Doom, Despair, and Agony on Me! (aka a whine thread)

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  • conniewilkins56
    conniewilkins56 Posts: 3,391 Member
    eliezalot I'm so sorry for your loss...sending good thoughts your way...

  • NovusDies
    NovusDies Posts: 8,940 Member
    @eliezalot

    The only thing I have found even remotely decent to say in these situations is to take care of yourself. What you and your family is going through is tough regardless of how it unfolds.

  • alligatorob
    alligatorob Posts: 736 Member
    I have avoided this thread, the title turned me off. I do my best to avoid gloom and despair to focus on the positive. I finally opened it and have been reading. There is a lot of wisdom here, for example:
    88olds wrote: »
    But intuitive eating? I think it’s a myth. The dieter’s Shangri-La.
    For most of the people reading this thread this is absolutely true! There are people who can eat intuitively and be fine, we call those people slim. That ain't or wasn't most of us. I think coming to grips with the fact that I would never be that way and would always have to battle my instincts to eat more than I should has been a real key, maybe the most important factor, in my weight loss.

    Anyway I will probably be back, but not with words of doom and despair!

  • eliezalot
    eliezalot Posts: 620 Member
    Thank you all for the kind thoughts. It has been a rough day, lots of ups and downs. The outpouring of support from everyone has been wonderful and overwhelming and exhausting. But I got through another day, and a bonus I stayed within my calories.
  • alligatorob
    alligatorob Posts: 736 Member
    eliezalot wrote: »
    I got through another day, and a bonus I stayed within my calories.
    Good for you! It doesn't get any better than that, its what it is all about. Now keep up the good work, get through today as well!

  • Ccricfo
    Ccricfo Posts: 156 Member
    @eliezalot
    I am sorry to hear about the loss of your grandmother. The connections we have with grandparents parents are very special. Thank you for sharing this...and take care.
  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,982 Member
    Ugh -my arm is sore! I stopped in this morning to get my bloodwork done for my up coming annual checkup and the lab tech was a student and apparently a newer one. She tried my right arm, missed the vein, rooted around a little to try to get Iran’s then had to move to the other arm where thankfully she hit it on the first try. I know it’s tricky and I don’t blame her, but my arm still hurts! :(
  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,982 Member
    Iran’s? That was supposed to be “in” -the things that happen when your “smart” phone tries to think ahead of you.... lol
  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,982 Member
    This is a grumble.

    I get very tired of people who weigh my goal weight and who are only maybe 2 inches shorter than me going OMG I'M THE FATTEST THING EVAR MUST LOSE WEIGHT OMG. Cause given that I'm still at least eighty pounds from goal, and still have a lot of visible fat on me, that really makes me feel awful.
    Hugs. I had a similar experience. Even when you know it's coming from their own issues, it's so hard not to take it personally. (If they are that disgusting at a few pounds overweight, how much more disgusting must I be?!!)

    That's what makes groups like this one feel like a sanctuary over the main forums; here we have plenty of people to talk to who are like us and understand our struggles. There, they may empathize and truly are compassionate in trying to be helpful, but having not walked any length in our shoes, they simply can't understand the challenges we are facing, just like I can't really conceptualize the challenges they are facing.
  • eliezalot
    eliezalot Posts: 620 Member
    This is a grumble.

    I get very tired of people who weigh my goal weight and who are only maybe 2 inches shorter than me going OMG I'M THE FATTEST THING EVAR MUST LOSE WEIGHT OMG. Cause given that I'm still at least eighty pounds from goal, and still have a lot of visible fat on me, that really makes me feel awful.
    Hugs. I had a similar experience. Even when you know it's coming from their own issues, it's so hard not to take it personally. (If they are that disgusting at a few pounds overweight, how much more disgusting must I be?!!)

    That's what makes groups like this one feel like a sanctuary over the main forums; here we have plenty of people to talk to who are like us and understand our struggles. There, they may empathize and truly are compassionate in trying to be helpful, but having not walked any length in our shoes, they simply can't understand the challenges we are facing, just like I can't really conceptualize the challenges they are facing.

    Same. Finding this group was such a relief for me! I try to avoid posts in the main forums that sound like they might go that direction, but that isn't always an easy task. In previous weight loss attempts, I'd let posts like that totally derail me. "Well if that is fat, how skinny would I have to be? That's even more impossible, what's the point."

