Relationship Weight Gains 😔 🤗

phatShaming

I keep thinking, saying, and writing "Can't steal my joy #CSMJ" but it's not working. I was on the fast track to weight loss. A great mental state where each lost pound contributed to better joyfulness which led to even more weight loss.

My reward when I met my 1st weight loss goal was a trip to Europe to see him after our two year separation. I had to return to the USA after my job ended. It was so hard being apart for these 2 years but we spoke by phone weekly. We both agreed on the reward goal and setup things to do once I arrived. A full two weeks!

Then came the day that my "special" friend told me only a week prior to purchasing my flight tickets that he'd met a girl at work and although I could still visit, it wouldn't be the same situation. Well, the visit was off, of course and my goals, emotions, and full mental state were all thrown off balance. The pounds started adding up fast! As much as I tried to not think about how my full world crumbled beneath my feet, simply overnight, deep internal thoughts were racing. I lost focus and began binging. I stopped my diabetes meds and indulged in my cookie addiction.

No matter how many times I tried to explain to him, still calling himself my friend, he blamed me and called me selfish and controlling. This only made me sink deeper, torn between continuing a lasting friendship as friends from afar, or going strong and moving on. I know I shouldn't keep bad energy around, but the fear of letting go is real. The goal is to get back on track, right?!

I went for a 3 mile walk and believed I would start again and perhaps work on my personal goals with an even better reward. I have to find better ways to preoccupy my state of mind. I'm not getting younger, so time is of the essence. Take back my joy and dive into the deep end without looking back. Share my successes with others even if I have to write it on the bathroom walls or shout it from the social media mountaintops. I have to #RecoverMyJoy! ♥️

sollyn23l2

https://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/10944642/relationship-weight-gains

I know how hard it is. Been there. Any man that would do that to you isn't worth your time or energy. Fix your crown. You are more important than any loser who can't see your worth. When I was in that situation, I dove headfirst into weight training and yoga. You'd be amazed how helpful lifting heavy things and putting them down can be when you're in your feels. And you're making yourself a better version of yourself while he's doing... what? Nothing. That's right.