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Just got this today. I added it to my hot chocolate and it was really good.

I read an article that said most caregivers end up dying before the one they’re caring for. It kind of freaked me out, because I’ve always felt my life would end tragically.

Red lentil, chickpea, coconut milk dhal with Jasmine rice 🤗🤗🤗

I’m tired of being in pain and I miss working out. I have mild degeneration in my lumbar spine and I’m kind of freaking out. I don’t want to end up in a wheelchair like my mom.

None of my tattoos have meaning. I got most of them out of boredom and being infatuated with one of my artists. I regret most of them. Me and my younger brother are estranged. My mom is my only family. I taught myself how to cook.

Thanks 😌

This freaks me out too.

Falling asleep. I have this irrational fear of dying in my sleep, or my mom getting sick while I’m asleep and being unaware of what’s go on. It makes bedtime really stressful.

It passed..........Fortunately. I was having a really bad day and I was sitting near a beer cafe waiting for my mother while she was shopping, and I just felt this sudden urge, but it wasn’t overwhelming though. I just felt what I felt, played it forward and then it went away. My drinking days are done. Sobriety is really…

Moping 😓

I’m having my first real alcohol craving in over two years.......... This is bad.

Burned out and overwhelmed. Between moving, taking care of my mom, dealing with chronic pain and a cycle from hell I’m just BEYOND exhausted. I try confiding in my mom and therapist, but they just don’t truly get it. I feel like I’m drowning. I don’t even feel like a real person. I’m just my mother’s caregiver. People…

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He had a massive stroke. He didn’t make it.😔 90210 was a highlight of my youth.

I’m so burnt out from moving 😓

Being bedridden. Roaches. Rats.

Not being in pain 😓

There’s really nothing to go back to tbh.

My best friend said something really insensitive and it hurt my feelings. Two days ago I went to the ER, because I was having pretty bad dizzy spells. I had a really cute, nice, male nurse, so to make light of the situation I texted her I was in the ER and that I had a really cute male nurse. So she responds with “look for…

Thanks 🙏🏽 Thanks 😪 I just wish my health problems would go away and I could sleep. I’m moving downstairs next month and I’m just feeling overwhelmed. A few months ago I found a half dead firefly on my window sill in my room. I have no clue how it got in, because I keep my windows closed and sealed shut with duck tape (long…

Therapy is not helping, medication is not my helping, working out is not helping. If anything I feel like I’m getting worse.

I’m having two servings of Reese’s puff cereal for my late night snack/meal tonight. It fits into my calories 🤗🤗🤗🤗

F?%! It! I’m buying my OWN chocolates on Valentine’s Day 😤😤😤😤 I might even buy myself some flowers *sings* 🎶Me myself and I is all I got in the end🎶 😝💁🏽‍♀️💁🏽‍♀️

Empress Tallulah 🥰🥰🥰🥰

It’s terrifying how time never stops. I wish I could pause it for about a year to “catch up” so to speak. I’ve been taking abilify for almost a month and it’s really been helping, but I still have this incessant burnt out “BLAH” feeling. I plan to bring it up in therapy this week.

Anxious and overwhelmed 😓

👆🏽👆🏽👆🏽👆🏽👆🏽👆🏽👆🏽👆🏽👆🏽 2,6,7, my weight, and fear.

Nope 😭😂 That’s Empress Ri in my avi 😌

Sad and tired.

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