Training hard... Competition on Saturday! Unfortunately, due to a colleague who managed to contract mumps, I will also be working lots. Also focusing on nutrition and eating well so I can hit weight goal for the competition at the end of the month. Saturday is a small local competition so there are no weight divisions.

My weight jumped up 5 lbs in a day but I had loads of sodium again to compensate for low bp symptoms. So my goal is to knock off the 5 lbs as fast as possible and keep my bp normal or my normal.

Stay away from the sick hubby he is the walking plague coughing all over the place. thank goodness for having our daughter's room as I'm bunking with the dog and my back and shoulder feel a lot better to boot.

So I didn't get jury duty for monday as today was grand jury only day so tonight I call and see what happens for tomorrow. My boss has everything mapped out but once again I'm the one who is going to get you know what if I get picked. I have to cover other people's shifts who do mine but that means I'll be working non stop. Now I'm thinking my best bet is to not get called as I don't want to be doing an 18 hour day. I would have to go to court then go to work I'm just not up to all that.

I turn 31 a week from today and I am in a funk. My husband and I had a rough weekend emotionally and mentally and I just feel drained. I did go to my trainer this morning and I am keeping my nutrition on track. I am trying to stay focused on the present moment and not let my mental state bring me down.

Well done! Chocolate is my downfall...
I may have a mild concussion from judo last night so taking things really slow. It is a risk that I accept as part of what I choose to do, but with competition on Saturday, the timing is not ideal.

@Living360 - thank you for checking in on me. I am trying to stay positive and keep moving forward amidst all of the stress that is in my life right now. My husband and I are at odds on the decision to have children. He wants them, I don't. Not sure where we're going from here and it's giving me anxiety. We're going to see a therapist tomorrow.

We're also going to have to move apartments this spring because Silicon Valley is just too expensive! I hate apartment hunting, especially in the middle of the school year, where I have work all week. Our lease is up on April 10 and we're going to be in the India for the latter part of March so we have a limited window to find a place and move. We're looking at some places this week.

I have also recently come to the realization that the volunteer work I am doing is not making me happy and I don't feel very passionate about it. I am trying to figure out how to untangle myself from this situation, as I was next in line to be president of the women's group.

As for my health and fitness, I am doing well. I just finished my third work out of the week this morning. I plan on going tomorrow and Friday and then enjoying my birthday weekend.

I hope everyone else is having a good week. Thank you for being here for me.

@MrsVelapanur you're at an age where life decisions must be considered but don't necessarily need to be permanent. I'm sure your therapist can help you work through the feelings and compromises needed for your family's happiness. Being from California I understand the high costs of living and while moving is a seemingly daunting task it may be a nice and needed change. Making a list of concerns as you have here is a good 1st step to resolution. It seems you have every good reason to step back from your volunteer duties at this time. I am a firm believer that all challenges can be overcome with understanding and time. I have found that I don't often understand why I must deal with some of the situations that come my way but working through them has made me a stronger, better person. Hang in there, peace will come your way.

Thank you for the kind words everyone. I am taking it one day at a time and finding that this brings me more peace. I have a lot of good things going on my life right now, so I am trying to focus on that.