cowlover22 Member

It is amazing how many people there are that suffer with this disease. If anyone needs support just send me a message when you friend me. Just about me I started out bulimic 25 years ago and have since became anorexic (purge type) so I understand both sides.

Ive been hospitalized to many times to count and thehospital has taken me when my bmi was16.8 your insurence might have something to do with it but my therapist wouldnt see me if i was near 17 and trending downward. I knew where I would end up soon. Yes it is much different out of our country....

Calcified kidneys can mean that you have kidney stones. Many people have them and dont even know it. If you start having severe back pain or notice any blood in your urine. Then you need a trip to the doctor. I am a nurse and actually work on the kidney floor so I wouldnt worry about it unless you have symptoms

I to have ana with purging tendencies and have been hospitalized many times. I have been battling this disease for over 25 years some better than others but if I can be any help to you please let me know.:flowerforyou:

Id be glad to help in anyway possible. First thing is to write out a meal plan and stick to it. If you try to restrict that usually leads to a binge and then the visciuos cycle. Feel free to email me if you need some support. This is a terrible disease and no one can beat it alone. And remember you are not alone.

Great topic..My first one is to truely live. My ed is at the point where my organs are being severely effected. But in the same respect have no one to blame but myself. Next to be free. really free not think about how much I weight, how many calories are in something,if I gained weight, if I look fat ect... To be able to…

Ok first of all I commend you on doing as well as you have, but have to look at why you want to go back. What it is all of a sudden that makes you feel that way? What are you trying to escape from? Because no matter if you start back with your ed or not it will still be there. Do you have anyother outlets for getting rid…

I have heard that they have been using it for this and have had a lot of success. Also prozac is helpful to some too

I like this web site plus it can link you to others: http://www.something-fishy.org/ also try Mentorconnect I am trying to recovery from anorexia now for over 20 years and most of my family is just now finding out(needed a ride to the hospital) but it was a good thing. good luck

Are you seeing a therapist at all? You really should have some professional help it isnt easy doing it alone. Mentioning even safe. Look at my pics. I thought I was fat in those and they werent even my lowest is that what you want.If you need someone to talk to I am here

Well I guess to all of the people who are suffering with your disease you can look at it this way...your way isnt working.You can always go back to the way you are, but I know it is hard to take that initial step to trust someone else,but for me i have been miserable for over 25 years now and my way isnt working.No number…

Obviously that dr just cares about money and not his patient. Even for 8 days of starving yourself it starts to have its negative affects on your body. That girls thinking is how my thinking was when I was in my eating disorder 100%. He is the doctor he should know better.I am a nurse and I would never tell my patients to…

Wow everyone is doing great.every little bit helps. I had a jelly bean and didnt think about it for the rest of the day!

Atleast you have eaten..keep fighting!

Think this is a great idea because nobody understands more than somebody who is going through it

Are you in recovery treatment if you dont mind me asking?

Ed turn into a disease of the brain. There is a chemical imbalance. I get what you mean about getting rid of food. Sometimes I just have to think about what I ate or my weight and food comes up. No one has the right to judge anyone where they are in the recovery process. It is a process..some have had the disease much…

Great job..remember that feeling of how it feels to do so good..better than the B&P feeling isnt it!!See you can do it!!

I think your body looks the same except your muscles are much more defined. But your face looks so much better..doesnt look so gaunt. Ok that is the out side how does the inside feel? Maybe with myself I should try and do it in small steps. Instead of having to gain 50lbs maybe I should just shoot for 10 at first what do…

Jess I dont weigh myself either..better if I dont know. It is scary not knowing what it will be like, but I guess you have to have faith. Dont always understand the path that I lead but I have to have faith and believe that it all happens for a reason. Sometimes though it is just so hard to give complete faith. But then…

Remember you are the one paying them for their service. So it is up to you unless you are a risk to yourself than they can tell you what to do. I dont think you're though and if you are than you're in the right place. They wont judge you so dont worry about that..they just want to help.I am learning to trust all over as I…

On bad weeks I see my therapist 2 times or more a week.If that is what it takes to keep me out of the hospital. I also see a dietitian which I think will be very helpful, but if you cant continue to do it own your own that maybe you need partial. People recover at different rates for different reason. Some could still be…

As long as you continue to do better you are headed in the right direction. Keep moving forward..keep fighting the fight!

Dont beat yourself up because it will only make things worse. Take it for what it is..a learning experience. Tomorrow is a new day..one slip isnt a relapse unless you let it.

I agree when you try to restrict your calories that is when you are setting yourself up for that B&P> If you dont feel like you are depriving yourself of anything than that urge to B isnt there as much. Atleast that is what I found. Peoples idea of a binge is very different. For some it is eating everything insight. For…

I am glad that we have each other here to. It is nice to be able to say what you are going through and no one judges you, but supports. I can talk with my friends who dont have ed's but they dont get it at all. They try to iunderstand but as one friend said to me tonight "I just dont get how you can just not eat..I eat…

Well said my friend!! It is a willingness. Somedays I amm more willing than others, but that is my own ****. I guess I see you have your head on straight. Not that it is easy for you but you are doing so very well. Willingness for me is I dont want to deal with **** and so they tell me I wont get over this..guess I have to…

Well it is really good that you are aware of what triggers you. Personally I cant weigh myself because no matter what the scale says it triggers me. If it goes up I freak out, if it goes down I want to loose more so it is better that I just dont know. Definately if I eat to much salt(doesnt take much since kidneys dont…

I relate to all of these esp #1

I watched the whole thing. I wasnt real impressed. They were talking about the pro ana website. Personally I would go on that web site. It isnt all bad there is a recovery section and it gives people a safe place to talk. Kind of like here. The problem being it also encourages people to have ED. But one thing there are…