Check In June 2, 2014
KarenZen
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Good morning, duckies, and Happy Monday!
I know quite a few of us have struggled since Memorial Day to get back on track, so tell me--what will you do today to make that happen?
One thing?
I will go to tai chi this morning--and set the tone for the whole month of getting to my classes.
I know quite a few of us have struggled since Memorial Day to get back on track, so tell me--what will you do today to make that happen?
One thing?
I will go to tai chi this morning--and set the tone for the whole month of getting to my classes.
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And.... YES. I am in the parking lot of the YMCA right now, waking in shortly, and going or class. One small step for Karen... one giant leap for, um, Karen. LoL.0
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It seems really basic. But this month my goal is to log every - single - thing - I - eat!
If I bite it, I will write it!!
30 days will be quite a streak for me.0 -
Really feeling under the weather today. Doubt I'll get many steps in at all. I just want to sleep all day. I'll try to get more veggies and lean protein today.0
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I had a total bomb of a weekend--I didnt log anything and pretty much ate anything I wanted. I think I'm at the point where I'm tired of having to log and measure and weigh everything and I was being a rebel, lol. Scale this morning was not kind (up .4 of a pound) but definitely could have been worse. Thank goodness I spend most of my time chasing a toddler around!
Got a verbal job offer Friday-I think the weekend eating was part celebrating and part anxiety about putting in my 2 week notice. I have wanted to get out of the clutches of my psycho boss for a looooooooooong time and this is definitely a good thing, but any change is hard.
Unfortunately, HR lady at new job left for vacation without sending written job offer so I may have to wait another week to give my notice. By then my boss is going to be on vacation---boy will she be surprised when she gets back, lol!
So I guess my goal this week is to get back on track logging my food and drinking enough water. Beyond that, I can't promise anything else at this time. :-/
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Good Morning!
I will get my *kitten* moving!!! I am so over this being lazy or it is late etc. I MUST exercise! I am stalled out in weight loss again and so flipping close to my halfway goal (75lbs) that it is killing me not to reach it!!!0 -
My 1 thing today is water. Water water water. Just finished my Yoga, off to the grocery store later, then taking my son on his bike again which involves walking fast/trotting alongside. So my activity is definitely ok for today, meals are planned. Just got to stick to the plan and drink that water!0
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It seems really basic. But this month my goal is to log every - single - thing - I - eat!
If I bite it, I will write it!!
30 days will be quite a streak for me.
Love this! If I bite it, I will write it. My new mantra.0 -
Really feeling under the weather today.
Feel better NorahCait!0 -
Morning! Or more like afternoon. Congrats on the job Becky! Woohoo! Feel better Norah! Way to go Karen. I love how adventurous you are with all your exercises. I started off in such a good mood. Got up at 5, straightened my hair and even wore a skirt to work. By the time I got to work, hair had proofed into a frizzball questioning why I even try and I worked nonstop for 2 hours putting me into a foul mood until I ran to the bathroom where I could hike up my skirt and scratch the every loving **** out of my legs. Stupid skeeters got me again. No one else will have a bite and I will have 30. They love me. Ran to the quickie mart and bought one allergy pill to stop the reaction. Mood is still bad.
Made a doctors appt for tomorrow with the intention of taking the whole day off to myself. Now I just have to break that to my boss. Not sure what to say.
I too had the best intentions this weekend an did fabulous during the day and as much as I opened up about night eating, I was the worst I have been in months. That is probably the cause of my mood. Still passed about that.
But today is a new day and new week, new month. I have you fabulous people. And...apparently a day off to myself to look forward to. Now to break the news to my boss. Ack. What was I thinking? Emo much?0 -
I don't have one thing, exactly. I totally bombed food wise this weekend, but I got a workout video in twice - and a decent walk in, so for me, that is a balance. I will aim for less bombing and more bootie-shaking...lol. To do that, I've got to get my walks in this week (first one down!), and get my water in.... After that, I begin gaining momentum and that helps. Each positive decision gets me one step closer to the next one, etc.
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Happy Monday Everyone!!
Last Monday of the school year for me!
My one thing is water...I have to do it....and it is often the one thing I don't do...
Busy weekend of boating and quite sunburned today and of course my eating was off...not to mention the beer I had in the boat...
It always amazes me how we all go through similar struggles...Thanks all for sharing...It always helps to know I am not alone!0 -
Last week wasn't bad but it also wasn't the best it could be. I need to get back to yoga, I did very little of it last month. I also need to make sure I get my veggies in each day.0
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Well lovelies, since I completed my one thing of aqua tai chi, I am going for a second one thing of no carbs today. Absolutely the best way for me to get back on track is to do a carb detox. After 2-3 days, all my cravings hunger is gone. So.... protein and veggies for me today. Nom nom nom.0
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My one thing for today is to try to stay on track even though we are going to dinner at my in-laws. My Italian, can't make a normal amount of food so we will have enough for 16 people even though there will only be 6 of us, in-laws. The smart thing to do would be to eat a little something here first that I can control, and then just have a small portion there. But she will hound me. "Don't you want more? Do you not like it? Oh here, just have some more" until she drives me to either yell at her to stop or just succumb to eating it to make it harder to yell at her with a mouth full of food.
