The "Food God's" are watching me

dumb_blondes_rock

So i kind of just had a literal ***** fit like i was some 3 year old spoiled brat toddler.....lol

I couldn' take it anymore, i needed mcdonalds soooo bad so i decided i would get a grilled chicken meal with light mayo and just work out tonight(i never work out)......and i of course did the msot stupidest thing and sent my dad to get the food...He came home and said "i hope you like cajun chicken" and i was thiking "heck yes! i freaking love cajun chicken"....even though it was breaded, i was happy to have it/ So he told me the story that he went to mcdonalds and asked for the grilled chicken sandwich(he couldn't see the number of what i wanted) and the lady, who is ohhhh soooo intelegent,....said to him :we dont' have those"......ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME???!!!! Do you really think we are that stupid, or are you just not banging on all cylinders up n the head.....(i know i'm really rude, but hey at least i can admitt that)

So i was telling him omg....well no wonder why she has a mcjob and is not some brain surgeon ( i know i was being really rude, sorry for tall the mcdonald workers out there).....and then i realize its one of those southern chicken sandwiches with pickles on it....I HATE PICKLES ON MY SANDWICH....lol.....and the whole sandwich wreaks of these pickles, so there is no "picking them off" either....so what is the most mature, adult thing to do??? i started literally freaking out! and then to make matters worse i grab for my ffries and i notice they are LARGE....so i freaked out on my dad and said "WHY DID YOU GET ME A LARGE...YOU KNOW I CAN'T NOT EAT ALL OF THEM!!!!"

And the saddest thing is that i literally almost started crying...why? i have absolutely no clue...i feel liek this crazy peron....i think i jsut felt so overcome with guilt in the first place cause i was going to eat out, then i didn't get what i wanted and just all these random emotions from this whole life change and guilt rolled into one HUGE B.f.!

So i made myself a peaut butter and jelly sandwich on 7 gran bread and ate like 1/4 of my fries ( basically the equivelant to a small fry)......which is waaaaaaay healthier than what i was going to eat....so i think the food god's are riding my you-know-what and watching like every move i make to make sure i'm not sabotaging myself lol....or maybe it was just a coinsedence...but i like to think it was the first one:)

So the reason why i wrote this is maybe some of you have a funny B.F. moment when you first started this diet that you would like to share and we can all jsut have a little laugh....cause i dont' care what anyone says i think you go through mood swings or something crazy like that when you start this lifestyle change!

songbyrdsweet

Wow, I hope you don't act like that to your dad all the time. He did a favor for you. Actually I can't say anything nice about this post so I won't say anything at all.

iRun4wine

:huh: :noway:

dumb_blondes_rock

No that's why i'm saying i feel liek a crazy person....i'm usually nice to my dad....land things like that are never a big deal to me....this whole mc ds thing made liek this angry hulk monster come out of me....cause i really don't get mad at things very easily ever.....

dumb_blondes_rock

Wow, I hope you don't act like that to your dad all the time. He did a favor for you. Actually I can't say anything nice about this post so I won't say anything at all.

You can say whatever you want....i'm not easily offended trust me....just keep it real....maybe there is something i need to hear

songbyrdsweet

Well, okay then. I don't think it's funny for anyone to be as rude and condescending as you just were. I'm 22 as well, and I don't act anything like that. I a) get my own food and b) appreciate favors and c) took this lifestyle on of my own accord and face the challenges with humility, not anger. If you treat people like that just because you're counting calories and exercising, how do you act when something BAD happens?

riveraphx

maybe you should apologize to your dad & tell him thank you for getting your food.

courtney_love2001

I think I understand what you were trying to say....this lifestyle makes us all crazy. My craziness points more toward bingeing...sometimes I just go crazy and eat so much junk and I'm so mad about it later.

I am proud that you didn't eat the McD's....I think someone was definitely trying to tell you that you didn't need to eat it! Listen to stuff like that! I always take it as a sign if I have something bad planned and I can't find the coupon or a friend calls and wants to make dinner together. Fast food is overrated..you think it's going to be this sublime experience and you eat it and don't feel as good as you thought you would. :grumble:

GreenEyedMonster

You almost have to look back on it and giggle. I dont think parents see the bad things we see about ourselves. As a father I can see it as "my little girl is hungry, must get her lots of food". Next time just say "Thanks Pappy, but it's a bit much. Wanna share my fries?"

heather0mc

hey blondie ~

i have an idea! if you EVER feel the need to binge again, just ask for extra pickles on everything!!!

