What's Your Most Recent NSV

sargemarcori wrote: »

i've had four days of just not caring much about what I ate. I don't really know why--I just...ate what I wanted. I didn't get down on myself, I did try to make healthier choices, but I wasn't anywhere close to my budget, and probably over maintenance too (I didn't fully track.) I tried to halt it after day one, day two, day three...then last night, I convinced myself to spend half an hour prepping some mason jar salads and overnight oatmeal. and BAM! I'm right back on today.

I *am* back on plan. and I didn't beat myself up or stress about it. I just had my fun then went back to what will now be normal for me.

Get out of my head! Seriously- I have literally just done 2 weeks of the “IDGAF” attitude! I was still exercising and trying to make healthy choices but inevitably I’d end up bingeing on ALL of the food! Every night I’d say to myself “Ok Sam, rein it in tomorrow, you KNOW that you’re fully capable of controlling your eating, you’ve been doing it so successfully lately “ and the next day would come and I would blow out again. I think if I was being honest with myself, I knew I wasn’t going to get back on track the next day when I had the motivational talk to myself each night, there’s just a feeling you get when you know that you’re properly back in the game and it wasn’t there those nights. This morning I woke up and that feeling was back and I’m so happy to feel it. I knew from past experiences that l would get back on track, but I didn’t know how long the IDGAF attitude was visiting for.
I spoke about this with my sister this morning. We both agreed that sometimes you just need to be gentle on yourself and accept that you will have binges, and that giving yourself permission to have those time out periods without the feelings of guilt and shame- the voices in our heads saying things like “I’m so useless- i can’t even stick to a healthy eating plan even when I know it’s good for me”
“I’m an idiot- I should not have eaten that extra thousand or so calories”
“I’m going to put on so much weight”
“I’m now behind schedule with where I want to be with my weight loss- I may as well just give up and not go back” <- this one in particular I despise because it’s not about how long it takes you to get where you want to be, the time is going to pass regardless of if you are working towards your goal or eating your way away from it! I am trying to reframe any of these thoughts that pop up, the new thing for me is that I’m not giving myself permission to give up, I’m giving myself permission to take a time out with the intention of getting back to it as soon as possible.
This whole thing is a mental game. If your head is not in the game you won’t get very far with it. When I’m having these time out moments, I try to look into what might be causing my IDGAF attitude, and work on that issue to solve it so that I can get myself back on the track I want to be on.

I played outfield the entire game at baseball today. No errors and a few nice catches.

At the start of the year I was near 400 pounds and didn't think I could even play this year.

I've spent the last week nursing a sore hamstring so have taken some time off from the gym - in the past this would have meant overeating but I've managed to keep the calories in check and taken up some lighter exercise!

I started the NHS Stength and Flex program instead of flopping on the sofa straight after work.

My NSV is that I can still fit into my current clothes. I have also logged in for 4,100 days

I had a goal to be 175 by my birthday and I am going to miss that by a few pounds. I wasn't too put out because I have been very consistent with my gym days.

I had a box of clothes to go through for fall/winter, and was sorting stuff I thought I might be able to wear by Christmas if I keep it up. At the bottom were 2 pairs of 10 jeans, Levis and Ariat. I tried the Levis on first because they tend to fit me sooner, and I wanted to see how far up my legs they went. They slid up over my butt and landed on my waist! I ACTUALLY BUTTONED THEM!

Then I tried the Ariat because the Levis fit, that's not a goal now. The Ariats fit too!

So now my size 8 jeans are the next goal, so weird! I know my butt doesn't fit in them yet.

My own husband didn't recognize me from behind! I was getting some steps in during lunch and the hubster was coming home from work and was wondering who was walking down the street. He didn't recognize that it was me until he got close and recognized my stride and realized that it was me. So of course he pulled up along side me, rolled down the window, and made a completely NSFW comment. LOL.

noticing my clothing are looser now, not being out of breath after walking short distances, change in stamina/energy

Bit of a twofer today - maybe even a threefer. I was setting up my afternoon snack and was about to grab something pretty okay but a bit high carb and low protein. That is, a matzoh cracker with 30 calories of spreadable cheese wedge. Instead I picked something that was about the same number of calories but will be much more satisfying. I chose a bunch of carrot sticks and some Greek Yogurt based dip, along with a serving (50 calories) of sugar free dark chocolate chips.

My second NSV is that I estimated my portion of chocolate and was only one chip off my 14 gram goal - for the record I was one chip under.

My THIRD NSV is that I'm really enjoying this snack and the chocolate will be enough because I can eat it slowly.

Also, I have a thought about a discussion a few comments above mine. I think it could be pretty harmful to automatically equate a few days of relaxed, non tracked eating with a "binge." A true binge is usually more of an uncontrolled event where a person eats more than is healthy, sometimes MUCH more than what is healthy.

If a person just doesn't track and maybe has a more relaxed attitude about eating, and is at maintenance or maybe a little above, then calls that a "binge," they run the risk of giving it way too much importance in their minds and causing mental backfires.

Just a thought.