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And all you've had to do up until now is take that? No therapy in addition? And do you anticipate being on it long term? If this is too personal feel free to private message me, or just let me know you're not comfortable sharing!

Thank you, that's what I needed. You're right, there's nothing magical about May except that I will graduate. I guess the thought of doing something so intense just seems like so much work, and I have no energy these days. I feel like in many ways I am ready, but I think it's going to require a lot of effort and that is…

I know, when I saw nachos and I fries I couldn't believe it! For the record I haven't had nachos in forever, so it is actually quite a coincidence!

I can totally relate to this. And I feel like every week I start out feeling especially strong. I usually have a good day, get really pumped about it, then everything goes downhill and I start to see "next week" as a new start. Or "tomorrow." It sucks. And I also agree that binge eating definitely can be very habitual. At…

That is so incredible! That is my ultimate goal: moderation and balance. I feel like we should all be able to just eat what we want, and that what we want is probably not so much what we think it is when we are in this mentality. I think going out for a burger and fries is awesome, especially since it didn't set you off! I…

I agree with you 100% on this. I think the "all or nothing" frame of mind is the biggest issue that I struggle with, and I think it's probably pretty common among many of us here. Although I am sure there are many BED-related lies that I tell myself, I would say that the two most frequent ones that also fall under the…

Up two "real pounds" according to Happy Scale this week, although I've seen the scale fluctuate about ten pounds. A pretty bad week. Binges were moderate and under 5000 calories, but they happened daily. I'm not going to set weight goals for next week and instead am going to set my calories at maintenance and just try not…

That's awesome that you both opened up and that it's been helpful. For some reason, I feel being open about it with my husband has had the opposite effect. Now I don't feel like I need to be as secretive about it, and I binge in his presense. It used to be that binging was in some ways a crime of opportunity. Now, I no…

Yay that's amazing, congratulations!

That sounds like a GREAT accomplishment to me! Talking yourself down from a binge takes a lot, the urges can be so overwhelming.

Congratulations, can't wait to see the official weigh in!

For the record I had eaten at least half of the bowl and was totally unaware.

I only have one experience that ruined any kind of food for me, and it was only temporary. One time I got up in the middle of the night and filled a bowl with tons of raisins and nuts then ate them in the dark in my roommate. Halfway through I turned on the light so I could go to the bathroom and there were THOUSANDS OF…

That's amazing! Great good descriptions get me every time. You should definitely check out that book, I think you would really like it.

Haha that makes me feel so much better! I remember watching it when I was little and my friends squirming with disgust while I sat there salivating in shame.

I'm glad people are having good days today, it's always a great feeling to start the week off on the right foot!

You nailed it! It's 100% about texture. Peanuts are fine and I'll eat them but it has nothing to do with flavor. I confirmed that this weekend when I got powdered peanut butter and ate a bunch of it and was not remotely satisfied until I got to the real thing. Totally a texture thing.

Now I'm so curious to watch those movies! I remember watching "Matilda" when I was younger and there is a scene where a boy is forced to eat a chocolate cake that's "mixed with sweat and blood." And all I can ever remember thinking was how deliciously moist it looked.

I LOVE this, and could have used it today. Some of mine: -Weight gain -Swollen face the next day (I always wonder if people think I spent all night drinking) -Loss of motivation resulting from weight gain, which usually makes me want to binge again -Self loathing -Embarrassing -Waste of food and money -The peeing every…

Serious question: do you actually get so grossed out by things that you lose your appetite? I never have that happen. I can witness the grossest things and still stuff my face. There was only one time I developed a short-term aversion to raisins, but otherwise I've never been so disgusted by something (especially a…

I never keep peanut butter around for that same reason. But last night, my husband really wanted to make a peanut based soup. The peanut butter tortured me all of last night and this morning. He hid it from me, and I found it. I confessed and didn't open it, and he hid it again. And I found it again. And then I agonized…

Both of your moments sound totally familiar to me. But the awful uncle is just...awful. I never understand what can make people so cruel.

Me too! Why is peanut butter the worst?! My husband even hid it from me and I found it...twice.

Oops not sure what happened, I think I posted without finishing or something glitchy is going on. Anyway, I hope that your inkling is wrong! I do know the feeling though and it's not a good one.

I do know

That's incredible, congrats!

Oh no, so sorry to hear that! Well you have a good two months under your belt. You can strive for another two! One day doesn't need to set you off on long rampage!

Today I woke up extremely hungry and exhausted. No energy at all. On days like this, I usually binge. I decided to have a good breakfast, and I was fine for a couple of hours. Then very hungry again. Ate again. Now starting to feel some urges. It's only 12:30. The good news is I have to leave for an appointment in an hour.…

You can be a Negative Nancy any day, and you are not even negative! In any case, we all have bad days. It sounds like your circumstances were tough, but you still did a good job of facing it. I think it's great you didn't go home and totally demolish everything in site...that's what I would have done! Keep up the great…

Awesome, great job! I also have a tendency to restrict post-binge, but then I end up binging again so I've made it a goal for the last few months to try to break out of this pattern and not try to overcompensate. It can be hard though! Keep up the great work!