Thanks so much everyone.

Last night's sleep wasn't great, but that was because I had A LOT of water before bed and it needed to come out.. multiple times during the night lol.

This is week 43 for me on my weight loss journey. 43 flippin weeks! Holy moly. I've dieted before but a month has been the longest I've ever stuck with something.
When I started all of this, I knew that this was it. I wasn't giving up, I AM going to reach my goal no matter how long it takes and I have stuck with it.
Oh it's been frustrating as *kitten* though. SO incredibly frustrating at times.
I see so many people doing the same things as me, or that cheat more often and have dropped like double what I have. I know you're not supposed to compare yourself, but we all do. I do it all the dang time and it gets to you even though you know better.
Just gotta keep chugging along though and that's what I'm doing.

I don't know why my weight isn't moving right now and it is hella infuriating. I think I'm going to give up dairy again. Most dairy. I might have cheese of some sort every once in a while and I'm still cooking with butter (although I do have ghee so I might switch to that), but definitely not going to consume it like I have been recently. That has been the only change I've really made so far so maybe.. MAYBE that is what is causing this gain.

Another bone broth day today. I only ended up fasting 19hrs yesterday, but I'm really not too concerned with it when just drinking bone broth.
Heck, maybe I'll do it tomorrow too. We'll see.. we'll see. I am looking forward to eating and DH wants steak and shrimp tonight..... *kitten* :P lol

Today’s Date: 4/15/2019
Today's Plan: IF w/ Bone broth
Weight Goal for the Month: 162lb
Today’s Weight: 169.6?
Today’s Exercise completed: 13min dumbbell exercise
Hours slept: 6 or 7hrs
Description/Photo of Meals: Chicken bone broth w/ added chicken bouillon, half a teaspoon of butter
Total calories: About 400-500

Your thoughts/comments on the day: Drank A LOT of bone broth today. No regrets. Ok maybe a little bit of regret with how much bouillon I added b/c I'm sure all that salt doesn't help anything, but oh well. I like the flavor it brings.
Not gonna lie though. I may break my fast early tomorrow bc damn do I want to eat right now.
The new batch of bone broth is pretty delicious though. I remembered to get an onion for it and it brought a lot of oniony goodness to the broth.
But yeah.. all I can think about is food. I just wanna EAT lol. I'm not sure if it's mental or physical..... thinking it's mostly mental bc I feel fine. /shrugs

FX that myself or the other 2 *DON'T get it.

Geeze.... why can't we edit our posts??

Today’s Date: 4/16/2019 (tuesday)
Today's Plan: regular eating day
Weight Goal for the Month: 162lb
Today’s Weight: N/A
Today’s Exercise completed: nada
Hours slept: not enough
Description/Photo of Meals: ribeye w/ hot sauce, horrible cup of instant coffee w/ monk fruit & half and half, bone broth w/ bouillon, 2 scrambled eggs and 2 strips of pork belly, sf jello
Total calories: 1700-1800

Your thoughts/comments on the day: This sleep issue is really putting a damper on my diet. Waking up with headaches and feeling like I shouldn't OMAD and then when I start eating, I want to eat EVERYTHING. Thank goodness for a little bit of self control.

Same this morning, horrible sleep for some reason and woke up with a headache. No idea what is going on but I really wish it would stop.
BUT even with the horrible sleep and wanting to eat everything in site... I'm extra motivated now b/c we've booked our beach trip for early August. WOO!
That gives me about 15 weeks to try to lose as much as possible and damnit, I'm going to try.. in a healthy manner of course
I've been toying with the idea of doing a bone broth week after my cheat next Friday. I could easily do it if I only had to worry about physical hunger b/c bone broth is pretty satisfying... it's that mental challenge that I would have to fight through. But a beach trip in a few months is incredibly motivating and I'm going to give it a try I think. At least, that's the plan for now Plans change and that's ok too

Going to hold off on buying new swimwear and gosh.... I'm really going to have to kick my butt in to gear. There will probably be more cheat days in between, but those shouldn't derail me too much.

Just super excited for a nice "relaxing" vacation at the beach. We had a trip to Disney early last year that was anything but relaxing. I'm sure this one won't be either since well... kids but it will be nice anyway lol

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I don't know what to really say about me and pants. I run a spectrum of sizes. I have some size 10's that fit a little loose and I have some size 16's that I can't yet fasten. It all boils down to how they are made. I guess I will always have to try on clothes and can't just pick up a size and know they will fit.

Yeah... I wish they would just use the sizes men get. I hate this vanity crap sizing for women b/c the sizes are SO different everywhere you go. I got a pair of capris while at Sam's. Size 12 and they fall off of me b/c they're WAY too big. Also got a size 12 pants there too, but they're too tight (I can suck in and get in to them though).
I have some size 14 capris that fit me perfect also some size 16's that fit the same.. also have some size 16's that fall off.
It's just annoying. It's like they think if they tell women their actual waist size in bottoms, we'll freak the hell out or something.
I do run the risk of something being too big or small but I wasn't going to run in to the fitting room w/ 3 kids lol. I held them up and they looked about right which is why I bought them If it was somewhere like Kohls where you can just go in to their fitting rooms without having to talk to anyone, then I would've tried them on first... if DH was there to watch the kids


volgirl- Isn't that just the best feeling? Finding something that was too small for you, putting it on and finding out they're not too big? Such an amazing feeling
I cant wait until I'm at my smallest size. HOPEFULLY in size small stuff b/c those sizes never seem to be out of stock anywhere (as sad as that is to think about). I can't wait to go spend money I don't have on cute clothes that I always wish I could wear

Lemme clothes rant a little more...
I love capris but DAMN it's difficult finding some when you're short! All the ones that you find just end up being like 2 inches above your ankles. And shorts.... the shorts I bought are ok, but why must they all be SO damn short? Where the hell are all the bermuda shorts?? I have loose flabby skin on my thighs that I do NOT want to show off. The shorts I bought barely cover where the loose skin can be seen. Like dang.. not all of us want to show off our thighs. Give us more options than capris, super short shorts, OR granny shorts.