Please help...i need some support!
amelialang2
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Hi, I am not new to MFP but this is my first post. I use MFP everyday, apart from days where I am horrendously 'naughty'. I have struggled with my eating habits for some time now but i am not overweight (YET). I am 5ft 2 and weigh about 6stone 8lbs at the minute. I used to not eat much at all and I think after treating my body like cr@p by starving it of food for so long, I have cracked and tend to binge about 4/5 times a week. I feel disgusting and full of self hatred. im scared to go into the kitchen because i know what will happen, scared to get drunk coz il binge, but get drunk often to forget about food and release myself...which inevitably leads to a binge....horrid HORRID reoccuring vicious circle 
I eat evrything in sight, in private obviously. often getting up in the middle of the night...and then i feel horrendous. I hide food and eat it, often tripling my daily MFP calorie intake. I feel disgusting. I have put on 6lbs in a few weeks and im scared, really scared of putting the weight on.
I need some support and advice from anyone willing to give it to me and would really appreciate your thoughts. Not telling anyone this has made it harder so I suppose this is the first step. I just want to eat normal and not live in this hellhole of binging...!! if anything i would prefer to be what i was like previously, at least i wasn't worrying about putting on weight.
I eat evrything in sight, in private obviously. often getting up in the middle of the night...and then i feel horrendous. I hide food and eat it, often tripling my daily MFP calorie intake. I feel disgusting. I have put on 6lbs in a few weeks and im scared, really scared of putting the weight on.
I need some support and advice from anyone willing to give it to me and would really appreciate your thoughts. Not telling anyone this has made it harder so I suppose this is the first step. I just want to eat normal and not live in this hellhole of binging...!! if anything i would prefer to be what i was like previously, at least i wasn't worrying about putting on weight.
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What does your intake look like on a non binge day? Are you getting any help? Does anyone else know?Hi, I am not new to MFP but this is my first post. I use MFP everyday, apart from days where I am horrendously 'naughty'. I have struggled with my eating habits for some time now but i am not overweight (YET). I am 5ft 2 and weigh about 6stone 8lbs at the minute. I used to not eat much at all and I think after treating my body like cr@p by starving it of food for so long, I have cracked and tend to binge about 4/5 times a week. I feel disgusting and full of self hatred. im scared to go into the kitchen because i know what will happen, scared to get drunk coz il binge, but get drunk often to forget about food and release myself...which inevitably leads to a binge....horrid HORRID reoccuring vicious circle
I eat evrything in sight, in private obviously. often getting up in the middle of the night...and then i feel horrendous. I hide food and eat it, often tripling my daily MFP calorie intake. I feel disgusting. I have put on 6lbs in a few weeks and im scared, really scared of putting the weight on.
I need some support and advice from anyone willing to give it to me and would really appreciate your thoughts. Not telling anyone this has made it harder so I suppose this is the first step. I just want to eat normal and not live in this hellhole of binging...!! if anything i would prefer to be what i was like previously, at least i wasn't worrying about putting on weight.
I'm in recovery for purging type anorexia and in the last two months I have started binging. I find it scary because I don't realise I'm doing it but I'm determined to break out of the anorexia, and decrease the binges but I know to do that I must eat a good amount every single day. My dietician says that it is because my body was starved for so long but it will eventually stop, so keep fighting hun. Do you purge? Overexercise?0 -
Hiya, thanks so much for your reply. My intake on a binge day is just horrendous, thousands of calories. I cant bear to even log them anymore as i struggle to get a grip of this! I would say I have probably been the same as you, losing so much weight by depravation and now my bodie is freaking out and making me eat...and eat and eat!!!! people keep saying that i SHOULD put on weight, but to hear that tears me up. I dont want to! I dont purge or over exercise, i restricted my eating and now its backfired and im overeating, slowely putting the weight back on and back to where i started. I dont know if i can bear that!
Im not getting professional help, i think i have only just admitted it to myself. and i dont think i am ready for the world to know. i want to try and tackle this myself....FOR myself. I just hope it works...!
you sound like you have been given really good advice! does it honestly stop? 0 -
What's your intake like on a day when you don't binge hun? The foods you binge on, do you let yourself have them in moderate amounts on a NON binge day?Hiya, thanks so much for your reply. My intake on a binge day is just horrendous, thousands of calories. I cant bear to even log them anymore as i struggle to get a grip of this! I would say I have probably been the same as you, losing so much weight by depravation and now my bodie is freaking out and making me eat...and eat and eat!!!! people keep saying that i SHOULD put on weight, but to hear that tears me up. I dont want to! I dont purge or over exercise, i restricted my eating and now its backfired and im overeating, slowely putting the weight back on and back to where i started. I dont know if i can bear that!
Im not getting professional help, i think i have only just admitted it to myself. and i dont think i am ready for the world to know. i want to try and tackle this myself....FOR myself. I just hope it works...!
you sound like you have been given really good advice! does it honestly stop?
My mum knew about my anorexia because I was six when I was diagnosed so obviously my old doctor had to speak to her about it, I was just a child I didn't know what I was doing, but with the purging later on in the anorexia, I was reluctant to tell my mum because even though I wanted to recover and wanted help, I didn't want to admit I needed help because I view that as a sign of weakness, is that how you're feeling? When you binge, are you starving yourself all day and then binging at night? I started binging two months ago, considered giving up recovery but why should I, I'll only go back to restricting again and then my health will suffer more as a result so I WILL keep pushing, every single day. I think the binging will stop eventually, and In know this is easier said than done but if you want the binging to stop you need to eat a good healthy amount, with moderate treats xxx0 -
I'm in the same boat as you. I have 1 good day as opposed to 3 or 4 bad days a week. My binges are ridiculous getting up to 3,000 calories or more. I can lose or gain 5 pounds in a week depending on binges and what not.
My advice is make sure you are NEVER hungry. not even a little bit. Put a timer on and eat healthy snacks every hour or two depending on how hungry you get. It's when I let myself get hunry that the binges start and never stop.
Also my most disgusting binges are always in private so if you can manage to be around people that could help.
Pinkprincess is right that you can't have "forbidden"foods. For example, I love pizza. If I don't allow myself to have a slice once and awhile I will literally buy and extra large pizza lock myself in my room and eat it in one sitting until I'm in pain. Make sure theirs lots of balance
Some people suggest focusing on maintaining weight before you work on losing it if your suffering from BED.
May I add either of you? I really have no one in my life who understands my ****ed up eating. anyone else interested may add me as well0 -
I would really like a friend too, that help me keep my binges and purges at bay. Please feel free to add me as we'll.0
