I win. I ate some food I had here mostly good for me. I went for a fat-girl-jog (I'll have to see if I can get my guy to video this some day, I'm sure it would make me laugh hysterically)...and talked to a friend, and I feel light years better. Thanks.

Btw, with all the wacky weather we've had here lately 40-50 in the am, as high as 90 at midday, I've been fighting a sore throat, likely from sinus drainage for about a week. Sucks. I need some OJ...usually burns it out. Nasty unsweetened grapefruit juice didn't cut it...lol

Hope you feel better soon. I personally recommend OJ and some type of chicken soup/broth!

I'd blow strongly that direction, but I don't think I can channel the weather for you, Patrick. I will definitely send good thoughts your way though!!

I've never really been brave enough to play a sport where I hit things with a part of me, aside from volleyball or somesuch which so does not count...lol. That idea is far too appealing for the current state of my sanity.

Okay, first, I don't about everyone else, but for me, this group is a place where we can share our dirty dark nasty little fears and secrets so as to remove them from power in our lives...just saying. As such, I would say, "Please, please never feel that you have to apologize for sharing something with me, no matter how scary, uncomfortable, painful, etc. We need to be here for each other. Many of us here are not lucky enough to have the type of support we truly need to succeed anywhere else that we feel comfortable enough to employ it. So one day, I'll need you the same way you did me, here."

(Many of us have great partners, but can't get to a place of comfort to work out in front of them, admit to them the awful numbers of the scale or measuring tape or sumo sized clothes we feel like we require, or even confide in them because they don't face the same struggles...."

That all being said, I'm glad you are on the recovering side of things. I can't imagine the pain and turmoil at hiding that secret, at hiding that pain, at living with it all. I'm glad that you are celebrating your days clean and using them as a motivating reminder for why you won't go back to that place. Maybe you can add it as a signature line for each post you make here, so we can all silently or loudly cheer you on, too? Just a thought.

Love that your knickers are too big!! I have many of those, as you can imagine. I kept the smallest few as a backup, and bought some new ones not too terribly long ago. Honestly, I can't wait to shrink out of those, too... Smaller sizes allow for sexier options... And I can't see past my boobs, so I've no idea if my belly sticks out further. Guess I'll turn sideways and see next time I'm near a mirror. Cool achievement though.

As for your favourite hoodie, My vote would be to find someone near your home or work, unless you have the ability yourself, who does alterations, and have it modified at least one size set for you to savor it a bit longer. If this isn't really feasible or desired, consider turning it into a pillow. Stitch up the neck and bottom, and use the zipper to stuff it or use it as a case for an existing pillow. Many other options if a pillow doesn't appeal to you.

I like your idea of making those shirts a goal AND a reward. Plus, depending on their condition once you shrink out of them, there are more "conversion" options there, too! LOL Just don't do what a lot of us do, and forget them in the closet until we are convinced they are the right size only to find out they are now too big too!

Awesome...victories all around. Another day. To celebrate a pain banished behind, to enjoy a hoody...to kick the butt of overstretched undies...and to inspire a friend... I love it when your awesomeness is blinding.