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It's not this site's calorie app, b/c for some reason my phone has trouble with the app. It's called Lose It! - Calorie Counter

I try to limit my cheat days to once a week; that day usually consists of pizza or a big bowl of mac n cheese. Three weeks ago, I'll admit, I had two cheat days; one was my own, the other was a pizza party at work. I don't have a food scale, I rely on measuring cups/spoons.

When I do have cheat days, I don't log b/c I know it'll cause me to have a melt down... cheat days are supposed to be fun "day off" days for me. But I don't have cheat days every day, so I feel like that's okay. On the normal days I logged everything on a calorie app on my phone; I was usually just under or barely over…

My starting weight was on my home scale. I usually weight myself w/o clothes, but ya can't really do that at the doc's. But as i said, clothes typically only take 1.5-2 lbs... even taking that off it isn't acceptable. Yea, just around the same time. Early in the morning. Honestly, don't know about the monthly cycle thing.…

I haven't felt the need to bring it up lately b/c I felt like I was doing okay. She agreed that it was okay to avoid the scale since it risks triggering me into a meltdown. I won't see her again til next friday. I'm sure she'll say some bs about needing to accept my body for what it is.

Well, what do you believe it is then? I mean I'm sure the most obvious answer is "fat" but as i said, I've noticed myself slimming down (and my boyfriend has too)... so if it isn't fat, but also isnt muscle, what could it be?

I am fully aware you did not know of my other post when leaving behind this picture. I am aware you somehow saw this as a joke. However, even if this were someone else, I do no understand why youd post such a picture on a forum where someone is obviously distressed and wanting advice; this is a support forum, not a joke…

Thank you so much for defending me and for the care in your words.

I am very grateful for your concern, however, I don't see what making another account would do for me. My struggle with ED is a part of me, and even if i made another account, it would eventually get brought up again in the forums. I appreciate those who saw my other forum and kept it in mind when choosing their words;…

Thank you to everyone who responded kindly to my post. It touches my heart that you're all concerned about my mental-emotional health. And honestly, your words have given me the push I need to greatly consider taking the step forward and setting up an appointment with a mental health professional to help me with my…

I would like to thank you for your concern and this well thought out post. However i would like to add that I don't see it as me having an anxiety-ridden relationship with food (though I guess anyone with a problem wouldnt see it that way, would they?). I LOVE food. I hardly skip meals on purpose, and usually eat when I am…