Hello. I'm Jean from WA.

I started here a while back. Then I ended up with Plantars Facitis. Took a LONG time to heal...meanwhile, I continued to gain and gain.

Then the Dr. gave me diabetes (I blame the Dr because I didn't have it before I went to see her! LOL JOKE)

I've got a lot to loose. Probably close to 180. <grimace>
Lots of shame and embarrassment that I have done this to myself.

Took me a bit to get to a stronger emotional place to come back to MFP.
I've been here about 6 weeks. Down 20.2 (You better believe I count that .2)

What have I changed? Everything. Mind. Body. Soul. Career

Been married 33 yrs to a very supportive spouse. We have 9 children. Have done foster care for 15 years, with over 100 children through our doors. Helping hurting children is my passion.

But now it's time to focus on me. My health. My needs. ( I feel selfish typing that)

I'm determined and terrified.

My name is Lisa and I've been on this road to losing weight way too many times. I've always been bigger, even in high school. But I have always been athletic. I was always playing a sport from the time I was about 7 years old up until I had my first child at 17. That's when my weight started to increase and never go away. I screwed up while pregnant and thought I could eat whatever I wanted and the weight would disappear after giving birth. Oh boy was I wrong. I then ended up conceiving my 2nd baby a couple months shy of being 21. I was at my highest weight ever of 253 when pregnant with him. I ate differently and moved about and lost 15, gained 15 back and when he was born I lost 15 immediately after. I was quite surprised. Needless to say, I went on to have 3 more babies (only 1 was planned lol). And I have gotten to my highest weight ever, 309. I was hit hard with depression last year and put my weight loss journey on hold (I had lost 17lbs with eating better and doing cize but I was pushing myself too much and losing precious time with my children...6 workouts a day 2 were 30-40 minutes and 4 were anywhere from 15-45 minutes, 7 days a week. I feel I was doing more damage than good). So I stopped the weight loss to focus on my depression. I've been on at least 7 different antidepressants and none of them have been working. I let the depression hold me back. I used the depression as an excuse not to do anything. About a month ago when I saw that scale go over 300lbs I was beside myself. I said what the hell am I doing to myself. I said if I didn't do something about it I was going to be on tv "my 600lb life". I would need to have surgery to fix my weight but I don't want that. My fiancé applied for a job where he is gone for a week at a time and only home on the weekends. That was perfect for me! My enabler to sit and do nothing would be gone. When he finally left for out of town work, I got up off my butt and cleaned my house from top to bottom in 48 hours. My kids now had a routine, I was start to feel a little better. I dropped 10lbs but couldn't see it or feel it. That was almost 3 weeks ago. I started a workout program yesterday (country heat) and started eating correctly I cut the soda out and drink mostly water. I lost 10lbs from April 10th-April 11th. I feel better today.

Sorry this was so long. My goal is to get down to 180 to begin and ultimately I would love to be back down to 150. I haven't seen 180 since my high school days. I came close about 10 years ago but I went about it the wrong way (not eating, throwing up what I ate, etc). My weight when I started was 309. My weight on 4/10/17 was 297.4. My weight on 4/11/17 is 287. Goal weight is 150-180. I have no set time to get there but ultimately I would love to lose at least half of that by the end of the year 12/31/17.

Anyway, thank you for listening to me rant about my life. I am looking forward to many new friends along this weight loss journey. Friends means accountability and success! I am new to the community part of mfp. I use my Fitbit to track my steps and workouts. Have a wonderful day!!!