I realized that my mother is a really bad influence on me. I got a modest plate, and she kept saying things like "you're only getting one chicken tender?" and "why don't you get any corn in butter sauce?" and "don't you want more mac and cheese?"

We didn't have any fruit or salad. Our sides were all very carb-heavy and starchy: rolls, mac and cheese, mashed potatoes, green beans and potatoes, sweet potatoes, and sweet corn in a very thick butter sauce. Our meat dish was breaded chicken fingers. Then I was offered peanut butter pie or cherry Kool-Aid pie for dessert. I felt bad turning food down because my mom takes it as a personal offense, but I can't eat all that if I want to maintain a healthy diet.

This week, I decided to attempt cutting out soda. I've been doing pretty well with getting only diet soda, but it would probably be best if I knocked it out completely. This week, I'm drinking flavored sparkling water.

So yesterday wasn't awful. For me, since I cook everything, when I sit down to eat I make sure everyone else enjoys it and then I eat just a smidge of everything to make sure the taste is ok. So I rarely overdue at the meal. The left over meal I eat only the things I don't get often and minimal. Yesterday I did of course enjoy my ALL TIME fave candy, one reeses peanut butter egg, years past I would have done 2 & 3 on easter plus all the other junk, malted milk balls, cadbury creme eggs...etc. I purposely shut off the tv, got a big glass of water and sat in silence eating my favorite pb egg candy and enjoyed every minute. My walk buddy cancelled on my yesterday, and since I had family coming early the only exercise I got was "serving" everyone. I did find through the day that I was "off" a bit, DUH I didn't feed me the exercise I so needed....I won't make that mistake again.
Back on track today, looks like maybe this week I can head outside for my lunch and resume lunch walking with this in addition to my night exercising I should be healthier in no time. Side note: I did purchase a new Harley Davidson leather riding coat Saturday I was PLEASED as punch to purchase a medium (my 10 lb reward)....My road is on going....
Happy Monday ALL!!!

Everything was going fine until the wife woke me up and shoved ham in my face. Half a pie, nearly two pounds of ham and over half a dozen honey butter biscuits later....4K calories.

I think I needed a day like that. Not for the calories. Just for the mental reset. Today is a new day. Back on track.

I learned that I needed to make some changes with my MFP macros and goals. I have surpassed my goal and did not change the settings to reflect that. They are changed now. I am nervous but hopeful all will be well.

It is not about losing weight for me but learning to maintain. I have to say I am still apprehensive about knowing what is a good weight for me. But since at 138 I am fitting into smalls, that should indicate I am at a good weight, right?

Starting with MFP today. Want to get back to the shape I used to be in by dropping wait, getting more excercise, and make better choices about my eating. Day one, so far so good. Hit a three mile run this AM at a 10 minute pace (far below what I used to be able to do), and have felt way more accountable about what I have been eating at the halfway point of day one. Hopefully I can stay consistent and keep this up. My birthday is in June. I would like to be twenty pounds lighter by then, and in a much better shape both mentally and physically. Starting today I am also going to give up something I have waaay too often: Soda in all of its forms.

My weekend went very well, i cooked a small ham, salad, made rolls and scalloped potatoes for family, I didn't have any kids around so no candy in house, which was sad, for I miss the grand Kids, but I know I will be in better health an shape to enjoy them this summer more. off to another week.... stay on track everyone.. it's a life change not a diet...

Met with the RD this past week, there is possibly 2 reasons for why I'm gaining, not losing: subclinical hypothyroidism or even though metabolism high, it's messed up because it is holding onto everything because it is waiting for the next fast to be inflicted on it (ie an new "diet") because of all the "diets" I've been doing in the last several years that were extreme calorie cuts for me. Nothing I can do about the first (although my primary has agreed to check it out when I go for my annual physical with her this month) RD's recommendation for the 2nd: stop eating for weightloss, start eating for nutrition. Started today, but not tracking yet because of being away from home and away from my habits

Chugging back the water today. I was doing pretty good until Sunday night. My sister and I specifically asked for NO CHOCOLATE for Easter. We knew that mum's best friend was getting us an egg because she'd mentioned it a few weeks before. What we didn't know was that it was a bowl full of little eggs with a big egg in the middle. Then mum brings out a chocolate bunny for each of us and says "I know you said you didn't want any chocolate but I got you some anyway". We were not impressed, but we're too polite to say anything.
So between Sunday night and yesterday I managed to get rid of all my chocolate. I feel really crappy today, but at least I can start fresh today with no chocolate.

Good evening all! This group is exactly what I need,one day at a time. A challenge a day sounds wonderful,as looking to far ahead for me is to overwhelming. I work a lot of hours so always have my food planned the night before so looking forward to meeting everyone! Diane