Hi there,

my name is Carolyn and i'm 28 years old. I grew up watching my mother struggle with binge eating disorder. My anorexia first developed when I was 14 and morphed into binge eating disorder in early adulthood. Most of my triggers are stress related or feeling the need to control my life when everything is in disarray. In 2014 my mother was diagnosed with late stage ovarian cancer and a close friend died suddenly, just shy of his 30th birthday. Needless to say my ED took over my life. I was spiraling out of control bouncing back and forth between starving myself and eating massive quantities of food. I felt hopeless. In the fall of 2014 I decided to enter into an out patient intensive program. Our group met 3 days a week for 3 hours each evening for 2 months. Although it was the best decision I could have made, I realized that an ED is something you live with forever. You don't ever truly get over it, you just learn to live with it. That may seem discouraging but accepting it is the first step to learning to live again. I struggle daily but am in a much better place than I was 3 years ago. Progress is not linear. Something we all need to remember.

Just looking for a place to be able to vent to people who actually understand what this feels like. Friends and family listen but they don't really get it. It's not their fault. Does anyone use this group anymore?

Thanks,
Carolyn