SBF, Reboot Boogaloo, April 25

yoginimary

Hope everyone had a great Easter.

I noticed the chocolate cake (or at least that's what I'm blaming), made me feel tired and lazy yesterday afternoon. I usually eat my sweets after dinner, so it's not as noticeable. We went for a second walk, and I woke up.

We brought some cake home, but I haven't wanted it. Granted, it's been less than 24 hours, but small victories, right?

Today is a triple yoga day. Teach this morning, class this afternoon, then practice with Charlie this evening.

Sugar = sleepy, boogaloo.

mechanicmom

Mary, I had a great Easter! Absolutely great. I must have had too much sugar yesterday and had a buzz for a long time. I didn't get sleepy from it until about 7 pm. Sugar does = sleepiness.
I did eat too much dessert yesterday. 3 mini cupcakes and a cookie. Then I had a couple of Alex's cookies later. :noway: Just goes to show that I am not in control and I can not keep sweets in the house. But it was a "cheat" day. I just wish I hadn't cheated so much.
I am beginning to wonder where that 8 pounds lost is coming from. I really don't feel much smaller or look much smaller. I'm concerned that I am losing muscle. So with that I am going to get on the TM today at least. Some how I hurt my neck/shoulder a few days ago and it's really stiff. Maybe it's my horrible posture. So upper body is out for today. :frown: I was planning on full blown work outs this week but it looks like I will have to go easy for a little while longer. My knee is still hurting too so I don't know how long or fast I can walk. I want to do some even if it's not much. I would like to trade my body in for a new one this one seems to be breaking more often than I like. Other goals: get off sweets again, log food, protein every couple of hours, tumbling class, and get the house straightened up again (or still). It's always a mess on the weekends. Oh and school. Been slacking in this area.
I think one reason my daily schedule has been so off lately is because we aren't sleeping well and Steve turns off the alarm to sleep in a bit more. It throws my whole day off. I need to adjust my days so bad nights won't effect my schedule so much. I have got to get more organized before we bring a little girl home. I also need to spend less time on the computer!
Work before play boogaloo!
MM

lotusfromthemud

Happy new week, pebbs,

I already feel like I've had a busy day and it's only noon. I've had two work sessions, and a dance class. For the remainder of the day, I'm aiming for two more work sessions, a bit more house tidying (I'm trying to do little fifteen minute move around a tidy something up in between the work sessions. It helps a surprising amount) and then walk to dinner and back providing the rain holds off.

I'm banging out a very rough sketch of a chapter draft, already have over 2,000 words (that's around ten pages, if you think this way). So, my house is a mess.:laugh:

I had someone at my workout class comment that I have lost weight. Not just "lost weight" but "a lot of weight" It was someone whose daughter had been away at school and was back for the holiday weekend. I guess I've noticed that some clothes have been fitting looser (mostly shirts) but I have neither weighed nor measured (since I'm trying to just not think in those terms right now). I just said "Thanks. that's good to hear." It was. I guess my whole "eat, but don't binge." philosophy is a good one.

Yesterday I ate a Cadbury Creme Egg. It was awesome. I ate it right after the workout, so it did not make me sleepy. I find that if I eat sugar right after a workout, I don't get the crash. Any other time, nap time. Carbs, too. Especially anything wheat-based.

Heigh-ho, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

mechanicmom

Yesterday I ate a Cadbury Creme Egg. It was awesome. I ate it right after the workout, so it did not make me sleepy. I find that if I eat sugar right after a workout, I don't get the crash. Any other time, nap time. Carbs, too. Especially anything wheat-based.

That's interesting V. I may have to try a work out before I eat wheat or sugar and see if it happens to me. I usually have those in the evening and so I don't notice, like Mary said.
I need to get to work. House is a bigger mess than I thought. And my TM is waiting for me!
MM

mechanicmom

Today is our anniversary. :happy: Steve insisted on giving me breakfast in bed. I admit I was nervous. I said, "You don't know what I make for breakfast." He did! He got on MFP and looked up my breakfast from yesterday! Smart man. :laugh: He did a good job too. Quite enjoyable.
Today we have the usual Tuesday horse therapy and prayer meeting this morning. I am going to try to walk on the TM again this afternoon and clean up the house. I still haven't gotten much done as far as the cleaning goes. Then tonight we are going out for our anniversary. I'm not sure what we are doing yet. I think we are doing dinner somewhere. We are indecisive people, so this isn't as easy as it should be. :laugh:
My knee is not any more aggravated after running, so I guess I will just push through the pain and see if it goes away eventually. It's not horrible, just achy and stiff after sitting for periods of time. My neck is still stiff. Maybe it's time to swap out pillows again.

