Today has been one of those days that's been a struggle dealing with PCOS and TTC. Some days just tend to be better than others. There are days when I have hope and know that it will all be ok, and then there are days when the tears come with no warning and I'm just in a funk; today was one of those days. I was doing great all day, and then this afternoon I was sitting at my desk at work and the tears just came. I start thinking about how I thought I would have two, if not three, kids at this point in my life, and instead I don't have any and am not sure that I ever will. Nothing happened today that would cause these feelings, they are just here. Even on the good days, it's always in the back of my mind wondering what God's plan is for us. If we will be blessed with children or not. Then there are these days when it's hard to imagine it ever happening.

I get frustrated with myself when I get like this, because there is so much that I have to be thankful for. I have a great man in my life, wonderful family and friends, a great job, and more. I know there are so many in this world who struggle and deal with much worse things than I do. I have a large support system, but when I get like this it's hard for me to reach out. I feel they may be tired of my ups and downs with this roller coaster and can't relate at times not having had to deal with infertility.

Does anyone else struggle like this? The PCOS support on MFP is a huge help for me. Thank you all for being here.