then you can just chunk whatever you got and move on

:bigsmile: :laugh:

i wish it were that easy...:ohwell:

i understand where your outburst came from. i am not saying you handled yourself very well, but i will say that we all make mistakes in life and we must deal with the mistakes we make. as we do that, we grow into ourselves more and more. life is full of experience - dont forget to learn from them. :flowerforyou:

dumb_blondes_rock

ok i know you guys may think im some spoiled child...but let me explain something....i work two jobs....then i come home adn i cook, then i clean up then i clean house then i start laundry...my dad doesn't have to do ANY chores..except take out the trash........even when we used to eat out all teh time I had to go get the food......and he is a guy, he doesn't think oh she's hungry let me get her a lot of food, he's thinking ok jsut get whatever if she doesn't like it oh well....(trust me i know my dad) ....i did apologize to him adn we laughed about it.....and sorry if it came off as this huge bad way....but i still think it was funny, guess you had to be there....casue i mean come on, who freaks out over food? lol....i dunno maybe i'm different......all i know was i felt like i was 3 all over again...my dad even said he was going to put me in the corner if i do it again lolol

dumb_blondes_rock

hey blondie ~

i have an idea! if you EVER feel the need to binge again, just ask for extra pickles on everything!!!

then you can just chunk whatever you got and move on

:bigsmile: :laugh:

i wish it were that easy...:ohwell:

i understand where your outburst came from. i am not saying you handled yourself very well, but i will say that we all make mistakes in life and we must deal with the mistakes we make. as we do that, we grow into ourselves more and more. life is full of experience - dont forget to learn from them. :flowerforyou:

I know i handled myself completely wrong, i felt liek this bipolar weirdo.....but yeah...."can you jsut pour pickle juice ALLL over that sandwhch please?" HAHAH...good idea!

heather0mc

hey blondie ~

i have an idea! if you EVER feel the need to binge again, just ask for extra pickles on everything!!!

then you can just chunk whatever you got and move on

:bigsmile: :laugh:

i wish it were that easy...:ohwell:

i understand where your outburst came from. i am not saying you handled yourself very well, but i will say that we all make mistakes in life and we must deal with the mistakes we make. as we do that, we grow into ourselves more and more. life is full of experience - dont forget to learn from them. :flowerforyou:

I know i handled myself completely wrong, i felt liek this bipolar weirdo.....but yeah...."can you jsut pour pickle juice ALLL over that sandwhch please?" HAHAH...good idea!

sounds like you and your dad are pretty close! after reading your story the other day, i can totally see why :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:

dumb_blondes_rock

sounds like you and your dad are pretty close! after reading your story the other day, i can totally see why :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:
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we are close....we are a mix between roomates(the bachelor kind) and and old married couple that bickers at each other every now and then.....but one thing about us is we always have humor in things.....like he told me "umm would you liek some prozac with those fries" and i said "only if its DIET prosac....and salt free" lol

1Sweets

I'm not going to harp on you for the rant with poor dad (guess I just did) but I took a peek at your public food profile & IF you change your creamer to the Sugarfree Vanilla (I love the same one) you could have those fries without guilt. I have 2 daughters that keep me on my toes....are you a Leo or Aries by any chance? JK.

dumb_blondes_rock

I'm not going to harp on you for the rant with poor dad (guess I just did) but I took a peek at your public food profile & IF you change your creamer to the Sugarfree Vanilla (I love the same one) you could have those fries without guilt. I have 2 daughters that keep me on my toes....are you a Leo or Aries by any chance? JK.

well i got my huge coffe at the gas station this morning before work....and they didn't have any.....so i jsut said screw it and grabbed them lol.....but i made a note this morning on it "no more coffeemates" lol.....but at 5:20 this morning all that was on my mind was i neded coffee lol...thanks for the advice though!!!!

1Sweets

I'm not going to harp on you for the rant with poor dad (guess I just did) but I took a peek at your public food profile & IF you change your creamer to the Sugarfree Vanilla (I love the same one) you could have those fries without guilt. I have 2 daughters that keep me on my toes....are you a Leo or Aries by any chance? JK.

well i got my huge coffe at the gas station this morning before work....and they didn't have any.....so i jsut said screw it and grabbed them lol.....but i made a note this morning on it "no more coffeemates" lol.....but at 5:20 this morning all that was on my mind was i neded coffee lol...thanks for the advice though!!!!

Darn...I hate it when my "mom advice" doesn't work. :laugh: Your Dad sounds really funny & good nature'd. But seriously you could have coffee mate just get the powered or liquid sugar free type. mmmm really good. But yeah this life change just about killed me yesterday. I blew it too. I ate to many chewy caramel candies when nobody was looking & had to work out 2 hours instead of 1 to work off those darn things. Live & Learn. That's what life is all about (then you die).:laugh: :laugh: :laugh: Have a good night:flowerforyou:

soontobemrslowe

Lol that is to funny. Some people just dont like their job and are not smart at all.

