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Had 2 beers today, but not because I was lonely or depressed. I met some great new people to golf with and played really well for me. I went off the anxiety meds the doctor put me on in July and honestly I feel so much better. I think they may have impacted me in such a way that i didn't feel the real lows or real highs.…
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AF today. Worked, took a Pilates class (I have a long way to go to get back to where I was), joined Stretch Zone (cried while talking to the employee when we finished...maybe the stretching and breathing released something), now off to a massage (hope i don't blow away. Its so windy i have already retrieved a chair from…
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Alcohol free today. Took a balance and control class at Club Pilates (it was all breath work and stretching)... a nice way to ease back in. I did not go for a walk but managed 13k steps doing stuff around the house. Bought all healthy food at the store and ate well today. One day at a time. 10/1 A 10/2 AF Have a great week!
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10/1 too much alcohol I flew down to Arizona for the winter and made the mistake of looking at all the photos on my phone during the flight. So many photos of my late husband and I hiking, golfing, dining and playing with grandbabies. We always had big smiles on our faces. I had tears rolling down my face on the plane.…
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Thank you for starting our new month @MissMay. My goal for October...no drinking alone and at least 24 days AF (Sept was 23 AF and 7 A). Tomorrow I head to AZ. I am looking forward to hiking, restarting Club Pilates, starting a weight lifting program with a personal trainer, and getting my eating back on track. Have a…
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9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15-9/19AF 9/20 -9/21 A 9/22-9/25 AF 9/26-9/29 A 9/30 AF Sept Totals AF - 23 A -7 Victories this month: Reported in for each day of the month for accountability. Only 2 of the 7 A days were drinking alone. Tomorrow I head to my happy place for the next 7-8 months. I will miss my family (especially…
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9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15-9/19AF 9/20 -9/21 A 9/22-9/25 AF 9/26-9/28 A Sept Totals AF - 22 A -6
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9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15-9/19AF 9/20 -9/21 A 9/22-9/25 AF 9/26-9/27 A Sept Totals AF - 22 A -5 Plan to be AF last 4 days of the month. Back in 2017, when I was 52, I lost about 20 lbs and lifted weights several times a week. I found the progress pictures today and it was the best shape I have ever been in. I got down as low…
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I went over to some friends and had some Michelob Ultra tonight while sitting outside around the fire table. It's starting to get cool here in South Dakota so it was nice and cozy. I did a big self care thing today! I booked a trip to the Amalfi Coast of Italy through One Fit Widow Adventures. It is a small group of 16 and…
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AF today. 9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15-9/19AF 9/20 -9/21 A 9/22-9/25 AF Sept totals AF - 22 A - 3
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AF today. Spending the evening with my grandbabies. 9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15-9/19AF 9/20 -9/21 A 9/22-9/24 AF Sept totals AF - 21 A - 3
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AF today. I quit beating myself up about the Diet Coke this week since I wasn't sleeping and was struggling mentally. I need to work on that and the ridiculous carb loaded diet I've been subsisting on. My self care for this weekend includes: a manicure after work today, my granddaughter's birthday party tomorrow, watching…
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Thank you for all of these suggestions. All things I am working on myself. I forgot to mention in my earlier post that I have deactivated all of my social media accounts (except MFP of course) and it has been so freeing.
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AF today. I dumped an almost full large bottle of vodka and the last beer that I had in my house down the drain this morning. Hopefully that will keep me AF through the end of September. It is suicide awareness month and one of our regional health systems (the one my husband was the chair of the board for when he took his…
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Drank alone again last night. Very disappointed in myself but at least I came here and held myself accountable. I see my counselor this morning. Hopefully talking things out will get me back on track. I am going to go dump the remaining alcohol in my house. 9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15-9/19AF 9/20 -9/21 A Sept totals AF - 18 A…
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I feel like I'm regressing in my grief. I suppose it isn't linear and I should expect to take 1 step forward and 2 steps back for awhile. I just want my person back. I drank alone tonight - not proud of it. 9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15-9/19AF 9/20 A Sept totals AF - 18 A - 2
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Long work day today. No alcohol and finally cooked for myself which I enjoy doing, but haven't done for 6 months. It was a nice change from the excessive carbs I have been consuming. 9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15-9/19AF Sept totals AF - 18 A - 1
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AF again today. 9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15-9/18AF Sept totals AF - 17 A - 1
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AF today (no thoughts about drinking.) 9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15-9/17AF Sept totals AF - 16 A - 1
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I'm feeling extremely depressed tonight. Three weeks ago I would have had a couple of cocktails when I felt like this. Tonight I am just sitting in it letting myself experience the heartache and pain. Tomorrow will be a better day. 9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15 AF 9/16 AF Sept totals AF - 15 A - 1
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I'm so disappointed that I broke my Sober September commitmrent last night. Time to regroup and finish the month out AF. 9/1-9/13 AF 9/14 A 9/15 AF
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I did not stay AF today. A friend who's husband diet from cancer a few weeks before my husband died texted mid afternoon to see if I wanted to meet for dinner. My intention was to stay AF but I knew she would be drinking. I’m very disappointed in not keeping the commitment to myself. I was Diet Coke free for the 2nd day in…
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I had golf today and seriously considered having a beer or two with dinner, but the gal that always drinks told me she wasn't planning to drink. She said she had been AF 3 nights in the last week. Apparently I am rubbing off on here. So my Sober September streak continues. I have lost my love for golf. It is something my…
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You will probably find that the hour spent exercising will actually improve your work productivity so net net no work hours lost!
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It's interesting that I am now comfortable posting AF at 6:30 in the evening. Before I started sober September I would not have the confidence at 6:30 to say I would be AF for the day. Still working on the Diet Coke. Progress not perfection. 9/1 - 9/7 AF 9/8 AF and 2 Diet Cokes 9/9 AF and 2 Diet Cokes 9/10 AF and 2 reg / 1…
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@GlobalHiker thank you for the invitation to reach out. My husband and I went to Usery Park almost everyday for a hike. I am an early morning person as well. I will let you know when I get settled back in and we can arrange to meet.
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Apparently the Hawkeye and Packer offenses didn't get the memo that I am trying to stay sober. Both their offenses look terrible! Fortunately I didn't drink. I'm feeling really good about not drinking right now. It is becoming less of a concious decision not to drink and more just part of my daily routine. Looking forward…
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September Still AF for September 9/1 - 9/7 AF 9/8 AF and 2 Diet Cokes 9/9 AF and 2 Diet Cokes 9/10 AF and 2 reg / 1 caffeine free Diet Coke
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@globalhiker I like your statement "Self-care is the SECRET. If I can nail the self-care routine, I can master self-control". This is exactly where I am right now. I am trying to get some consistent self-care routines in place to help battle the anxiety/depression. I think the better we take care of ourselves the less…
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Cool rainy day here. Very gray and dreary. I had a good weekly appointment with my counselor and have decided to cut back to every other week sessions. She is getting her AZ license so we can continue to do remote appointments once I head back down. I had a nice massage tonight. It is so hard having gone from having had…