Yes, I'll admit it, I'm looking for a tiny bit of sympathy and a massive boot up the (still large) backside. I've regained 2lbs of my initial 5lb weight loss over the past three weeks and I'm beginning to think I'll never be anything be under 11 stone 7lbs. I'm currently 11 stone 11lbs and really want to get down to 10 stone. I've had seriously disordered eating all my life, right from infancy and ranging from what would nowadays be called a 'food phobia' in childhood to anorexia and bulimia in adolescence and then being overweight since my mid-twenties. Am I seriously thinking I can change 37 years of cr@p eating in a few months??? Well, partly, yes. I do think MFP has helped me eat like something approaching a 'normal' person (3 meals a day - that's a whole new world for me!) but my bipolar disorder means when the chips are down, they're also in a great humungous mound on my plate and making their delicious vinegary way to my salivating chops!! AARRGGHH!!! I may be mocking myself but I'm in tears writing this. I'm so angry at myself. But surely it says something that I went round the co-op this morning thinking 'what the hell, I'm going to binge' and ended up with a punnet of raspberries and a small chocolate mousse?! I don't know.

Sorry about the rant and the tears and the vision of a large backside pleading to be booted and then lovingly soothed....But please send help, immediately!!