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Maybe I need to start being held accountable. I was with my last therapist I had to get weighed every week. I am supposed to now to be able to keep woring but I know I can get away with not doing it..so I have. Besides that I have kidney problems and have had way to much sodium so why get weighed when it isnt true weight.…

Ok keeping you acctountable..How is the 1000 calories working for you?Even if you didnt make 1000 cals as long as you are trying and keep fighting.

Great job Joanne! Sometimes people speak and dont think. You stayed nice and calm I on the other hand get rather irritated with people. I used to not say anything, but now that everyone knows about my ED I feel the need to educate them. I have had fellow nurses say things such as you are eating again, wow you have thighs…

Funny you posted this because I was thinking the same. Glad to hear how wonderful you are doing..Keep it up! That is amazing. Isnt a great feeling to be able to say that? I try to remember that when those dumb numbers get in my head. As for myself not doing bad..actually had a couple of bites of fear food myself..so there…

Well I dont think it is a matter of if you are looking at other peoples diaries or whatever it is just what some of the post have turned into. There were post that were asking for advice on how to hide your ed and how to advoid eating and those kinds of things..so called tips is all. Everybody is in a different place but…

If MFP is to triggering I will give you my email if you need to talk...

I recommend talking with your doctor so he can check you out physically but also you should find someone who specializes in eating disorders. They usually will have you work with a nutritionist too. Not sure where you live but try this site. http://www.edreferral.com/index.html?gclid=CKrv4vuS5K0CFS6FQAodW1nJbg it gives…

You are doing awesome with the fear foods!! Way to go!

Well I am glad you have sorted things out. I havent been on in a couple of days(busy with work, and then exhausted from going out to eat with people from work..I dont like to go out to eat..but I did) Anyway you did the right thing you reached out and asked for support. Dont expect everyday to be perfect otherwise you are…

ED are very tiring! And I get the struggling thing whether it be with my thoughts of food, weights, looks or things I would rather not mention I get it. You are not alone. And here if you ever need to talk.

So what are you going to do to change it. The circulation will get a little better, unless your dead that is. Sorry for being so blunt but what is your body telling you? I love you and dont want that. Pay attention to your body. Forget the labels..anorexic, bulimic, ednos. because that isnt you. You have nothing to prove.…

I would just eat my breakfast when I got up. Around 4pm. Have a snack about 10pm and eat my dinner from 1-2 am. On my days off I would eat when I get up and then eat whenever I got hungry next.

Actually while I was in the hospital they had therapy dogs. Once or twice a week they would bring them to the unit. I was in a psych hospital as my insurance wouldnt pay for Renfrew in Phili. I counldnt afford it myself. Although I think I would benifit more from that than where I keep going. Any how I loved it when they…

I wont use numbers but when I left the hospital I was on a very high number of calories a day and I wasnt gaining either when I got home. More fuel..the more it burned. I was actually hot for once in my life. Anyway be patient with yourself. It takes your body some time to readjust to things. I know we all want it now. At…

Do you mean where you log in your food for the day? And I think you are doing a great job. Way to tackle your fears..good job being proactive!!

Well I applaud you for even trying! Even if you took 2 sips that is better than none. Dont be so hard on yourself. You are not going to do everything perfect. It is the ED talking that is making you feel bad. I was like Holy **** that is great! When I read what you wrote. HAve to look at the whole picture. You tried…

I agree goals are a good thing. Actually on my post I try to get people to set a daily goal with me, but that kind of faded. Anyway my motivation...I really wish that I could say that it was for myself. But I am not to that point yet. But I have many nieces and nephews, 3 in preticular that would be devastated if anything…

And please please dont use laxatives. This I beg of you. Dont ever say much to anybody about behavior except this one. This one almost killed me, but instead I had to have my whole large intetine removed and ended up with a colostomy(a bag on the OUTSIDE of your stomache that poop goes into) all beacuse of laxatives. It…

It is not uncommon to feel not skinny enough in the group settings. That is why they often say support groups dont work, but what you are looking at doing is different from that. I feel the same way. Every time I go to the hospital I think that people are going to wonder why I am there b/c I am the biggest one. It isnt a…

Are you restricting that leads to binging? And definately need a therapist. look for someone who specializes in ED. ASk what their success rate is, what kind of therapy do they do and such..

I am so happy for you! Isnt that such a great feeling when you are one up on ED. Keep up the good work!

Wow Jess what courage you have! Had to join in since I am all about the being positive and supporting one another. Oh by the way my name is Theresa lol.. Well where to start..easiest I guess from the age of 16 but it was there long before just as yours Jess I was overweight(mainly I was to shy to tell the babysitter I…

I think they maybe didnt realize what kind of group this was. I figure everybody is in a different place. I was there once but I DONT WANT TO BE THERE AGAIN. Not that I am anywhere what you would call recovered, but I am trying. Where as they arent trying. Hopefully they will get the message and make their own group. Not…

Personally I have to watch my sodium, but I am in kidney failure. My problem is I love chicken broth. But if you find that you have taken too much in then drink lots of water. That should help. And dont weigh yourself the next day. We all have our littlw quirks about things so I get where you are coming from. And once they…

I agree with who ever said dont restrict during the day. Eat normal and then you wont feel like you have deprived yourself of anything. Then hopefully there wont be this urge. People tend to binge because they have restricted! Is your boyfriend a support for you?Maybe you could talk to him when you get the urge.

Well just to let you know you are not alone. This is very common. I cant weigh myself because if i start I wont stop again.As for the part about gaining 5lbs if you eat normal..well right now your body is so confused as to if you are going to give it food or not. So until you are consistent with your meals and calories you…

Wow I commend you on how well you are doing!!Tell that voice to go to Hell! (sorry if offended you) You dont need the ED. It isnt a healthy thing. So you wont want the feelings of being empty. You will be to busy enjoying life not thinking about that! They say it is a control thing. Remind yourself you still are the one in…

yes I agree stay away from the scale. All those tjoughts are ED thoughts. They are not rationale. You have to challenge them..hope today is better.

Well you are prob going to have to prove to your parents that you are doing better. I am sure when you were active in your disease you were very secreative and prob lied to them so it might take a while for them to get the trust back. Not sure what to say about your thoughts except maybe you didnt want the bread and the…

Well that not a real doctor has a lot more schooling that your ed but you are right many people in the medical field do not understand ED. What they do understand is where your body needs to be. Try to do the short term thing. My drs want me to gain 40 lbs. Yeah...just thinking about that freaks me out, but like you said…