From self-conscious to CONFIDENT. I thank god.

I used to be sooo self-conscious. My hair, my face, my body, my personality even! I was so dependent apon people. I just wanted everyone to like me. Now I've learned not everyone will and if they act like it, most are faking it and screw you over in the end. But now I feel so much better. It took years and years but I'm finally so close, I feel it.

My hair ... Well I just damaged it so it could use some coconut oil treatments and uhh conditioners haha, but yeah that grows and will get better. But my face? I'm going to have it forever and I've FINALLY realized I'd say... In the last year? That it is beautiful. I used to find all these flaws. "My nose is big..." and "My eyes are too small" .. "Ugh, I hate my chin." But NO one is perfect. I now see beauty.. my nose isn't big, my eyes are just the right size for my face and there's nothing wrong with my chin. My body? Well that's why I said "almost complete". That's the LAST thing I need to truly work on.. I need some hard work and dedication but I can do it if I stick to it. Anyone in this world can.

I saw videos of people in the 400-800 pounds that did it! Yes! I said 800 pounds! I was so amazed. It took surgeries to help the 800 pound people but there was one man who got down to the 500's. That's 300 POUNDS!!!! If someone can lose 300 pounds, I can certainly lose 35. Personality? I'm me, I can improve but i will always be me!

Yes, I'm rambling on and on... I guess I made this post to express how much more independent I am and confident. I don't depend on people and if they don't want me I let them go.. I also work at a Real Estate office now as a receptionist which i was VERY lucky to get.. and appreciate god for it. But that's also made me more independent as before I was laying around at home pregnant.. Even with the weight on my body, I still FINALLY say i'm truly happy..

I have stretchmarks, my stomachs bigger than ANY part of my body, my butt used to be nice and plump and now it's nonexistant because of my stomach.. My skin sags.. my boobs are so imperfect. BUUT, even though i had a WAAAY better body before..? I'm more confident with a crappy body and confidence in myself than i was with an awesome body and self-conscious attitude.

Don't let your weight break you down<3 Work on it, improve you.. but still let yourself know you're beautiful.