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January 1/1 - 1/ 5 AF 1/6 - 1/7 A 1/8 AF 1/9 A 1/10 A 1/11 AF 1/2 A 1/13 AF 1/14 A 1/15 AF January totals AF - 9 A - 6

1/1 - 1/ 5 AF 1/6 - 1/7 A 1/8 AF 1/9 A 1/10 A 1/11 AF 1/2 A 1/13 AF January totals AF - 8 A - 5

1/1 - 1/ 5 AF 1/6 - 1/7 A 1/8 AF 1/9 A 1/10 A 1/11 AF January totals AF - 7 A - 4

Continued struggling with anxiety yesterday. I did get in a Pilates class and stretch session. Had drinks alone last night. Got up early and had a remote session with my counselor. She helped me work through some anxiety inducing pervasive thoughts I keep having. Golfing with friends today. I may have a few drinks. 1/1 -…

It is the 10 month anniversary of my husband's death today and I am feeling very depressed and anxious. Alcohol would have given me a short term boost, but a depressant when depressed isn't a great idea. Stayed AF. 1/1 - 1/ 5 AF 1/6 - 1/7 A 1/8 AF

Played golf today. The person I was golfing with wanted a beer when we finished. I didn't want to drink, but caved and had one 16 oz Michelob Ultra. Ugh. 1/1 - 1/ 5 AF 1/6 - 1/7 A

What should have been a 7 1/2 hour drive from NM to AZ turned into 10 1/2 hours with an accident delay and then 110 mile detour. Had 2 strong drinks when I finally made it home. 1/1 - 1/ 5 AF 1/6 A

Last day with my grandbabies. AF today 1/1 - 1/ 5 AF

Still going strong. Another AF day 1/1 AF 1/2 AF 1/3 AF 1/4 AF (AF 9 out of last 10 days - since I started tracking on 12/26. Only 1 drink in this period.)

Another AF day 1/1 AF 1/2 AF 1/3 AF

Another quiet day with my son's family. I love being with them, but I really need to get back into my exercise and healthy eating routine. I will head back to AZ on Friday. Another AF day in the books. 1/1 AF 1/2 AF

Quiet day today with my son's family. Still under the weather and stayed AF. 1/1 AF I haven't spent the time to set my intentions for 2023 yet, but I do know less alcohol and healthier diet are definitely 2 components.

Made the drive to New Mexico today. I still am feeling very under the weather. I hope I start to feel better soon so I can enjoy my grandbabies. AF today. 12/26 AF 12/27 AF 12/28 AF 12/29 AF 12/30 A 12/31 AF Happy New Years.

Made it to AZ. I did not drink on the plane which was a victory. I did have a drink when I got to my house to help me wind down and get to sleep. I should be AF through next Friday. I will be at my son's home in NM and he no longer drinks alcohol ( both of my boys ages 28 and 30 do not drink.) 12/26 AF 12/27 AF 12/28 AF…

Not feeling well today again. It made it easy to stay AF. 12/26 AF 12/27 AF 12/28 AF 12/29 AF @globalhiker The two brown hair grandbabies are in NM and the blondies are in SD. I also have another granddaugter due in April in SD. We took pictures out where McKellips ends in November. The grandbabies are holding teddy bears…

I woke up feeling even worse today. Although my husband wasn't much of a nurse I at least knew he was there if I needed something. I feel very alone and paralyzed over where my life goes from here. I'm trying not to burden others with it. They all get to move on and I am stuck in this nightmare that won't end. On a…

I woke up with chest congestion and body aches today. Not feeling well makes it easy to stay AF. I'm hoping I recover quickly since I am flying back to AZ on Friday and then driving 8 hours to NM on Saturday. I also stayed under my calorie goal today (it helps that I have virtually nothing to eat in my house.) 12/26 AF…

