do what I ask them over and over and over again. My husband has been giving a constant stream of suggestions on everything from housekeeping, child rearing, eating habits, and my training style. I finally spazzed at him because he is not nearly as frequent with his encouragement. It was a big fight with him Friday. Which he finally apologized for that night but I'm still recovering from. He basically had told me to suck it up and learn to accept criticism. Like I said, he did apologize but men seem to get over that stuff almost instantly and it takes me a few days to feel even remotely better. Then I finally lost it at the kids last night because combining hubby's fight with them refusing to do anything I ask...I felt used and unimportant. I definitely overreacted but I think it as just everything hitting me at once. Plus, it was my second week of fully training in a looooooong time. I always hit that slump the second week where my body is always tired and wonders what on earth I'm doing to it. So I felt tired and run down and slow and fat and unimportant.

The positive side is that I never turned to food as a comfort which was new for me. So there is something in that at least! Hoping that TOM goes away and I can be more normal. I had already apologized to my kids but I'm still pretty upset at everyone so today should be interesting. Going for a quick run and then swimming later this morning.

PinkNinjaLaura

Great thread starter today - right on theme with what we've been discussing.

Val you just gave me flashbacks to my childhood. My mom was typically pretty chill, until she would get to her breaking point and snap. It was usually about me not cleaning my room. She would have me sit there while she held up each and everything thing I had strewn about, asking me "Do you really need this?" and I would have to answer her. It was worse than having to clean my room myself. As an adult I'm amused by the memory, not traumatized, for whatever that's worth. But when mom blew up I knew I had pushed her too far. The "tired and run down and slow and fat and unimportant" totally sounds like hormones at work. And congrats on not turning to food -- that's especially hard when you are hormonal.

Tonight was supposed to be my first hour-long session with my trainer, but he texted me to cancel because he's sick. I was looking forward to filling him in on everything from my running analysis on Friday so I'm disappointed about that, but he has to be really sick before he cancels so it's not like this happens very often. I am going to go to the gym anyway and do the exercises the PT gave me. I had intended to show them to Jason to get his buy-in before I did them, but since I won't see him until Thursday now I don't want to wait that long before doing them. Even though I have notes from the PT, I want to do them while they're still somewhat fresh in my memory. I'm supposed to do them Mondays, Wednesdays & Fridays. I'm curious to see how long it takes me to get through them. I went for a walk over lunch with a friend. It was quite nice out.

agingwithfitness

Hi, Val when you say TOM do you have periods still after your surgery? Did they leave part? If you had full hysterectomy it would have put you into menopause which can cause lots of PMS hormone type stuff.

I went through years in my late 30's crying jags, emotional, hot flashes, night sweats. Glad i am past it, it does wear off.

I had no idea i was in early meno though and totally blamed it all on boyfriend i had at time and zero patience with my kids off and on.

Like thread starter, that is my goal, to be healthy not skinny.

Went on treadmill longer, faster and a bit of uphill then swam around. My shoulder is hurting so more for therapy.

Oh, and I decided not to go tomorrow because its 6 hrs driving up and back in one day. Mike decided to leave early and take his car since he will be on the coast where it is cool and come back late when its cooler.

So i can go to Y and workout then have relaxing day alone.