Oh my goodness bulimia is just the most horrible thing. It took over my life, obsessed me, and destroyed my happiness for long periods of time.

It has not been easy to recover - but I have got there, gradually. But you HAVE to eat enough. I have come to the conclusion that if you have bulimic tendencies then you just cannot CANNOT go on any diet that makes you feel like you are restricting your food. As soon as I reduce my calories I just want to b/p. And if I get that idea in my head then there is not much I can do to stop it.

I went straight from anorexia to bulimia and my metabolism was screwed. I think it is only just back to what it should be. BUT - I am eating over 2000 calories most days and am still losing weight. Please do not starve yourselves - try to eat 3 meals with healthy snacks in between, don't deprive yourself, and don't beat yourself up too much.

Also I have recently given up refined sugar as it was a huge trigger for me and messed with my blood sugar - and giving it up seem to have helped

I know what you mean about punishing yourself.
I punished myself half my life, because I thought I was a bad person for many years. But I wasn't. The criminal was the bad person. Not me.

Do you think this is a form of making yourself suffer, or punishing yourself for something that has happened to you, or something that you did yourself? Mine was.

Is it that, you can do really good all day, then at night have those times of b & p ?