Eight years boogaloo!
MM

lotusfromthemud

Aw, MM, that is really sweet. Hope you have a lovely dinner.

Today is a trainer trade. I'm not sure what I'll be up for, but I know I need some neck adjusting/massage. When I work, I hunch. I try to be aware, get up and stretch, but it's just the nature of concentrating for me right now, although I'm trying to change. I've reached the point of the chapter someone once referred to as a "plate of idea spaghetti". This involves lots of pacing and feeling agitated. I'm trying this new thing where I try to remain calm and just keep working through it. Difficult.

Before the trainer comes I have to get two work sessions in and vacuum. Also, I have moths in my clothes closet! Aaargh. I've cleaned, gotten cedar blocks, washed everything and put my cashmere in the freezer, and I am on a vicious flyswatter crusade against the buggers. Any other suggestions are welcome. Difficulty: mothballs are out (the chemicals would make me sick). They appeared apparently out of nowhere a few weeks ago, but seem to have multiplied. Gross.

Gross, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

yoginimary

Happy Anniversary, MM!

V - have the yoga teachers show you how to make a "trapezius harness". It's a strap that goes behind your back over your shoulders, and crosses your shoulderblades. I'm sure they have a 10' or bigger strap you could buy (the Pune ones are reasonably priced) - and you could sit on the strap ends - it keeps you upright, shoulders down and back. Just a thought.

So I did 4.5 hours of yoga yesterday (if you count the teaching) - which is good enough for anybody. Today: I should get on the bike. Really, it's time and the weather isn't awful yet. Though there is "haze" - which I think means smoke, but I'm unsure. Fingers crossed for rain today. We really need it.

I wish I could figure out what is going on with my knee. I just emailed my sister. She's going to be a DO - so she's good with this stuff. I want to do lotus again.

Rain dance, boogaloo

mechanicmom

Mary, I hope you get rain!

My day was thrown off. I learned something this morning. I need to be more flexible, not physically - although that wouldn't hurt. Steve texted me to say the Xterra is not starting very well and we probably need a battery. Bummer. Alex and I go to leave for horse therapy and the mustang won't start. Seriously? It wouldn't have been so bad except he has one of those dumb car alarms that goes off if you touch anything. It startled me two times and it made me so mad! I charged the battery and it said it was fine. I hit the starter with a hammer, still nothing. It was corroded battery terminals, which mean I had to take them off and the alarm would go off again. :grumble: I got it done and it starts now, but we missed horse therapy and prayer. :frown: I will take Alex to ride Richie later today. So it's working out but I wished I hadn't gotten so mad about my day being changed. I just needed to vent. I feel better now.

Be flexible or be broken boogaloo.
MM

lotusfromthemud

Morning, my pebbs.

Mary, I hope you got pollen-washing rain and MM, I hope your evening went off without a hitch. CP, check in, we miss you. Lost pebbles, return to us. . .even a brief word or two. Sniff, sniff, guilt, guilt.

MM, I also struggle with a low frustration threshold with things not going as planned. I would say it's my single biggest issue, mental and physical health wise. It's turned into a running joke in my house for me to say "aw, man I don't want to practice patience today." because practicing patience is what I'm working on. It's just so much nicer when things go as planned.

Speaking of plans, plans for today are to go to dance class, have a work session, and then go to therapy, followed by acupuncture followed by another work session. I actually get to work while riding the subway, as I can listen to/analyze music as I travel, so I will get all four sessions in. Sunday, I had nothing, now I have 15 pages. They're rough and need plenty of editing, but this whole, "just sit down and write every day" plan is working. Only drag thing today is now both arms are numb. At least there's symmetry? Hopefully either acupuncture today or yoga tomorrow can work with that. I'm pretty sure it's neck shoulder related.