dumb_blondes_rock

Darn...I hate it when my "mom advice" doesn't work. :laugh: Your Dad sounds really funny & good nature'd. But seriously you could have coffee mate just get the powered or liquid sugar free type. mmmm really good. But yeah this life change just about killed me yesterday. I blew it too. I ate to many chewy caramel candies when nobody was looking & had to work out 2 hours instead of 1 to work off those darn things. Live & Learn. That's what life is all about (then you die).:laugh: :laugh: :laugh: Have a good night:flowerforyou:
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no way! i lvoe "mom" advice....it was good advice... i used to get the fat free kind all the time, adn honestly i cant even taste a difference in it.....i find that in a lot of "fatfree" or sugar free stuff......it taste pretty much the same...except healthy chocolate...thats soooo chalky, so thats why i jsut buy the 100 calories pack lol.....

hgirl1021

dumb_blondes_rock,

i just read your story here and i couldn't help but chuckle! :laugh: cute!! you sound like you were PMSing lol. :laugh: :laugh:

dumb_blondes_rock

dumb_blondes_rock,

i just read your story here and i couldn't help but chuckle! :laugh: cute!! you sound like you were PMSing lol. :laugh: :laugh:

well i'm glad someone else though of it that way instead of how some were taking it.....i dont' know what was going on with me i was a straight up monster....lol....i did jsut get of my TOM so who knows lol.....i jsut know i did NOT like that side of me

klybarger

I think you should be proud of yourself for not eating the food! That is a huge step in changing your attitude about the not-so-good-for-you-food! In the moment, your Dad may not see your reaction as a positive step - but I think it a great sign that you may be in this healthy eating mode for the long haul!

Skinny_Mocha

I didn't get a chance to read all the comments, so I apologize if I'm repeating.

I understand your pain (and I'm sure you apologized to Papa for freaking out!). It's really frustrating when you try sooo hard to do the right thing, and someone messes it up for you. I would be upset for sure (and there are almost no foods I don't like, so I'm jealous that you have a food to hate!) and I think it's great you found a healthier alternative instead of caving and eating the bad stuff.

A lot of us are struggling emotionally on this journey, so it makes sense to have a freak out every once in awhile. I'll bet it even helped you to release like that, because you recognized how nuts you felt about it. Kinda weird, I know.

Just reading your post though makes me feel a little more in control of my own recent craziness (not the same as yours, but my own kind of fit), because I realize that's just what it is - a fit of frustration.

So, thank you for sharing even though you knew it might invite a negative reaction!

April0815

What happened to everyone telling if they had a funny b**ch fit over food before? I think she feels bad for freaking out on her dad and she apologized. I think she wanted to end this on a positive note and see if there was any funny stories that anyone wants to tell and instead she was scolded by a few people.

Jovialation

I can totally see how you feel. I have a ton of support from my bf and family but sometimes Ill say something like "omg I want ice cream but I shouldnt" and instead of saying "then dont have it!" he'll say "hon its only 130 calories per scoop, go have some"
and Ill get angry at him...luckily only on the inside most of the time but I feel so silly for it!
When I visit my parents they do the same thing. Ill talk about how I havent had a pizza with all the toppings I love in forever, or how I want chinese or w/e kind of food. SO theyll buy it for everyone and midway through the meal I go "ARG now I feel like I need to go walk for a few hours!" luckily the town theyre in I can take a walk for a few hours and run into a a ton of old friends.

Anyway...just try to see the upside next time. I hate when I make a plan and it doesnt work out at the last second more than anything, even if its just a little plan. So I have trouble not throwing fits when I run into that sorta thing.

Altho that story did make me giggle

rachi20024

I definetly understand. I had a bad one when I was pregnant I drastically had to change my diet b/c of gestational diabetes. My mother in law was visiting who is the most kind generous woman I have ever met and it was breakfast time. Low and behold no eggs, not a thing to be without when you have diabetes and can hardly eat carbs. Well I started B****ing to my husband that we needed to go the store. It was winter and our mile long dirt road was covered in ice ( not safe to drive at all! )
So my MIL ends up going to the neighbors they have chickens like 200 no joke. And she got me some eggs. I wasn't having it! I started crying and asked why her and my husband were ganging up on me:sad: and that I didn't want the eggs that my neighbors chickens had shat out.:embarassed: I definetly love fresh eggs but I wanted eggs from the store not my neighbors!
Anyways I ended up walking my 8 month pregnant *kitten* down my icy driveway to my car to get my way. After I ate I gave a sincere apology I felt so childish for freaking out over some eggs.

katie517

I attempted the Atkins diet a couple of years ago. My mom and I were doing it together (as we did with most of our diets). One night, sitting in the kitchen and chit chatting, I started to crave Cheetos. (I don't even really like the things.) Well, it has always helped me control my cravings by talking about them - don't know why, but it works. So I told my mom how badly I wanted some Cheetos and she kindly reminded me of the carb content. So - like any other grown, adult woman would do - I burst into tears. The look on mom's face was priceless, and seeing it caused me to laugh and therefore cry harder. I was a laughing, sobbing, snotty mess. Needless to say, I have never gone back to a no-carb diet.

So, yep I know how you feel. Luckily for those around me, my childish fits come in the form of sniffling and sobbing and not angry tantrums.