Today I thought I would do better, but got to work (last week at work) and there were some emails about how they needed info from me to possibly keep me on... for another year -- AHH it's good news but makes full of anxiety because I was ready to start a new chapter in my life - and move on.... now this.... So - I went to lunch with my husband instead of to the gym as I had planned.... chinese buffet -- why can't I "get into the groove" of this diet? My husband weighed himself yesterday, and then asked me to get on and weigh myself -- we weigh the same. I was so embarrassed - but being embarrassed makes me just want to throw my hands up, have a beer and a pint of ice cream! I know diet is 80% of weight loss - i dont know why I can't do it. I used to be super duper fit and healthy... crazy fit... now... im just fat. ..... I always think "if only" and there is so much static in my head I cant think clearly and feel like i can't get there -- and focus. What am i missing? Does someone have the secret?