All plans are tentative, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

mechanicmom

V, I hope you get feeling back in your arms. What a miserable feeling! Also I am learning there are different types and stages of patience for different areas in life. When people realize we've been working on our adoption for 2.5 years they say, "Wow! You're developing patience!" Well, yes...in this one area on this level. It will be a different story when we get another child in the house. :laugh:
Mary, did you get a bike ride in yesterday? It was hazy here yesterday as well but didn't smell smoky or anything.

Yesterday was a little rough. Started out good. Went bad in the middle (car problems and then we both had upset stomachs to the point we didn't know if we wanted to go out after all). Ended up pretty good. It was just one of those weird days.
We heard from our agency last night! Our case has been assigned to a judge and she (I think most judges in Russia are women) will meet with Andrei tomorrow to discuss paper work! So we may or may not get a court date tomorrow! We should at least hear that they can't give us a court date until we get such and such paper work turned in. I know we are short a couple of things (physicals papers should be done by the doctor today and employment papers are done, just need to be stamped by the state).
Today: I don't think I have to go anywhere (until church tonight), unless it's a quick trip to the store, so I will get schooling, cleaning and a work out done. I have put a couple of pounds back on but I expected it this week with all the eating out (why is it everyone wants to get together the same week?) and because I am stepping up on the work outs again. My work out today will be C25K day 2 and maybe upper body tae bo if my neck isn't too stiff. I'm just going to try to work through any pain I have right now. I'm tired of sitting on my rear waiting for all my problems to go away.

Forward motion boogaloo!
MM

yoginimary

I am such a control freak, that I have that issue too. I feel like a 5 year-old sometimes. Stubborn and opinionated is somewhat the norm for me, but if you add grumpy, then I don't try to hide it

So I did go for a bike ride yesterday, but there were consequences - I had a awful headache yesterday afternoon/evening. I'm thinking it was the smoke. I don't need the rain for the pollen, though that would be nice, I need it to put out those dang wildfires. My husband showed me a great satellite image yesterday. I can't find it, but if you scroll down to the bottom image, you can see the smoke plumes all the way across Texas:
http://www.storm2k.org/phpbb2/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=110689&p=2124521
oh, I found it:
http://earthobservatory.nasa.gov/NaturalHazards/view.php?id=50168

On Monday night, I'm going to an area that looks like it's getting a lot of the Wildcat Fire smoke, though if the wind switches to from the south, it will get the smoke from Mexico. Actually, that's probably the smoke from yesterday - today is clear and the wind is from the North - so maybe outside is ok?

Ok, enough about my state Today: teach and take yoga, clean house, yard work (it's beautiful outside), and walk.

Smoky, boogaloo.

lotusfromthemud

Oh, I forgot all about the fires. Terrible, I hope you get lots and lots of rain. In Florida we used to get these things called "muck fires." Dreadful smoke and haze. Ugh. I can smell it just thinking about it.

Healing waters on you, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

cp005e

Aww, nice job with the guilt there, V!

Yeah, I'm lurking. Still working too much to figure out how to make it to the gym (I told my husband in frustration on Monday, "I don't know why I even pretend I'm going to make it to the gym anymore!"), but we did get out for a couple of walks over the weekend. (We both had Friday off, which was fabulous.) At least I still have dance on Tuesday and now yoga on Thursday. I've decided that I like dance class not because I'm good at it (I'm not really), but because it gives me something that I have to really concentrate on that isn't work. I guess that's what you call a distraction! But the fact that it's both physically active AND mentally engaging really works for me.

I haven't had any sweets in a week and a half, unless you count one pancake without syrup, and spoon tip of my husband's cinnamon sugar sauce at breakfast the other day (I don't). What I've learned from that is... well, I'm stressed. And, there's not really much I can do about a lot of it. And, that makes me want to eat. I have literally been telling myself "no" several times a day for the past 10 days - whenever I get up from a long conference call or a problem I can't (or shouldn't have to) fix, whenever I try to figure out what I can wear, whenever I look at the mess that I haven't cleaned up or the magazine I haven't read or the gutter I haven't fixed or the room I haven't decorated. So, then I tell myself, "no, I'm not going to eat that," and then I just feel - blank. Thwarted, sort of, or impotent. It's not that food is a solution - but it sort of feels like one. And then when I reject it, I just feel - unfulfilled. So, I'm living with that, and hopefully my brain is noodling it over to figure out a better answer. I'm not restricting my non-sweet food yet, though I think will be the plan for next week. I wanted to start by just stepping off the crazy carousel of Snickers and donuts first (I don't even really like these things so much!). So far, so good (if a little blank).

