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AS a dear friend who I don't see often would say when he was about to reveal something "Buckle UP!!" So my revelation today is that I AM going to the town far, far away (sounds like a fairy tale doesn't it?) Actually only 33 mins from my house once I googled it...to my first AA meeting in decades. I vaguely remember going…

Hey you <3

Really glad to see you still here <3

WELCOME to the best thread EVER!!! LOL Food is my last hold out and I still use it for comfort and need to get back to finding other ways again. I'm thinking that food was likely your first love as it was mine and a deeply entrenched source of comfort, not a healthy way to comfort ourselves but familiar huh?? I'm also…

Hi @whitpauly <3 Thinking of you these days. @donimfp <3 You are here for me NOW!! Your timing is perfect & @JenT304 <3 Thank you There is NO shame in starting over, in fact it is a sign of humility & strength...one definition of humility is "teachable" and that is a strong quality that will help us to learn the lessons…

OH btw one of those bottles of wine went back in the wine rack @ my client's and the other to my non-drinking friend's place :D Temptation averted this time around...phew!!!!

Love that Blessing for certain AND I'm thinking your dream was called a nightmare...I'm thinking of hitting up the morning AA meeting in that far away town tomorrow. I'm off again and love to drive and just filled my tank so I can't think of an excuse not to...

GOOD Sober AF Or whatever type of Morning, hopefully a good one for all...I have NO regrets from last eve and the two unopened bottles of wine are still on my kitchen counter waiting to be put elsewhere. I came SO close...it feels like I escaped something awful...It feels like the time in the initial phases of my sobriety…

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OK Dick Van Dyck it is...I can't believe it is allowing me to type DICK!!! Are you kidding me...I'm still killing myself laughing... :D :D :D

Van Dyck might work..anyway if it does it again it was the show with Mary Tyler Moore and Dick Van *kitten*

OMG I'm am killing myself laughing...the stupid auto correct or whatever you call the politically corrector of swearing or rude words kicked in the first time I typed Van *kitten* and corrected it to Van "kitten" OMG are you kidding me!!!!!!?????? I wonder how it will fix it this time if it does cause further on in my…

I dont have any wisdom. But I do know you will REGRET it. You will. I always do when I break down. For a few hours of mind numbing experience, you will have a headache, perhaps get sick because you're not used to it, and feel disappointed. Tomorrow morning, I promise you that you will feel relieved or at least proud of…

Today is the WORST temptation day yet...I've been off work the past two days and have been in contact with family via text, FB and phone...I've really needed some alone time to bawl away even though there are times I feel SO alone, but I really need to be...my friend who has been there for me this weekend from the first…

SO happy to hear from you...I MISSED YOU <3 We ALL missed you! Ditto to Ruby's loving words to you :) THANK YOU for all the <3 & hugs from everyone.

Hey I am certainly weak at present and I've been bawling my face off ... on & off for days now...I am a huge proponent of tears...I prefer to think of it as poison leaking out of my eyes, because if we hold it all in and put on a brave front that poison will rot us from the inside out...Thank you for allowing me to be weak…

GOOD Morning to Everyone <3 SO far the drinking has been kept to a minimum while I've been at my brother's. I am glad to see that actually. Yesterday, wasn't as huge of a tempter as I anticipated, but I volunteered to be Designated Driver for some of my Fam that arrived from the city for the day...the one thing about being…

Thank you for all the love <3 from my Sober Squad Fam <3 It is SO tough to believe still. The pain comes in waves...it seems to be like that for everyone of us. One of my Fam expressed it best, "It's like we're waiting for him to walk around the corner" There was a huge temptation to drink yesterday and as I was sitting…

I am checking out for a few days. I don't want anyone to worry about my silence cause y'all know that is usually not an issue for moi. BUT my heart is really hurting right now and I need to process some grief. My brother died today from a heart attack.It's really hard to believe!!!!!! that he is gone. He was such a good…

It can be a daily struggle but worth the effort and one day it could be less & less of a struggle if that's what you want it to be. Hoping the best for you.

Thank you for checking in. Perhaps it isn't that you've "failed" at your sobriety journey, but whatever you are going through right now is part of that journey. Obviously, you have felt at some point that alcohol is a problem for you on some level or you wouldn't be on this thread. So the fact that you recognize that…

Thank you...I was just curious about Norm's challenge...so I suppose it's old news now LOL Anyway, glad you're still working on it. :)

Welcome @mobuckl. Glad to know you're out there :) @RubyRed427 My heart goes out to you cause I know your path is not easy and as you shared after all the activity and once life begins to settle down, the feelings are surfacing. Although you don't regret divorcing it IS a loss and there is a grieving process just like any…

Hello to all my Sober Squad friends...I'm hoping everyone is on vacation and having a wonderful time and that is why the thread is SO quiet once again. I realize that everyone who reads doesn't necessarily comment, but what would be lovely is if those who read could once in awhile just say, "Hi" to let us know you're…

Hi Friend of Bill W in Northern Iowa...WELCOME :)

@tifano Thank you for sharing more of your story. <3 What a struggle, but you have developed the courage to continue to struggle and that is inspiring for us all here. @RubyRed427 LOL Yes, no cameras at my place. I did confront the female of the other dog sitting gig with the camera situation. I left it for a bit wondering…

Another quiet weekend here. It is a lovely evening in my part of the world and I'm sitting on my patio writing this. I am dog sitting for a couple of weeks for a couple who are in Europe...they travel extensively and I am blessed to be able to care for their canine pal. I hope that everyone is having a happy, healthy AF…

You're singing my tune sista!! LOL I should lend you the sign my friend made me years ago when I was FILLED to the ying-yang with guilt...3 simple words NO MORE GUILT !! Go on youtube and put in guilt & it will come up with all kinds of help for working through it! At least giving you some ideas what may be fueling yours.…

@aroze0928 The purpose of guilt is to signal that we have done something wrong and that we need to correct it. You've done that....That was then, THIS is now. Once guilt has served it's purpose, continuing to punish ourselves with guilt only serves to cause us to feel bad about ourselves....you do not deserve that! I agree…

Hope everyone is well <3