My rant....not typical...but needed.

JStarnes

:grumble: :grumble: :grumble: :explode: :mad: :mad: :explode: :grumble: :explode: :explode: :mad: :mad: :mad: :mad: :explode:

so today was terrible. Woke up on time but screwed around so long that I was almost late to work. Got in a fight with my husband about him getting up on time so I had a terrible morning. Then comes lunch when I tell DH that I want to pump the tires on my bike so I can go for a ride after work and I get "who's going to watch the kidsS??" Nevermind, I'll just stay at home. Who needs exercise?? He tells me there are more important things to do around the house than worry about the stupid bike - I agree and come home. On my way home he calls me & tells me he's going out to the store & over to his grandmothers house (where I was going to take my bike to get the tires blown up & ride their neighborhood b/c its less traffic) and that he wouldn't be cooking dinner (he's a SAHD). I ended up at home doing nothing. I bought a seat today so I could take the kids on the back of my bike withme when I ride, but nope, DH was an *kitten* & although he said he didn't mind - his tone said different. I wish that for once I would just say F it all & do what I want - not what he wants, or what I think he wants, or what i think everybody else wants. Today was just awful & I feel trapped in this life and can't find the exit...just a temporary exit.. I love my kids & home & being a family...but when do i get to be me? Not MOMMY, not WIFE, not HOUSEKEEPER, not COOKER/CLEANER/WIPER OF BUTTS..............ALL I WANT is ONE tiny little itty bitty miniscule thing for ONE FREAKING MINUTE. I WANT TO BE ME AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :sad: :sad: :sad: :sad: :sad:

Oh yea - and instead of eating everything in sight to make me feel better like before - I've done a complete 180 & don't want to eat ANYTHING. nothing. nada. zip.

Okay - that's it. I got it all out. Time for bed - tomorrow is only an hour away & it's GOT to be better than today.....

staclo

I know it's hard sometimes! I'm home w/ 4 kids all day everyday. I definitely know the feeling of wanting a little time to yourself. Maybe talk to DH when neither of you are upset and let him know how you are feeling. I've been able to go out to a movie with my sisters a couple times in the last month. It's been nice to just do something!

I also don't eat when I get stressed now. Still not good, but at least we aren't shoving down all the crap!!

Try to get some good sleep. I hope you feel better tomorrow! :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:

OliveBranch

I'm sorry it was such a frustrating day!!!
I would loose it, but you kept your cool and have every right to feel as you do.
I hope tomorrow is a better day for you!
I'm going through the same thing with my boyfriend minus the kids...
It's tough to find time for things that are just for you when life demands so much of you in so many ways.
Keep your head up and feel better!
:flowerforyou:
-OB

keiko

I do hope tomorrow is better for you:flowerforyou: It sounds like you need the exercise just for stress relief. Talk to your DH and tell him that you need to have some time everyday to exercise. Both physically and emotionally. I know that when you get home he probably wants some time with you and maybe without the kids for a little while since he's been with them all day. I hope that by talking about it you can work something out.

keiko

Again the double post! What is up with that? Is it me? my computer? the website?

ilmommkc

I can see both sides...
I am a SAHM (although I am a college student-ONLINE) but I don't like my hubby to run off on the weekends and leave me with the kids-AGAIN. BUT, I like having me time also.
Maybe give him some notice/fair warning beforehand. Say "Friday I plan on going for a bike ride after work. Did you have plans?" I find that asking makes my hubby a bit more approachable and friendly.

Good luck!

April0815

i noticed when everyone is talking about their husban yall put DH. wat is that?

And since we are ranting i have a gym membership with my husband but i have only gone 2 times. I like going with him. He works 2 week offshore and 2 week home. So when he is home I would like to be with him at the gym. Well i have been with him twice. but sometimes we plan on going on a weekend morning and he comes in and wakes me up (not really good) for me to go . but as he is doing this he is saying sweetie why don't you sleep a lil longer. that is so he can get going and start his workout and be done with it and come home so we can start our weekend.

Well the last timehe woke me up he really wanted me to go with him and we really enjoyed going together. but he likes going when he is ready and he thinks that i will just do my treadmill and thats it.

Well I fixed him I have an appointment tomorrow to meet with a trainer to start me with a routine and to work with me. I have lost 50lbs and i need to add working out to it and now I am dedicated to do it by myself.

Sorry for all thatl felt good though

April0815

i noticed when everyone is talking about their husban yall put DH. wat is that?

And since we are ranting i have a gym membership with my husband but i have only gone 2 times. I like going with him. He works 2 week offshore and 2 week home. So when he is home I would like to be with him at the gym. Well i have been with him twice. but sometimes we plan on going on a weekend morning and he comes in and wakes me up (not really good) for me to go . but as he is doing this he is saying sweetie why don't you sleep a lil longer. that is so he can get going and start his workout and be done with it and come home so we can start our weekend.

Well the last timehe woke me up he really wanted me to go with him and we really enjoyed going together. but he likes going when he is ready and he thinks that i will just do my treadmill and thats it.

Well I fixed him I have an appointment tomorrow to meet with a trainer to start me with a routine and to work with me. I have lost 50lbs and i need to add working out to it and now I am dedicated to do it by myself.

Sorry for all thatl felt good though

JStarnes

DearHusband is what is stood for on the other forums I've been on.
Same with other family members...

DS= Dear Son
(or in my case DSS= Dear Step-Son)
DD= Dear Daughter
DBF= Dear Boyfriend