Happy anniversary, MM! Mary, I hope the fires are put out soon.

Blank, boogaloo.

mechanicmom

Mary, the wind switches back to the south for us today so we might be smelling the fires again. Thanks for sharing the links with us. I knew about the ones at Possum Kingdom but not the others. My husband and his pilot friend flew over PK last weekend and it looked really bad. Many homes lost.

V, did you get all your work sessions in?

CP, good for you staying off sweets and finding time to go to dance and yoga! You may not have the time to put into it that you'd like but you haven't given up, and that's awesome! :flowerforyou:

I have not eaten as well the last two days and I haven't logged because of it. That's what I do. I stop logging when I am eating badly. I haven't been eating a lot of junk but we ran out of food so it's been "whatever I can find" eating and I don't like that. I am going to the store this morning, and hopefully I will plan better. I've been trying to stay off pasta and rice because of the carbs, but then meat doesn't go as far without it. :grumble: I may have to let some of the carbs like that back in and just try to eat half of what I would normally have.
I took measurements yesterday just to see, and my midsection is not getting smaller, but I have lost like 1/4-1/2 inches off arms and thighs. I think even my calves were smaller. I'd like it to come off around the midsection (of course) but at least something is changing.
Today's goals are: getting to the store and buying healthy, school, cleaning, and finishing the project I started yesterday. I put away some breakables that were on the bookshelf in the living room (in anticipation for a very curious little girl coming home soon), cleared off the bookcase and moved it up to Alex's room to house his overflowing books. I think it's going to make things look better once I get everything put in it's place. I need to get in gear and do more things like this in preparation. We should hear something from Moscow today, but I don't know what it will be! I may also try to get a walk in if I have time. My goal is to have 3 harder work outs a week, for now, and 2-3 lighter ones on the other days. I'm still not feeling 100%, so I will work up to it. I am thinking that on easy days I will spend more time cleaning and preparing. I'm just trying to stay more active.

Preparation boogaloo!
MM

lotusfromthemud

Gotcha, CP, Please forgive me, I learned from the masters, or I should say mistresses of guilt. If there was an Olympic team for martyrdom, my great grandmother could have been the coach. :laugh: also, I understand the blank feeling, sometimes I'm after a little reward/partytime food feeling, and when I don't eat that celebration food I get a feeling of "denied." for me, though, more often it's sitting with anxiety until it passes or having to have a bigger buffer zone between the end of my workday and bedtime.

Anyways, today is yoga, a day off from at least physically working on the project (my brain, she percolates) and rest. My sinuses are cuckoo again (as is the weather) so I'm not going to push anything. Also, I will aim for better food choices today. Yesterday involved two meals made up of sweets based items, which did not make me feel the best an hour later. Whoever put those little teeny sweets on the menu at Starbucks is an evil genius, although most of them look much better than they taste.

In other other news, I saw another job posting that I'm sending a packet out to. Because I just don't have enough irons in the mysterious fire of "what if".

What if, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

yoginimary

Hope you can stay away from stress, CP!
Fingers crossed you hear from Moscow, MM!
Enjoy yoga, V.

What a nice cool morning! Like moth to flame, I had to look at the tornado footage. I really didn't need to see that. Phobias, I have them.
Another friend had their email hacked. It was the message "I'm stuck in London, please contact me to send me money". This is the third yoga friend this has happened to. I wonder if there is some fake yoga site that is getting these people? Or is there a site that has been hacked that's getting the info?

Anyway. Today is a walk outside. Hopefully, no smoke. Maybe an easy yoga session later in the day as tomorrow will be a hard one!

