The best of times, the worst of times.

Four days ago – December 7, 2021 – was the 80th anniversary of the attack on Pearl Harbor. But for me personally, December 3, 2021 was a day that will live in infamy. After almost 3 years of sedentary life (one due to a severe hamstring strain and almost 2 years of "work from home" COVID quarantine), last Friday, I found myself at my highest weight ever. I also found myself heading for Austin, Texas, to collect a prestigious lifetime achievement award for my contributions to Continuing Legal Education.

Zoom court hearings, oral arguments and speeches cover all manners of weight indiscretions. Pants too tight? Don’t wear them. Shirt too tight? Don’t button the bottom few buttons. Belt too tight? Cut another notch on it. After almost 3 years of sedentary “living”, the only garments that were not too tight were my tie and my handkerchief. Even my socks felt tight.

And so it was that on that day, I managed to cobble together enough professional clothes that were sufficiently load-rated to withstand my record-high girth for the few hours necessary. It was also when I saw myself on a 5-minute video of the award presentation ceremony and thought, “crap, I got really, really fat.”

I could have let the disappointment, anger and depression that I felt for myself and over my circumstances propel me to even greater heights of gluttony. Instead, I pulled “Scott's Greatest Hits” off the myfitnesspal shelf. In my case, that consisted of my healthy recipes and eating diaries I had accumulated each time I had lost significant amounts of weight over the past several years. I also dragged myself to Costco to trudge up and down the aisles three times this past week. One week later, I am down 10 pounds.

Yes, I know that many of those pounds are bloat and water weight. Yes, I know I cannot and will not sustain that rate of loss week in and week out. Yes, I know that a 10 pound weight loss is a minor victory given the 200 more pounds (give or take) that I need to lose to regain a healthier future. But none of that matters to me right now. I grabbed a ten pound sack of our cats’ food. No, I didn’t eat it. I considered the heft of what I was no longer carrying around on my body for WHATEVER reason. It was substantial. And to be honest, I do feel more energy and more desire to move around than I did one week and ten pounds ago.

And so it is that I sit here feeling satisfied after consuming my bowl of All-Bran Buds, fresh blackberries, and fat-free milk, cup of coffee with fat-free half and half, and Vitamin C gummies. Eight days ago, that probably would have been three fried eggs, several patties of pork sausage, and a bagel or toast. But we live, and hopefully we learn. For now, I have.

I will make no promises about where I go from here weight-wise and fitness-wise. At the ripe old and corpulent age of 60, I know better than that. I will only say that as I sit here in the gray, cool, and quiet of a Houston, Texas, early Saturday morning, I am proud of myself for having the courage to get back on the horse once more. I just hope I didn’t hurt him.

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  • Lietchi
    Lietchi Posts: 4,257 Member
    Lol, don't worry about hurting that horse 🙂
    It's great that you've gotten yourself on the road to better health again. Sometimes we just need a wake-up call to give us a push in the right direction!

    Wishing you lots of success!
  • callsitlikeiseeit
    callsitlikeiseeit Posts: 8,633 Member
    I think... I think there is a difference between knowing you need to lose weight (and we see a LOT of that on here especially heading towards the whole 'new year new me' mentality lol) and having a true wake up call. Those of us who have lost our weight and kept it off, had true wake up calls. I do hope that this is the case for you (as I always hope is the case for everyone).

    the wake up calls usually come after many rounds of 'need to lose weight' bouts. certainly not a hard and fast rule though, just seems to be true more often than not. Was true with me, true with many I know, and having been here around decade now... true of many stories I see. It is what it is, and that's okay. It was true of me, certainly. LOL

    Have a few tips, maybe they will help keep you motivated, and help you reach your goals without getting too discouraged (we all have our times of UGHHHHHHHHHHHH! no matter what wake up call you had LMAO)


    Cliffs Notes of Weight Loss:
    • small, sustainable changes
    • Understand weight fluctuations are normal. Thinks of a roller coaster, not a steep mountain slope down. Some weeks up, some weeks down. Its the OVERALL TREND that matters
    • Learn to weigh your food ON A FOOD SCALE
    • Learn how to find ACCURATE DATABASE ENTRIES
    • BE ACTIVE - get off your butt and MOVE. Find SOMETHING you enjoy. If your activity is limited, find ways to move that you are ABLE to do
    • Deprivation is the key to Binging and falling off the wagon. Learn how to fit your favorite things in regularly. There are no 'bad foods' Just 'bad quantities'.
    • One 'bad' day will not undo your deficit.
    • You did not gain the weight quickly. You will not lose it quickly. Better to lose it slowly, and KEEP IT OFF, then lose it quick, and gain it all back and more!

    Useful Links

    https://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/1234699/logging-accurately-step-by-step-guide/p1

    https://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/1296011/calorie-counting-101/p1

    and basically ... all of these :)

    https://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/10300319/most-helpful-posts-general-health-fitness-and-diet-must-reads#latest
  • Lietchi
    Lietchi Posts: 4,257 Member
    I think... I think there is a difference between knowing you need to lose weight (and we see a LOT of that on here especially heading towards the whole 'new year new me' mentality lol) and having a true wake up call. Those of us who have lost our weight and kept it off, had true wake up calls. I do hope that this is the case for you (as I always hope is the case for everyone).

    the wake up calls usually come after many rounds of 'need to lose weight' bouts. certainly not a hard and fast rule though, just seems to be true more often than not. Was true with me, true with many I know, and having been here around decade now... true of many stories I see. It is what it is, and that's okay. It was true of me, certainly. LOL

    Meh, it could be the case for many but perhaps not all 🙂
    I never had a true wake-up call, I nearly coincidentally stumbled into my weight loss journey. (Although I obviously should say I haven't quite reached maintenance yet - but 70lbs down so far, having started 2yrs and 4 months ago)
  • callsitlikeiseeit
    callsitlikeiseeit Posts: 8,633 Member
    Lietchi wrote: »
    I think... I think there is a difference between knowing you need to lose weight (and we see a LOT of that on here especially heading towards the whole 'new year new me' mentality lol) and having a true wake up call. Those of us who have lost our weight and kept it off, had true wake up calls. I do hope that this is the case for you (as I always hope is the case for everyone).

    the wake up calls usually come after many rounds of 'need to lose weight' bouts. certainly not a hard and fast rule though, just seems to be true more often than not. Was true with me, true with many I know, and having been here around decade now... true of many stories I see. It is what it is, and that's okay. It was true of me, certainly. LOL

    Meh, it could be the case for many but perhaps not all 🙂
    I never had a true wake-up call, I nearly coincidentally stumbled into my weight loss journey. (Although I obviously should say I haven't quite reached maintenance yet - but 70lbs down so far, having started 2yrs and 4 months ago)

    for sure, many, not all. no hard and fast rules in anything, ever. well, maybe somethings but i try to avoid speaking in any absolutes LOL
  • mjglantz
    mjglantz Posts: 450 Member
    What @callsitlikeiseeit wrote! It may take time but time will go by regardless and you can do this!