She did say maybe stepping up to meeting with her twice a week would help. Honestly, I really need to start with a nutritionist or dietician, and feel stuck until I can do that. She asked me to try to cut down weighing myself to every other day, but I'm not sure I can. I'm going to weigh today because I'm not even out of bed yet, and already anxious about the thought of not doing it. I will try not to weigh tomorrow, though. I don't really believe that not weighing will help, but I don't know what else to do to progress forward. I mentioned to my husband that maybe this just isn't a good time to deal with all if this, and we should wait... Maybe it would be easier on us if we stopped poking the sleeping tiger? But he disagreed.

Obviously, I don't want that. But it just isn't as simple for me at the moment. I'm at a loss as to what to eat to get my calories up. I have so many food allergies that it's a huge struggle. And when I do eat enough, I feel so uncomfortable that I b/p. I'm trying to stop it, but at the time it happens, the anxiety is so bad, I literally can not stop myself. I honestly feel like the restricting is better than the b/p, so it's hard to eat enough, because I feel like it gets me dangerously close to the point where I can't prevent a b/p. I'm a mess. My husband suggested maybe to create a daily menu and eat the exact same thing every day for a while. I may try that. It couldn't be worse than what I'm doing now, I guess.

I'm allergic to dairy in all forms, eggs, wheat, gluten, gliadin, oats, rice, soy, yeast of all kinds, mushrooms, asparagus, turkey, oysters, lobster, and several types of white fish. It's almost easier to type the things I can have. I eat a lot of meat, veggies and fruit. I am trying to eat more, but so far, my efforts have only led to more frequent b/p, which is why I'm so freaked out. I feel like I need a plan. I may try my hubby's suggestion. Something - anything - has to work, right?

I could definitely do the nut butter. I do eat nuts, but probably not often enough. I actually bought banana today, and I love nut butter on banana, so I could do that as a PM snack. Just have to buy the nut butter. The olive oil is a little more tricky, but I could try it on salad. I am not really a fan of the taste of olive oil when it isn't on bread, though, and I can't have bread (or crackers). I could try sautéing my evening veggies, though, instead of steaming-in-the-bag, at least some of the time. I don't always have time to go through that much effort, but sometimes I do. I could also maybe try doing olive oil and garlic on some oven-baked potato chunks... sort of home-made garlic fries, I guess, but without the fryer...

Thank you, these are good ideas. I'm also trying to think of more ways to eat avocado. My hubby's suggestion was the following:
Eat my regular breakfast (which consists of a serving of deli sliced ham, a piece of fruit and a carrot) and leave a bit early for work so I can stop by Jamba Juice on the way and get a juice. This would add several hundred calories, and be easy on the tummy, since I'd be drinking them. I can get it made with 100% fresh-squeezed OJ, so I wouldn't have to freak about drinking a ton of processed icky juice. They can also add their flax-and-fiber boost, which has good healthy fat in it. Then, eat a Lara bar (or at least half of one - I don't think I could manage a whole one) while at work, and then eat a Jimmy Johns unwich (roast beef, lettuce, onion, cucumber and avocado spread, wrapped in a lettuce wrap) for lunch. Then, have another snack in the afternoon and something (the same something every day) for dinner. Have a serving of my favorite coconut milk ice cream for dessert. Make dinner and the PM snack be high enough in calls so that it all adds up to at least 1600 per day. My TDEE should allow me to at least break even at that point, and if I can manage more than that, I should start to slowly gain. It might be a plan I can manage.