Hi everyone!

Well, I have decided to give this site a try to see if it will help me. Actually, this is my second go-around using this site, I lost motivation the first time and just quit.

I guess I am supposed to tell you a little about myself.

All through high school I was critized about my weight. I was too thin. Boney, breakable, sick-looking. And it was true I was pretty thin. Being 5' 7' and only weighing 110lbs doesn't look the best but honestly, not all of it was my fault. Let's back up....when I was in my early teens I didn't eat much on purpose. I didn't like food. I don't know what it was, I just didn't like anything. I was picky to the extreme!!! I didn't like the way anything tasted. i didn't like the feeling of food in my stomach. I would get in fights after fights with my parents because I would try the old "mix the food around on my plate so it looks eaten" trick. Never really worked. But I never thought that I was fat.

Then in my later teen years I finally decided to stop listening to whatever it was in my head that told me I didn't like food and start eating. So, that's what I did. I ate, ate, ate!!! Probably more than most men could eat.....but I never gained apound.

Finally, about 6 years out of high school, the weight caught up to me. It seems that my metabolism came to an abrupt halt. So, here I am 4 years later and almost 40 pounds heavier. Are you kidding me!!! How did this happen? You know what I found odd though....people always commented on how skinny I was. I would always get, "you are too skinny. Are you okay?" and I would get so irritated. I would always think, do they tell bigger people they are fat? I mean, how rude can you be. It works both ways. And, the same people that told me Iwas too skinny back then are now just as small as I was but for some reason it is okay for them but it wasn't for me??

Anyway, I am not very active anymore. I don't have much motivation. I need to get some. I need something to push me in the right direction. Just me saying that I want to lose weight isn't going to do it. I have a very addictive personality so you would think that this would be easy for me but for some reason this seems like the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

I just got married a few months ago and I don't want to be the girl that people talk about when they say, "they let themselves go after they get married."

So, I hope this works. I need to find me again.

Thanks!