Eating disorders and VGS
smm773
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Hey all-
I am wondering if anyone on here struggled with an eating disorder prior to surgery? I had a pretty extensive history with and eating disorder as a teen, and then as an adult it was more purging-not necessarily binging, but just throwing up regular meals. I had to be three month purge free before surgery, and do a required 6 months of weekly therapy after. My surgery was in December, and I was doing really well and the shrinky dink and I decided every other week would be fine (I have been seeing her for 10 years, so we have an awesome relationship)
In any case, I had to go through the extended version of the psych eval, and had things really under control . . .until about 2 weeks ago when the *kitten* hit the fan. I started to throw up under the guise of the "food isn't sitting right" and now I just realize that this was me rationalizing my behavior. I also have such a hard time with the limited amount of food we can eat, and nothing seems satisfying . . .so I will eat something, it's not what I want, then I eat something else and feel bad about it. Then sometimes I just don't eat as it seems silly to make 2oz of chicken, or something else . . .
I AM in therapy and I don't think I have gone off my rocker . ..and I guess I don't even know what I need. I did finally tell my partner and my therapist about this two weeks ago, and told my peeps on MFP I was struggling . . .just thought I would see if anyone else were in the same boat. I just didn't want to be disappointing to people, or have people be able to say "i told you so" when they said I couldn't handle the surgery due to my history . . .
I do log daily, and exercise about 4-5 times a week. I am working with a nutritionist and she did just give me better guidelines on what exactly my meals should look like in terms of amounts of carbs, pro, etc.
Anyways . . .just wondering who else may be out there . . .
I am wondering if anyone on here struggled with an eating disorder prior to surgery? I had a pretty extensive history with and eating disorder as a teen, and then as an adult it was more purging-not necessarily binging, but just throwing up regular meals. I had to be three month purge free before surgery, and do a required 6 months of weekly therapy after. My surgery was in December, and I was doing really well and the shrinky dink and I decided every other week would be fine (I have been seeing her for 10 years, so we have an awesome relationship)
In any case, I had to go through the extended version of the psych eval, and had things really under control . . .until about 2 weeks ago when the *kitten* hit the fan. I started to throw up under the guise of the "food isn't sitting right" and now I just realize that this was me rationalizing my behavior. I also have such a hard time with the limited amount of food we can eat, and nothing seems satisfying . . .so I will eat something, it's not what I want, then I eat something else and feel bad about it. Then sometimes I just don't eat as it seems silly to make 2oz of chicken, or something else . . .
I AM in therapy and I don't think I have gone off my rocker . ..and I guess I don't even know what I need. I did finally tell my partner and my therapist about this two weeks ago, and told my peeps on MFP I was struggling . . .just thought I would see if anyone else were in the same boat. I just didn't want to be disappointing to people, or have people be able to say "i told you so" when they said I couldn't handle the surgery due to my history . . .
I do log daily, and exercise about 4-5 times a week. I am working with a nutritionist and she did just give me better guidelines on what exactly my meals should look like in terms of amounts of carbs, pro, etc.
Anyways . . .just wondering who else may be out there . . .
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I don't share your struggle, but I want you to know how courageous you are! To share this is awesome! You are owning the issue and being accountable, all good things!0
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Looks like you are still medicating with food. The classic behavior of not getting the pleasure fix you needed so you purge to try something else to get the fix. I quit medicating with food a year before my surgery. Keep working with your therapist to develop coping skills for the stresses in your life. I do not look to food for pleasure or solace or reward. When death and destruction come into my life, I grieve, I cry, I pray, I don't eat. Food is no longer comfort it is just food. Work on loving you and accepting you exactly as you are. Be kind and loving towards yourself so you can focus on your nutrition. You can do this.0
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I struggled with food addiction / eating disorders for years. I have been working with an excellent addictions counsellor for a long time and it has made all the difference to me. I strongly recommend finding yourself a good addictions counsellor.0
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Hey all-
I am wondering if anyone on here struggled with an eating disorder prior to surgery? I had a pretty extensive history with and eating disorder as a teen, and then as an adult it was more purging-not necessarily binging, but just throwing up regular meals. I had to be three month purge free before surgery, and do a required 6 months of weekly therapy after. My surgery was in December, and I was doing really well and the shrinky dink and I decided every other week would be fine (I have been seeing her for 10 years, so we have an awesome relationship)
In any case, I had to go through the extended version of the psych eval, and had things really under control . . .until about 2 weeks ago when the *kitten* hit the fan. I started to throw up under the guise of the "food isn't sitting right" and now I just realize that this was me rationalizing my behavior. I also have such a hard time with the limited amount of food we can eat, and nothing seems satisfying . . .so I will eat something, it's not what I want, then I eat something else and feel bad about it. Then sometimes I just don't eat as it seems silly to make 2oz of chicken, or something else . . .
I AM in therapy and I don't think I have gone off my rocker . ..and I guess I don't even know what I need. I did finally tell my partner and my therapist about this two weeks ago, and told my peeps on MFP I was struggling . . .just thought I would see if anyone else were in the same boat. I just didn't want to be disappointing to people, or have people be able to say "i told you so" when they said I couldn't handle the surgery due to my history . . .
I do log daily, and exercise about 4-5 times a week. I am working with a nutritionist and she did just give me better guidelines on what exactly my meals should look like in terms of amounts of carbs, pro, etc.
Anyways . . .just wondering who else may be out there . . .0 -
sorry...posted before i entered my reply lol...
I struggled with eating disorders from the time i was 16...every kind under the sun. I can completely relate to the constant struggle to stay on track. It's a lot of work post surgery to not fall back into unhealthy ways again. Feel free to message and friend request me if you'd like
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