Rededicated myself.

Hello all! So, I have not written much on here just because I didn't feel I had much to add. I've been doing this for so long and then it almost became less of a passion and I cheated and didn't stick to it all the time - which resulted in staying with the same 2lbs for a few months. I'm grateful I haven't put on but I just think, if I had been focused that whole time, imagine where I could be! I have about 18lbs to go to meet my goal. Have lost 45lb.

Now I need to remember how far I've come and to really rededicate myself to this important and rewarding endeavor. I don't want to go to bed at night thinking I've wasted another day being lazy with it. I'm not going to lie, I'm unemployed and this makes motivation difficult - but being fit physically does wonders for the mind. I am rededicating myself to fitness and health in every aspect of my life. It's scary but I know I need to do this. I'm stuck in a rut but the thought of feeling strong within myself again is just too exciting! I remember really focused workouts and thinking, "there is no way I can run on this treadmill and believe I am worthless". You just can't do it. Running requires belief. I need to get that belief back!

I've probably rambled too much. But it's never too late to refocus and start again. What you ate/did yesterday is done and only your actions today matter! Even if it's just sitting on here reading and educating yourself....you're going in the right direction. This forum is great.

Have a great day!