    I've worked hard to be accepting of, and most often happy with, how my body looked at my various sizes. Some of it comes naturally, much I had to fight hard to cultivate. But with every one of those posts, I feel a little bit of that confidence eroding away.

    I hold no judgement of course, as everyone has their own experiences and struggles. But it saves me so much emotional energy to have people who just understand, and a place where I know I won't stumble across posts like that.

    I feel your pain, and am also so thankful to have found this group!
  • speyerj
    speyerj Posts: 1,369 Member
    I'm with you on all of that. I'm so thrilled to finally fit into a size 10 (from a 24) and then you see others who think size 10 is HUGE! Size 10 has been my dream size since forever. But remember too that shorter people carry weight differently than tall people. 20 pounds on them looks very different than 20 pounds on us tall girls. I don't look much different than I did 20 pounds ago. If I were 5' 1'' it would be a different story.
  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,982 Member
    @speyerj
    A size 10?!!! that's tiny! I'm elated to finally be in a size 18W! And I was thrilled to fit into a 22W when I got into there, as well! lol

    My brother and I were both built to carry our weight well - you'd never guess we weighed what we did, but at the same time, it also took a massive loss to start showing :)

    Though apparently, 20 and 30 lbs are now starting to be more recognizable on me than they were before.
  • AlexandraFindsHerself1971
    AlexandraFindsHerself1971 Posts: 3,106 Member
    edited September 2020
    speyerj wrote: »
    I'm with you on all of that. I'm so thrilled to finally fit into a size 10 (from a 24) and then you see others who think size 10 is HUGE! Size 10 has been my dream size since forever. But remember too that shorter people carry weight differently than tall people. 20 pounds on them looks very different than 20 pounds on us tall girls. I don't look much different than I did 20 pounds ago. If I were 5' 1'' it would be a different story.

    Yeah, my goal weight is 150, but I am a tallish (5'7"), broad-shouldered, and seriously hourglass shaped woman. "Hitch to plow when horse dies" Northern European peasant stock. (grin) Boyfriend thinks 150 is way too low, and thinks 180 is more realistic. I'll see when I get to 180 what I think. I'm not going to the gym to do cardio, I'm going there to shove weights around because I look forward to being a woman best described as a "brick house", and my partners and I all kink for me being a strong, flexible, energetic woman.

    Goal sizes are an 8 or 10 on the bottom and a 12 on the top. I have "huge acres of land" to cope with, and at a certain point I'll either have to just accept that they take a certain size regardless of my waist size, or have a reduction, and I'd rather not have a reduction. I already know that I'll have to have ab surgery to fix the gap put there by three large babies, and as a lot of weight is in my belly, there will probably be some loose skin to be taken in at the same time.

    I didn't exercise today. I was in a full fibro flare today, and I spent the entire day in about a 3-4 level of pain whenever I stood and moved. I just couldn't. even. this morning. I'll definitely give it a good try tomorrow, though. Even if I just go and ride the bike, I'll feel better, I know. It's probably stress; Boyfriend has a second interview for the Very Good Job tomorrow.

    (And that reminds me, I need to press the shirt he's going to wear. Every little bit helps.)



  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,982 Member
    @gwewl321 I'm sorry about the fatigue issues; boy do I know about those! Hopefully you feel better today!

    My whine for today is out of frustration with myself. I'm struggling to stick to a deficit all week this week, going over and nearly up to maintenance just about every day, and its showing on the scale. Its my fault, I know it is, but I'm struggling to get it back in hand. I really, really wanted to hit 220 lbs before taking an extended diet break, but I can't get this urge to snack under control, I'm not going to make it to 220 before I am forced to pull the trigger :(
  • amart4224
    amart4224 Posts: 345 Member
    This week has just been hard. I've been working from home for the past 6 months and I thought I had convinced myself that so long as I was working remotely, I would be able to stick it out at this job. (I took this job in December and realized pretty quickly that it was nothing like what was described in the interview and not at all a good fit for me.) Working from home alleviated some of the stress and it helped that I was home with my dogs all day, able to go for lunchtime walks, etc. But this week I just completely broke down, crying on the couch every day, wondering why I'm wasting my life at this job. Previous job stress was 100% the cause of my weight gain and I really struggled to stay on my diet this week. Add to that some minor depression over being 28 and single, plus a little burnout over keeping up with the housework of a constantly "lived in" house, and I was just very down. Trying to get out of my fast food and cookies habits of this week and turn things around to start fresh for the week to come.