I dont have any stories to share, but I want to say im so sorry. That's such a rough thing to go thru, and im so sorry. i agree with you that at least it happened, but that doesnt always help the pain your feeling losing that tiny life.

Hugs to you.

I also have PCOS and have been on Provera and Clomid in order to become pregnant. We've been trying for a year now, but in late August I found out I was pregnant. I was ecstatic! In mid-September we had our first ultrasound and the baby would have been 7 weeks, but according to the ultrasound was showing 6 weeks, but had a heartbeat (although it was a little low). Because of the medication I was on I knew my dates. I had written everything down (the dates I had taken Provera, Clomid, my start and end dates on my period, my ovulation date), so I knew my dates weren't wrong. They scheduled me for a follow-up ultrasound two weeks later, October 2nd, when I found out that I had miscarried. The baby had not grow any in those two weeks and there was no longer a heartbeat.

I opted for a "natural miscarriage", but was told that if in two weeks if nothing happened I needed to give my doctor a call. Two weeks later, nothing. They then gave me the option of a d&c or misoprostol. They advised me against the d&c because of the PCOS. They said that I am already having trouble getting pregnant and a d&c could cause scar tissue which would also work against me. I chose the misoprostol and, after the most painful experience of my life, passed the miscarriage on Oct. 19.

My doctor has not put me back on Clomid yet (in two weeks I will be back on), but only Provera. I can't become pregnant without Clomid because I don't ovulate, but they've said that they don't want me to become pregnant yet and I should give my body time to go back to normal. I have no choice but to do what they say, although I don't agree with them at times. When I was first put on Clomid, I was told that they will only do a total of 6 rounds of it because it causes a greater risk of cancer (don't remember what type). I've been through two rounds so far. Once I use my 6 rounds, our next step is IUI. They said that I can op for an IUI at any time, but we decided to continue with Clomid for now. My insurance pays for IUI, but only for a max of $1,500 or $2,000, so we thought we would reserve that for later.

They've told me that because of the PCOS I have a greater risk of miscarriage, but that I shouldn't let that deter me or bring me down. It's incredibly depressing. You get so excited by seeing that "positive" or "pregnant" on a test, but in a few weeks or months it's all taken away from you. I'm getting really serious about losing my extra weight. I did it half-assed before, but I don't ever want to go through a miscarriage again and if losing some weight can help then I'm all for it!

First..

I have PCOS. We used Femara and an ovidril shot to get pregnant with our first kid (she is 5 now). It was a long journey to that day that included special dieting, working out, having surgery to get rid of the cysts on my ovaries (ovarian drilling), and 1500 metformin.

Before that though I got pregnant on my own and then miscarried. So I used progesterone suppositories to help make her 'stick'.

And after I had my daughter I did not go on BCP or anything and got pregnant naturally with my son when my daughter was 6 months old. It was a miracle!

2 years ago I got pregnant naturally, but I had spotting from the beginning. I was seeing my normal OB at the time and even though I called several times and told them I was worried they did not see me until the 13th week. I started spotting heavier the day before my doctor appointment and they had me come in. When I went in they could not find the sac or anything. So then I had a D and C.

That miscarriage was one of the hardest things I have dealt with. It wasn't the physical pain, but the loss of a person - whether it ever existed physically - was very hard. We spent three months basically thinking there was going to be a new little life in our family and to have it just whisked away in an instant was very hard. For the first few months afterwards I kept trying to see if I would get pregnant again - because I was supposed to be pregnant - I was supposed to be preparing for a new baby.

I don't think I really moved on mentally until after my due date came and went. In the meantime I actually did my Master's thesis on pregnancy and technology. I am still interested in the pregnancy experience. And now my cycles are strange and long. I know it is because of my weight. I am trying to be consistent with my metformin and thyroid meds. I am working out to lose weight. I don't know if it I will have another baby. I am fine with that, and I think I am actually at the point where I know that it will never fill the hole that was left when that baby died. That doesn't mean I don't take a pregnancy test every month when my period is later than I think it should be.

I am not as sad anymore, but I will always remember those months and that person that held a spot in my heart and head. I feel for your loss. It can take a long time to process. Keep your chin up and try to find something positive in every day. Peace to you.