Cool morning, boogaloo.

mechanicmom

We heard from Moscow. Good news and some not so sure news. Good news is that the judge only needs the employment forms and medical forms that we just finished up yesterday! Yay! The not so sure news is that Andrei has to go to the biological family and get them to sign papers that say they don't want to take care of Miss I. This is where it fell through last time. And since Miss I's mom has visited her in the orphanages at least four times in the last two years, then this makes us nervous. The agency said we would have a court date set by the end of April (uh, tomorrow) or mid May after the Russian holidays (May 1 Labor Day and May 9 Victory Day). They shut down for a week for any holiday I think. Half joking. So more waiting.
Really been craving chocolate the last few days. Even having a little doesn't seem to get rid of the craving. I guess I need to get over it.
And apparently I am going to Austin to get the last bit of paper work stamped by the state. :ohwell: I don't like traveling by myself. I'm a wuss I know. I hope a friend will say they can come ride with me but on this short of a notice I'm not counting on it. Mary I will wave to you!
MM

yoginimary

I'll wave back. My first thought was to meet you for lunch, but I already have lunch plans. Have a good drive.

I'm up extra early today - not for the royal wedding, but for the kick butt yoga class. I need to have enough time to adjust to the waking world. I'll leave in about 45 minutes.

So a two hour yoga class this morning, then maybe a short walk this evening. We have a good forecast for the first week in May - which is a double bonus because I'll be in Boerne for the yoga workshop and have delightful weather during the afternoon break. We have a good chance of rain on Sunday and Monday, which is great, but I really should have avoided looking at the tornadoes from the Alabama storms. Now, I'm all worried about severe weather. I should focus on the fires going out and the allergies going away!

Find the good, boogaloo.

mechanicmom

Quick post I think.
Mary, I thought about lunch too but we will be getting there after lunch anyway. What's your afternoon like? Do you text on your phone? We will have a little time in the early afternoon if you just want to meet up for a bit! I'll send you my number on FB and then we can see about meeting up.
I wanted to leave earlier this morning, but the notary at the doctor's office forgot to stamp one of the documents! Steve just found it last night so I have to wait till they open and go there first. I really really don't want to do this. All the things I have learned recently about not be anxious have flown out the window. I didn't sleep well, partially due to anxiety and it was really hot in our room for some reason. I shouldn't be anxious. It's just get on 35 and go for several hours. But it's about 8 hours of driving total and I haven't done that much in a long long time.
I am already running late so I'd better get a move on.
On the road boogaloo.
MM

lotusfromthemud

Yes, I am a loser and set my alarm for the royal wedding. I have a secret (I guess now not so secret?) penchant for shiny hats. My DH got cranky because I woke him up, I've been cranky because I can't feel my hands, crankiness ensued and now we're both cranky. Crankiness in the house, for sure.

I've broken down and made an appointment with the physiotherapist/chiropractor to see if something can be done about the hands arm/thing. The bonus today is that I also feel sort of clumsy in my hands, which since I need them to type with is super not-cool. They also feel bigger than they are, strangely. . .I described them last night as "stupid inflatable hands". I was hoping that yoga would fix them. Although it helped, I just can't get comfortable.

Anyways, away with complaining. It's weird how anxieties/phobias work. I love storms, and it's one thing I have never been afraid of. Even very, very severe storms, like hurricanes, which I've been through (Florida, remember) I think are awesome. Yet, put me on an interstate, and I freak out. Also, I'm claustrophobic, but love caves. Go figure. The snake brain, you can't explain it. I think you say "monkey brain", Mary. I've heard it called the "reptile brain", but I think "snake brain" is super funny, for some reason.

You will do fine with the drive, MM. . .just stop if you need to take a break, and don't be hard on yourself if you're anxious. I know my biggest problem is I get mad at myself if I'm nervous about something. . .which makes me more nervous. . .etc. . .

No workout scheduled for today. I think the day after yoga = really tired, so I'm going with that. I figure my body is working on something. I'm trying to be more intuitive. I kind of stink at intuitive.

Stinktuitive, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

yoginimary

I enjoyed meeting up with MM yesterday. We got a nice walk in (27 minutes at slow/moderate pace, if you want to log it) I got to meet Alex too. He's such a well behaved kid.

