I am so stuck, I can't do this.

Meow112

I posted this in another form, but I didn't see this one....

This past year has been a roller coaster with binge eating. This time last year I weighed 28 pounds less.....I started to binge uncontrollably last year, and when I say binge I am talking a real binge....ordering a large pizza with wings at night and eating that in one sitting, eating a whole box of cereal in one sitting, eating a whole ice cream cake in one sitting, drinking a whole bottle of wine in one sitting, there was one day my calorie intake was over 5,000.....I feel like this is spiraling out of control and with each pound I am gaining I am getting deeper in a hole. I joint Overeaters Anonymous in March..... I keep failing at my food plan, I want this weight off..... I recently bought maternity pants because I can't fit in my other pants. I don't want to go to my sisters baby shower because I am ashamed of what I look like, I know my family will make comments. I have gained 8 lbs in 1 week (I stayed home for a week and just Layed in bed and ate..... And I mean I literally ate..... I made pot roasts, and ate watermelons (in one sitting) I ate around 3,000-5,000 over my limit a day.... And I have been lying to my sponsor from OA by telling her I am eating from my food plan that she made just for me.

I am just stuck and I don't know how to end this cycle.

MissusMoon

With a binge disorder this serious, you will not find your answer on the internet. It's time to talk to your doctor at the very least, and also a therapist.