Hey .... I posted this a blog not really wanting everybody to see it .... I really need support right cause I am going through.



I had my ultrasound Thursday ..... OMG... The ultrasound was not that bad transvag.... I'v had 3 others before. I just can't get use to that probe. Anyway.... they found a huge clot in the uterus and this is my second to date. So a DNC is in my very near future (the 4th). I was told this is very serious due to the fact I've had a clot in my lung in 2005.

That's not all.... I have visible cysts in my overies .... and a fibroid.

Dude..... WTF.

I took the news like a solider went home shed my tears alone. I know the risk I run by continuing my path of TTC. I just don't know how much longer I can take the physical wear and tear of my spirit and of my soul. I don't want another procedure.... my labs came back ... not too good. So I am in need of another transfusion... the 4th. My dear husband took the news in stride. For the last six years I always seem to be in the hospital around this time of the year.

He just got a new postion within his company and now has to resign to take care of me during my recovery. He won't listien ... I told him don't do it but he has already made his mind up. He knows what is involved in my recovery and don't want to leave that to anyone else. I feel so bad .... he won't listen to my reason. And yet I think he's not feeling the new assignment anyway.

I don't want to hinder his progress. We all make a sacrifice to make this dream happen.

I am sad and yet I know I need to be strong ... this is gonna be a tough road.

I'll be ok.....



Thanks for listening