Today I'm off to San Antonio for the final school weekend! I co-teach a class today and just hang out the rest of the day. I'm planning on leaving a bit early. We'll see. Tomorrow is the graduation party. I might have some issues getting there as the forecast is iffy. It's down to a 30% chance of rain during the day, but I don't like getting stuck somewhere when in strikes. I just read the forecast discussion, which is written in geek and hard to read, but I think I'll be ok. Severe probabilities are low. Cold front is ahead of the rain.

If I don't get yoga in today, or I guess, even if I do, I'll walk when I get home.

Oh, and in kick butt class, I got up in another pose - only for a few seconds, but I was up! It's called Dragonfly pose. I didn't think it was possible.

Graduation weekend, boogaloo!

mechanicmom

Mary, it was good to finally meet you yesterday! Thanks for asking me to walk around a bit and for bringing me water. I got home around 7:30 so it wasn't too bad of a drive. I am the same way about the weather. That's why I didn't wait till Monday to drive down there.
Now I really want to meet all my Pebbs! :smooched:

I'm glad the trip is done and hopefully it's the last one for 20 minutes of paper work. I was anxious until I got out of DFW then I realized it wasn't so bad. I also slept better last night than I have in a week or so.
My new medicine dosage make my heart race and I feel hotter than I probably should. (It felt hot in Austin yesterday and I don't think it was that hot.) The doc said I might have symptoms and to back off from 4 to 3 pills a day. (only 5mcg's each so it's not as much as it sounded.)
Today we are meeting friends that we haven't seen in almost a year at a Russian restaurant. They are really into our adoption, hence the Russian restaurant. I hope I like the food. :laugh: Other than that, it's studying for Sunday school, cleaning and maybe going window shopping for suits for court. If I have time I may get on the TM too....or walk outside if it's nice.
Busy Saturday boogaloo!
MM
PS If my words don't make sense or there are letters where they shouldn't be, I blame my computer. The touchpad is super sensitive this morning.

lotusfromthemud

Morning pebbs,

MM and Mary, you guys are adorable.

It's official, my hands are way weaker. (my physio dude has these measuring things). So not cool. He did some work, and then spoke to the massage tech who will work on me later today. I'm trying to stay positive, but I'm in super cranky pants "what next?" mode.

I did find a reasonably (well fairly anyway) priced program that types when you talk to it. But, blergh. I really want to figure out the cause of this, and now. My frustration threshold has officially been reached.

Today is a walk (to lunch and back) and a massage. I also have to do editing, organizing, and figuring out what else needs to be done on the chapter.

Looking for patience, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

yoginimary

Today is my last trip to San Antonio for school - yeah! Graduation day. Which is really just a party. I think we are going to celebrate with friends at a gelato place tonight.

I've had many headaches recently. I hope they go away soon - and are just caused by allergies or smoke. I think the fires are going down because the humidity is going up and wind down, so they are easier to fight. We have rain in the forecast as well!

After San Antonio, we may go to a free yoga class on the roof of Whole Foods, go for a walk, or just do yoga at home. Depends on the weather and how we feel, etc. I don't expect I'll get my normal workout today.

Last school trip, boogaloo.

lotusfromthemud

Congratulations, Mary! That must feel awesome!

Today is Zumba, and work today is a must-do. Ended up doing no physical work yesterday (although I did do some reading.) Typing is proving very difficult. This is a very inconvenient time to develop a new infirmity. At least it's only ten days until I see the new doctor. (trying for positivity) This is a very strange sensation. . .how can something feel numb and hurt at the same time? The massage unfortunately didn't help much. They do feel better if I lay down flat on my back, which leads me to believe that it's something circulation-y.

Also, after long consideration, we decided to fly to New York. Have I mentioned that snake brain hates flying? I'm already getting the jelly legs just thinking about it.

Short post due to weird hands.

Weird hands, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

mechanicmom

V, I hope the next ten days go by quickly for you and you get some answers at the doc's! I also hope that you will get feeling back by then!

Mary, did the cold front hit down there? Brrr! It's May 1st and 54*! Tomorrow is a high of 50! I'm not complaining though. I'm not ready for summer so this is nice. I guess it's a late Easter snap.
Not doing much today. Went to church, DH us out to eat, and now I need a nap. I hate napping. It seems like a waste of daylight but I'm not really good for anything right now.

Snooze button boogaloo!
MM