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Probably. Mine went from: January 2017: (I started losing weight December 30, 2016) Total: 154 Triglycerides: 185 HDL: 43 LDL: 74 To May 2017: Total: 139 Triglycerides: 126 HDL: 49 LDL: 65 At this point I had only lost about 25-30 pounds and was not really exercising (I'm still not really consistent with my exercise, but I…

I believe that mood stabilizers and anti psychotics that cause weight gain when the diet hasn't changed, such as in the comment two above me that it's changing the CO side of the CICO equation. This is just a personal theory of mine, based on my experience with Abilify. I lost 70 pounds with WW while just on Cymbalta. I…

Yeah, I should do that. The Goodwill in my town never had my size jeans when I was bigger (lots of obese women in my town, small Goodwill), but now that I'm a 22 maybe they will. If not, I can drive to Fort Worth and go to the many thrift stores up there. I have plenty of tops, but I need a couple pairs of pants to last me…

Welcome back! Good to see you again.

And many young women not planning pregnancy still end up pregnant, even if they are on birth control. I believe every young heterosexually active (or potentially heterosexually active) female should supplement with folic acid just in case of an accident. I'm childfree. I chose to not have children and had my tubes tied at…

A few months ago I bought new bras, because my old ones (50DDD) were WAY too big in the band and falling apart. I bought 44DDD and they fit "well enough". The underwire (new for me, I always wore soft cup before, because I never found underwire that went big enough) didn't rest on my ribcage between my breasts. Pretty…

<3 Thank you! As annoying as they are, I love my bonier knees. Because they mean I worked hard and have been successful, eating pizza and having many days of going over my calories! Yep. I got so used to seeing 307 pound me, that 249 pound me still looks strange. I know I'm not yet, but I feel so SKINNY when I put on…

That's an amazing way to think of it. Never thought of it in quite that way before. I think that's really going to help me ignore the haters. Thank you!

Thank you. <3 This disordered thinking is why I got back in therapy. Hopefully my new therapist can help me overcome these rotten thoughts and compulsions.

Bipolar I with psychotic features, PTSD, ADHD, anxiety. On a handful of psych meds and an appetite suppressant to control all that. Just started therapy again to overcome trauma as a child that led to the PTSD and possibly triggered the bipolar disorder, and definitely triggered the weight gain. Despite all that nonsense…

I was born 10 lbs 11 ozs, but wasn't fat as a kid - tall and big, but not fat. I had a 32" waist at 12 and wire a size 16. I knew I was getting fat when my (abusive) mom told me she was getting me 18s because I'd be in them by winter. I was. I got fatter as the years went by, reaching a size 30/307 pounds at age 37. I…

I know I judge myself too hard. It's one reason I'm in therapy again, my damn brain weasels keep lying to me. :) I am proud of myself for losing 50 pounds last year though. That took work, and is an accomplishment. Here's to another 50 this year hopefully! You should be proud too, losing weight is simple but not easy!

I'm in the middle of my weight loss, and I still find myself going to the grocery store in the morning to buy junk food for breakfast - a frozen pizza, or tater tots, or pizza rolls. All foods that will use my daily allotment of calories in one meal, or almost. Then I skip lunch and have a light dinner. NOT HEALTHY. And a…

My latest A1C yesterday after three months of *not* paying attention to what to what I eat (tsk tsk) was only 6.0! That's only up a tenth of a point from the last A1C in September, when I was watching what I ate. My insulin resistance is staying down as I maintain, now let's see if I can get it down to 5.8 in the next…

This one, I'm about 280. After this I joined Weight Watchers and lost 70 pounds on Flex Points. Dropped out due to mental illness, and ended up at 307. These two were at my highest weight of 307 On my birthday in early December at 250 (I started MFP on December 30, 2016. Over the course of last year I dieted for about six…

I came back. Been tracking for 5 days after a break since late October. On track to eat at/just above my calories for the second day in a row. This is huge, I've been struggling with coming back. I'm also cutting out my sugar free creamer in my coffee. Probably will never give up Splenda, but I'm learning to enjoy it…

I'm on a handful of psych meds (bipolar I with psychotic features, whee!), I think I'm an SSNI, not a SSRI, but they all have weight gain as a side effect. I lost 50 pounds last year (I'm struggling to get started this year, but I'm working on it) counting calories just like everyone else. It's still the same CICO…

If you have a WinCo nearby or another store with a bulk section buy your dry staples there, after comparing the price per ounce with the cheapest store in town. For me WinCo is cheaper on beans, rice, many nuts, and oatmeal (I buy the 15 pound bag and bought a 5 gallon bucket to store it in, but they sell bulk oatmeal too…

If you happen to live in Texas (very very long shot) HEB has an entire line of pre-cooked meat products under their Hill Country Fare brand. I don't remember what the line is called, I don't eat meat often, but it's alllllllll good stuff, and you can't miss it. The price is quite a bit more than buying a five pound bag and…

My mini is simply to have two days in a row of being at/just over (by no more than 50 calories) my calories. I'm having a hard time coming back from an unplanned long break. I wanted to stay away and take a planned diet break, as laid forth in that long long long thread in general. I just never came back. I kept trying to,…

Interesting. I don't get any unwanted attention now, not even when I dyed my hair pink (just a couple comments, and they were respectful)! Maybe I'm worried about nothing. That would be consistent with my brain weasels. :)

I'm sorry. Your friends and family sound like they kind of suck. *hugs* I hope you can find new friends that love you for you and relish in your success as well as patch things up with your current friends. I don't have many in real life friends either. I'm sure you're wonderful and I know you don't deserve to be treated…

I'm not even trying to say I'm a great beauty or anything, just sometimes pretty. I'm just afraid of the possibility of unwanted attention. Sometimes making myself look more attractive can provide armour. Because then the attention is on your terms. Makes sense.

*kitten* that's a good question. I'm not sure. You're right about depression being safer. I was depressed for over decade before seeking diagnosis for it. Then my treatment stopped working, I became manic by the time I could get into a psychiatrist, and boom! Bipolar. Depression was familiar and safe# treatment was new and…

I'm actually 39, I wear a size 24 womens. I am showing the effects of excess weight and age, I have diabetes and elevated cholesterol. Both are under control, but I'd like to get off my meds. And I think my weasels will outlive your hamsters. ;)

Yeah, I need to get the spray now, I've just been putting it off and forgetting. I need to look into a self defense class for the disabled as referenced in previous post. I'm sure they exist. I've got a trainer friend who said he'd write me a heavy weight program taking into account my disability. He's forgotten though,…

Re: Jujitsu I have a knee that likes to dislocate. I had major surgery four years ago to stop that, but the problem was so severe that it somewhat limited my range of motion and left me semi-disabled. Believe me, if I were able-bodied I'd sign up for a form of martial arts/self defense, but the risk of serious injury is…

More good advice! No wonder you're a mod here.

I want to get some pepper spray for that eventuality. I am passively suicidal all the time, even with medication, and have been actively suicidal in the past requiring a hospitalization. I am the *last* person on earth that needs to carry a handgun, I am a danger to myself more than others. I know pepper spray doesn't do…

Sympathy for the bipolar diagnosis. It sucks, huh? The worst is not being able to control what the brain weasels do, even with the proper medications. And therapy. I used to think that way about my dieting, and I think that's why I was successful last year, it was something I could control. I think I forgot that though (I…