Weight loss support group zoom

Hi there.. im looking for a group of people that struggle like i do…i lose weight.. feel great.. somehow sabotage myself.. gain 5 lbs back.. hate myself..than eat more until im sick of it and lose weight again.. its been a vicious cycle since i was 16.. im 48.. and really need to stay focused and could use the support .. if your like me.. i would invite you and perhaps we can do a zoom group meeting every other week ect. To check in ect. Let me know your thoughts.. maybe there is a groupd already for this.. but if not.. I'm offering to start one..