Can you tell I am looking forward to this??? (Insert sarcasm here!)0 -
@Artelyn - I'd tell your mother in law, "No, I don't want any more right now, thank you. I did in fact love it. If you would like, I'd be thrilled to take some home so I can enjoy it and think of you tomorrow, too!" If she wouldn't think it too forward, I'd even bring a tupperware dish or two in the car so she doesn't have to worry about getting hers back, etc. LOL In my opinion, the best way to combat this is to over flatter her (Oh, it was so lovely, I can't eat another bite or I'll burst!) or something...tell her you would love more, tomorrow when you can be reminded of her amazing cooking again!, and offer to take some with you, etc. What you choose to do with leftovers is your ballgame, but you might be able to stop her in her tracks by changing how you respond to her... I wish you the best of luck. 0
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THanks Knit!
I ended up doing pretty well. I was really hoping for a salad but there wasn't one. Next time I will bring one for all. My indulgence was a piece of garlic bread that of course I have no idea how to count. So I took an avg and used that. She isn't one to give up. I counted...she said to me 6 times... do you want any more? There is plenty. Each time I said no ty it was good but I am all set. By the 6th time I was ready to scream NO!!! I DON"T WANT IT! But I love my husband too much to make that much of a scene! And we did take leftovers home but I won't touch them. It wasn't THAT good!
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Only two hours until bedtime and no carbs have passed these lips. My body is definitely protesting, but not enough to make me attack the loaf of bread in the fridge, so I'll have a good carb apple and call the day a total success. Hope everyone did well too!0
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Yay! Karen! I'm reading backwards again so forgive me if I skip posts. Its hard when just using your phone. I talked to my mom for quite a bit, had a come to Jesus talk with the hubs about work loads that left me in tears and him taking a muscle relaxer and going to bed, but I think my point got across. Now to work on the new foods challenge and tackle the sushi even though it has avocado and I hate avocado. Blech. Its just a bit tho.0
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I moved it! I walked 5 miles this evening with the hubs!!0
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I moved it! I walked 5 miles this evening with the hubs!!
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Stopped by again for some inspiration. Night is the hardest time for me to stay "clean" (I'm a night eater/binge eater in recovery). I used to wait and wait, dying for the hubs to finally go to bed so I could start eating--either secret food I'd hidden away (like icecream hidden in tupperware in the freezer to look like soup), or all the supper leftovers, or just peanut butter straight from the jar. I could easily toast and eat a whole loaf of bread covered with butter and jam. I would get angry if he was dragging his heels. He'd get angry because I didn't want to come to bed. Or he'd go to bed, get up, and I'd have to hide what I was eating under the afghan and pretend I wasn't eating anything. Then hide the evidence in the bottom of the trash or take it outside. Eeeek, so much guilt and shame!!! One of the hardest parts of my eating disorder recovery was stopping this pattern of destructive behavior.
Like quitting smoking, though, sometimes the urges come back. Tonight is one of those nights. I could so easily go on a binge. Partly because I stayed away from carbs all day and my system is protesting. Partly because I'm tired and in pain, and the carbs are so "comforting." (at least temporarily) The good news, though, is that my house is pretty darn clean (oh, no... my house is NOT clean... what I mean is that it is empty of junk food or high carb foods that I crave). I'm very lucky to have a husband who finally understands my food addiction and works with me. If he does bring triggering food into the house, he keeps it in his workshop. Most of the time, though, he just buys a single serving of something and eats it and then it's gone.
This doesn't mean I couldn't find something to binge on tonight. There's bread in the fridge. Peanut butter in the cabinet. Other carby stuff I could eat. Instead, I just spent an hour reading old posts, drinking water, and thinking about how good I'll feel if I go to bed on an empty stomach instead of a full one. So I'll clean up the kitchen, drink some MORE water, and head to bed, then find an exciting class at the Y to take tomorrow. Sorry to babble on and on here.... writing helps me process.
Thank you all for being here and for also sharing your struggles. It really does help!!!
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I hear you Karen. I have hidden many a meal when I heard someone coming down the stairs, the nervous panic of microwaving something and hoping it wont wake someone or have them come down and ask whats that smell. I have stuffed many a thing down the bottom of the garbage can, snuck out a secret bag of garbage (god, some of my most shameful times, especially when it was more then one) late sunday night to stuff and hide in the trashcan to be taken away in the morning. I especially remember getting cranky and angry when people would stay up late, whether i was eating or not because I thought of night as my time, but it was worse when I was desperate to eat.0
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Haven't eaten dinner yet, it will be a late meal because of my walk. But overall its been a good day. Had a big sandwich for lunch and a really nice salad. Overall a nice day. I was going to do yoga, that was my big plan for the day, but as usual I seemed to put it off. Perhaps tomorrow.0
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Well Karen, just got done with one of those late night mistakes... I didn't go over but man. Move on, move forward.0
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wow.. reading these and thinking back on my own eating and hiding wrapper episodes, we sound like addicts don't we?0
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I'm so happy that we're talking about the secret eating, out loud in public (or at least cyber public). Part of breaking the cycle is letting go of the shame. I've definitely reduced my nighttime eating just by talking about it with Jim, so now I can say, "Hey look, I am REALLY struggling tonight." He doesn't police me, but knowing he knows what's going on reduces my secret shame.
Not that I don't still do it.... I am a work in progress!!!!0
