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Oh I just mean I do my goal settings and stuff in Saturday's and my official weigh in and stuff on Saturdays. I think maybe I shouldn't do it anymore because recently I'm finding it easy to justify starting next week instead of tomorrow, and I think part of it is seeing I've already screwed up the week based off of MFP…

Try to force yourself to go! I had the same issue today. I told myself I would only go for fifteen minutes and I did. I didn't stay longer like I thought I should have, but fifteen minutes was pretty painless and I felt better. But I feel another binge coming on. I cannot pull myself together. At least tomorrow is the…

Oh wow I've never had Oreo thins before but I like the sound of them. I ended up going to the store but just bought a small think of twizzlers and some doughnuts that I'll share so I guess that's it for the day. I came in just over 5000 calories which considering the cheesecake I ate, is really not bad. Still not good and…

That makes me so happy, and I'm sure it will help! I think being able to vent about what's going on can make a huge difference. That's why I'm all over this forum all the time haha!

Ugh I hate that. I also will buy things for people and eat it. And I'm really dreading the Easter candy! I hope tomorrow goes better for you. My day was bingey but not full blown binge day which is uncommon given the circumstances so I guess I owe myself credit for that.

Yeah that's tough. I used to restrict a lot after bingeing but it didn't do me any favors. Now I make a conscious effort not to, but then I feel like I end up bingeing anyway so it's frustrating. Today is going surprisingly well given the cheesecake earlier. I could have really gone off the deep end but I haven't really. I…

Thanks, I think getting out of the house would be a good idea. I'll go on a walk, and maybe I should reconsider going to the gym at some point. I hate myself so much right now, I do not understand why this is so difficult.

Update from four minutes ago: I ate 3/4 of it. Writing here to try to stop myself from finishing it now so I can have it later. Today is going to be horrible.

Things are not going well for me. I have a day off from my usual internship and decided I'm not gonna go to the gym. Now I went to the store and bought a cheesecake. It's relatively small and I've been craving it so much I feel like I need to just get it out of my system so I can stop obsessing a move on. But also its only…

I do the exact same thing. I should consider not tracking. I've weighed and written my food in a journal for years so I could always keep doing that and not do it on MFP and see it that helps. Ok so glad you both had good days! Mine wasn't good, but given the circumstances could have been worse. Still not happy with it.

Scott, your getting to know you had been my favorite so far! So funny!

Msty, I actually volunteer for a national organization that connects people with resources for disordered eating. If you are interested, I'd be glad to see if there's anyone in your area. I would need to get basic info (like how far you're willing to travel, city, etc) but I can totally do this. Of course some places are…

Msty, you should definitely go to the counseling center and see what's available. There might be something worth looking into. I think I'm going to have a bad day. This is why: - I have two eating disorder related appointments today that I'm nervous about. - I have lunch plans, therefore anticipate bingeing afterward. - I…

Sounds amazing and something I'm incapable of even though it seems straightforward. If ever you're in NY, please let me know and I'd be glad to put you to work!

Another bingeing trigger: eating garlic and/or onion when either are strong. I always get a very intense sweet tooth afterward.

That would be incredible. I have no idea how to make cheesecake, and my attempts have failed miserably (although I still enjoyed the lumpy cream cheese with sugar mixture). I did okay tonight. I averted the crisis and compromised. I went for frozen yogurt where I knew they had cheesecake bites and I went light on the…

Contemplating going to the store and buying a whole cheesecake and eating it all.

If you feel the urge try to message someone or post on here! Tomorrow I have lunch plans and I can feel myself trying to justify a binge. Like "I might as well get it out of system and then I will start fresh on Thursday." I'm trying not to give in though. I don't actually have the physical nagging yet, it's mostly just…

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Thanks for your response. May I ask how you define better taking care of yourself? It sounds like that has helped you with the bingeing, which is great. If it's too personal, no need to reply.

That's amazing, congratulations! It sounds like you know what your triggers are and were able to avoid those.

Me too, I'm just getting started. Considering making a run to the store and getting a gallon of milk to make an enormous batch of tapioca pudding.

Oh no, I'm sorry to hear your day isn't going so well. However, it sounds like you are early enough that you can stop and not feel too guilty! If you are anything like me (which, you seem to be!) you are probably self-sabotaging because you lost two pounds. Historically, when I reach new low weights I always binge. It's…

That's seriously amazing. I can't imagine having just one or two. It's easier to have nothing than to stop once I've started. I'm really glad that it has worked out so well for you!

I have a couple of friends like this, and it is the worst. I actually told one of them that I have a problem with food, and it didn't even help. In some ways, I felt like it made things worse, like they were "testing" me (I'm sure most people are not like that though!). Not cool at all. But I totally understand how you…

Ditto on the "hole" thing. I never feel satisfied, and I'm always trying to find satisfaction with food. I think part of it is that I truly enjoy eating, so I never want the "experience" to end. I've never been one to eat on the go, or really even eat in front of the TV. I mean yes I do do that, but I prefer to sit down…

That makes sense, thanks for your response!

I am also guilty of the "if only" thoughts. I thought of another BED lie that I tell myself. I tell myself that one huge binge will have smaller consequences than overeating a few times. For example, if I go completely nuts in one day I will gain less weight than I would if those foods were eaten over the course of a week.…

Congrats on the two good days! Are you concerned that you might binge at your friend's house, or that it may cause you to binge afterward? You got this!

I'm so glad things improved. I also think it's really important that you commend yourself for doing a week and a half without a binge, that is fantastic! Every day that we can get through this is an achievement. In order to survive, we must eat. But eating is such a trigger for many of us! So congratulations, and keep it…