Borderl1ne

I think this is what I've realised deep inside already. But I think I'm hanging on to the "but I'm mostly fine" - thoughts. because i am quite fine until something sets me off.

Nopes, absolutely no shame about it, I've been in treatment for 10+ years ;) and believe me, if it was so easy as one underlying reason I would already be "cured", unfortunately there is no quick fix which I'm realising more and more. Especially not after this many years.

Thank you for your replies. Guess I just need to suck it up and go back into therapy. I miss my ED in the way that "helps" me regain at the weight I want to stay at (I've never gained because of the bulimia - just by stopping) which in all honesty is way more healthy than during my anorexic days. i think the major thing is…