I'm really having a hard time getting my drinking back under control. This was the first Christmas without my husband and it really has me in a tail spin. I'm heading back to AZ on Friday for the next 3 months and my social network is pretty small there so hopefully I can avoid alcohol. I'm going to see how many AF days I…

Still here! I've had company for the better part of the last 2 weeks. Alcohol was involved. I will just note them all as A days and move on. I had so much fun .... pretty hard to be sad in Arizona when surrounded by friends. Time to get back on track and end the month AF. 10/1 thru 10/7 AF - 5 A - 2 10/8 thru 10/14 AF - 4…

I went for a hike with my niece this morning, had a one hour Stretch Zone session and did lots of work. Then i washed my SUV and cleaned the garage. I had 3 Michelob Ultras over the course of 6 hours. I met a neighbor lady who was walking by with her grandsons and she is going to teach me to play Pickle Ball. Pilates, golf…

I had good day yesterday. Lots of body movement and healthy eating. I'm getting excited for my friends to come for a visit next week. They drink, but not excessively so I may or may not drink, but I'm not going to judge it if I do. 10/1 thru 10/7 AF - 5 A - 2 10/8 AF (7th month anniversary of husband's suicide) 10/9 AF…

@globalhiker Great job on the 11 out of 12 days AF! I hear you about the long hours of sitting for work. In my South Dakota home I had a treadmill desk so I could either sit, walk or stand. I loved it, but gave it up when I moved to a smaller home. I often walked up to 9 miles a day (it only went up to 2 mph so that was a…

I had 1 1/2 Michelob Ultra last night while cleaning the house. I should have taken it as a sign that I shouldn't drink when I spilled the first one! 10/1 thru 10/7 AF - 5 A - 2 10/8 AF (7th month anniversary of husband's suicide) 10/9 AF 10/10 A 10/11 AF 10/12 A Sept AF - 25 A - 6 Oct AF - 8 A - 4

AF today. I started my morning with a brisk 3+ mile walk, worked, took a Pilates class and ended my evening with a massage. Stayed on goal for calories. I am starting to see the scale come down. 10/1 thru 10/7 AF - 5 A - 2 10/8 AF (7th month anniversary of husband's suicide) 10/9 AF 10/10 A 10/11 AF Sept AF - 25 A - 6 Oct…

I came back from New Mexico a day early (another story for another time.) 8 hours on the road today with a couple of construction delays. When I last stopped for gas I bought some Michelob Ultra. I drank 3 at my desk while putting in 4 hours of work after the drive. I did finish what I wanted to get done so that's a…

Feeling overwhelming sadness, but the thought of drinking alcohol to combat it never crossed my mind. Previously all feelings (happy, sad, bored) were a reason to drink. I guess that's progress. 10/1 thru 10/7 AF - 5 A - 2 10/8 AF 10/9 AF Sept AF - 25 A - 6 Oct AF - 7 A - 2

AF today 10/1 thru 10/7 AF - 5 A - 2 10/8 AF - 1 Aug AF - 25 A - 7 Sept AF - 6 A - 2

AF today 10/1 A 10/2 AF 10/3 AF 10/4 A 10/5 AF 10/6 AF 10/7 AF Aug AF - 25 A - 7 Sept AF - 5 A - 2

Waited for 4 hours to see the hot air balloon glow event at the Albuquerque Balloon Festival and the weather didnt cooperate. It was going to be all character balloons Heading back at 5:00 am tomorrow. Hoping the weather cooperates snd they will be able to go up. AF today 10/1 A 10/2 AF 10/3 AF 10/4 A 10/5 AF 10/6 AF Happy…

AF today. Stayed under goal for calories, 1 hour Pilates class, 1 hour Stretch Zone, flu shot, and got my 10,000 steps wrapped up waiting for my car to get done with oil change. Genuinely feel content today. Taking off early in the morning for New Mexico. Looking forward to loving on 2 of my grandbabies. 10/1 A 10/2 AF…