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Analysis of a Binge
For the first time, I didn't spiral down in self hate after a binge. Instead, using techniques I learned (links at the bottom), I decided to analyze what happened. I feel knowledge will help prevent other binges, but if I just let myself fill with self loathing and recrimination, it's going to feed into more binges. It…
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Writers/Bookworms/Skeptics
It would be nice to have some friends who write or read a lot or are decided skeptics that apply a critical eye to everything; secular humanists are also cool. I know these qualities don't relate to weight directly, but I just enjoy people like that. If you know what my screen name is based on without Googling, we'd…
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Puppies! Aren't They the Best?
My pug motivates me, even though she sleeps 20 hours a day and eats peanut butter by the tubful. But she is a perfect model of support. She gets me up and out of the house even when I don't want to. When I feel fat or ugly or some other harsh thing, she still thinks I'm the greatest thing since snausages. She's built a…
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What I've learned from this plateau
First of all, it's not a real plateau. My bouncing back and forth between 4 pounds for 2 months is a direct result of not measuring etc. religiously and overeating. My body hasn't settled on anything. I've settled on it. Oy. So there's that. Ironically, it's also because of undereating. I don't eat enough, then I overeat…
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Oh Honey, Can't Lives on Won't Street
(tip of the hat to the movie "Flawless" for that line). Exercise is a bear for me. A big bear that eats my lunch and then trashes my tent. I have amazing friends on my feed that are just tearing it up fitness-wise, and so often think, "I can't do that." This is especially true of strength training and its results. "My body…
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NSV: The Salted Caramel Ice Cream Caper
First of all, let's be clear: nothing on god's green earth is as good as Bi-Rite's Salted Caramel ice cream. It's smoky sweet heaven in a spoon. I very rarely bring ice cream into the house, since I do have trouble not binging on certain foods. I completely agree with people who adhere to the "don't deprive yourself"…
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If You Had to Be VERY Careful Money-wise….
….but of course had to eat healthy for a month, I would love suggestions for lunch and dinner (I've got breakfast covered). I don't have a slow cooker unfortunately. But I have most other kitchen accouterments. I need complex carbs/proteins; just pasta and sauce won't hold me (though I definitely will be eating it for…
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Any one live in San Francisco or the East Bay?
It would be nice to have some local MFP friends.
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Remembering Food as a Joyful Thing - Now That It's Joyless
I was recently released from the hospital after spending a week there for a variety of problems, including a heart arrhythmia. I'm weak as a kitten right now (well, not the big strapping cat my parents' own; that cat could kick my a--). But the thing I'm struggling with the most is the absolutely ruinous effect food is…
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Your Health in Mind and Body (trigger for death)
I'm bipolar, and I see several parallels between my wellness of mind and my wellness of body. People who bark in both circumstances, "Pull yourself up by your boot straps!" may have the best of intentions, but there is a terrible weight that is more than our body and skin that pull us down, make us think we are not worth…
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Food Won't be my Baggy Shirt (The Body of a Woman)
I found this article on Jezebel and wrote out the last paragraph (below) and taped it to my refrigerator. The ideas expressed are not for women only, but it is written from a particularly female perspective. Anyway, I thought I'd share it. (Note: I'm an atheist, but I still love the heaven-sent line; I just don't take it…
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When Losing Weight is the Least of Your Troubles
Sometimes, losing weight and getting healthy and strengthening your self accepting messages should be at the top of the list. It's important to live a life undragged down by joints that won't bend or move without pain, lungs that feel like they are gasping for air through a collapsed balloon. The mirror that says you are…
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Don't Wait Until You Are Thinner...
…to live a good life. I always put everything off until the magical day when I'm finally not fat. So I don't date, I don't go out to enjoy dancing or street fairs or a day at the beach or anything that involves being fat in public. My office at work doesn't have any windows and I like the lack of light, as if it will fool…
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This Will Revolutionize Your Banana Eating
Peel from the bottom, not the top. Works like a charm, never snaps off, and better gets rid of those yucky stringy parts. For those of you who hoped this would have pornographic content, shame on you.
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The Importance of Failure
I’ve gained weight this week and gotten very wobbly with my diet. I feel bad about it. For whatever reason, though, I’m thinking of challenges and failures as gifts rather than a stone around my neck, proclaiming to the world I’m weak. There is power in failing. At such crossroads we are forced to stop. We are forced to…
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As it Gets Harder, You Must Get Easier
Years ago, I found myself in the same place I am today: struggling to make peace with my body while also working toward its improvement. I found some writings of mine about striving under difficult circumstances. When things are hard, and one feels so weak and discouraged, how to keep on keeping on? I found that answer in…
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I Stopped a Binge Right in its Tracks
I was taking the bus home yesterday afternoon when I heard a familiar voice. I glanced up and it was someone I had been best friends with--who I loved to distraction--and who I hurt many years ago, leading to the end of our friendship. She told me I broke her heart the one time I tried to talk to her, and wouldn't put…
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Chocolate Cupcakes for 155 Calories
I love these things. They are moist, light, and delicious. The recipe is also vegan! I'm not vegan, and was unfairly prejudiced against vegan recipes as I thought of all the sad, spongey tofu out there. But no longer. I have seen the light! INGREDIENTS Makes 12 cupcakes 1 cup soy milk 1 teaspoon apple cider vinegar 3/4 cup…
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This Little Tattoo on My Wrist: Healing, Health, Hope
I have several tattoos, but right now the most meaningful--and the one that relates most to what I am trying to accomplish on MFP--is the small crane I recently got on my wrist. The crane is a symbol of health and longevity--a long life. In Japan, there was a young girl who survived the nuclear bombings of World War II,…
