Also, I am so sorry that that happened to you and you are not getting the support you need. Everyone deserves to be acknowledged and loved on their birthday. I have no doubt you are an awesome person and that you have just hidden away for so long, you haven't made any friends in a long time. Internet friends are pretty awesome. They supported me for years and years when I was going through some rough times. Feel free to PM me or check in here daily. I will be looking out for you.

And chalk today up to a bad one and try again tomorrow. I want to see you feel good tomorrow, so maybe try to plan out your meals by pre-filling your dairy for tomorrow and stick to it?

First, Amy, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! You aren't alone any more--you are part of this fabulous group.

To me, one of the worst aspects of obesity is that it's isolating. We get stuck in a loop of hiding from the world, then needing the world to stop hiding, but not having anyone out in the world etc. Reach out as best you can, either in your real life (go to an OA meeting) or your online life. And how about this as a great birthday present to yourself--the promise that next year will be very different.

We should all remember, too, that detoxing from sugar, carbs, and junk food can trigger some pretty scary emotions, especially depression and anxiety, so as we struggle to stick to healthy eating and keep calories within range, we might need extra support to sit with those feelings and not eat through them. Don't be afraid to call a shrink, call your GP to discuss a temporary antidepressant, or beg a friend or spouse to drag you to the gym for an endorphin high.

Amy, I was at a very very dark, low, and isolated place a couple of years ago, before I started eating disorder treatment, and I watched my sister go through it too (She is now in recovery for bulimia). I can tell you that it gets better, each day, even if you feel like you're moving one step forward and two steps back some days.

Again, happy birthday! Now go paint your fingernails purple and have a better rest of the day!

Happy belated birthday!:flowerforyou: I had a husband who hit me on occasion. I left in May 12, 2002. I hope that is not your problem with your husband.

Claudie, you and I were typing similar messages at the same time--I knew you were a kindred spirit! Did I tell you I was born in Quincy and raised on the south shore?

I KNEW there was something special there!!!! :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:

Here is wishing you a Happy Birthday!!:flowerforyou: From me to you

It is really brave of you to share that story and I am glad you did. I am sorry that your day went that way. I can imagine how you felt. I used to eat when things got bad in my life because it was almost like a drug, a temporary high. Like you said dont beat yourself up about it , it is a new day. I just hope you realize that you are worth talking to and deserve better than how you were treated. You matter. I have felt alone in the past even in huge groups of people. I still struggle with that feeling sometimes but I started to learn to love myself and with that came confidence and allowed me to create healthy friendships. Remember even if others do not treat you right, treat yourself right.

Sending good vibes your way today in hopes that today is better than the last !