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When you were in the hospital it took at lot higher amout of food to gain weight prob b/c of the restricting and over exercising you were doing before. You went into hyper metabolic state. I couldnt gain on 3600. Now let me eat 1000 cals and I gain some. My prob I am not consistent somedays I eat 2000 some I eat 500. so…

My motivation is I am so tired of being miserable..why would I want to keep something that is making me miserable?Just not that easy I guess.Hard for me at the moment to find to much motivation since it has been 2 1/2 years that I have been a widow. Didnt expect that at 38. But I am the only family member that my niece has…

What a lot of people dont realize that a lot of people that die from anorexia/bulimia die when they are not at their worst. It is usually after the damage is done. You dont ever know. It could be that one time that you purge and your esphagus ruptures. For me one time was my bowel ruptured. I was just lucky to be at the…

Personally i try not to do it unless I am making a statement like my bmi was this when I almost died or lost all of my bowel from abusing laxatives. Usually if I see it i will say something b/c as we know i can be blunt when it comes to peoples lives as it is not a game. A warning in the title is good to. Whatever Milli…

Yes you need to find a therapist. Your body is so screwed up from the binging and purging that it will take a while for it to get back to normal. And that is if you eat a normal amount of calories.It took mine years but I ended up going from bulimia to anorexia. Which I dont suggest(because in the mean time I almost died a…

Well I guess it is all in how you use MFP. Everyone is a great support with regards to recovery from whatever kind of eating disorder anyone has. In my book the only thing that is taboo is if you were looking for a fasting buddy...lol otherwise I am open to anything.I personally think it is a good thing here..dont think…

yeah well i am a nurse you would think i would know better. esp since I almost died 2 times..it is a very hard disease to overcome but it is great to see how everbody supports one another:drinker:

Well I am anorexic and I just got out of the hospital and was back at work and one of my co workers(who is a nurse mind you) said YOUARE EATING AGAIN..You are going to get huge...thanks..didnt eat the rest of that day or the next. People dont think before they speak. People will ask me what I weigh(I cant go back to work…

Well I am supposed to be on 3600 calories but you just cant jump up there. Usually the rule of thumb is to increase 200 calories every 2 to 3 days. You can cause problems if your body isnt used to food and then you start eating. And as for gaining the weight "with muse" is that just an excuse not to gain? Just playing…

Basically they are worried about you and they wanted you and your husband to know it. That way even if he did realize(how could he not) they were pointing it out to him so maybe he could push you a lttle more to eat. They are just worried. You have to remember that there has been a lot of ED stuff in the news in the last 6…

I dont really even get hungry anymore. And if my stomach growls I dont realize. I have learned to ignore my bodies cues which isnt good.

So why are you ok with being at an unheathy weight and not eating enough. So you dont see yourself as fat but you mut be obsessed with food and calories and exercise. I am right? Well you are on this website and i see that you run. I would think that if you were just naturally thin and ate a normal diet that would be ok,…

First of all dont be ashamed for not following, but since you are going to the nutritionist then you are making a strong attempted at getting better. Are you ready to make that commitment to your self? I personally dont question weather I can follow my meal plan I just sometime fall from the way side, but I dont ever give…

The red prob was blood and it does hurt when you bleed on the inside.well occasionally it can but not usually. Well stop and take a look at things in your life right now. Is something new going on to trigger this all of a sudden? Do you see a therapist?And these rules where didthey come from? Maybe try to write your…

So where are you at with things now? Any better? Let me know.It has been a couple days since your post.

Well what I think my ideal weight and what the doctor thinks my ideal weight should be are 2 different things. I am 5 10 and they want me at 145-150. but right now I cant even get to 115. I think 110 is good for me.

depends on what kind of clothes I am trying on. If it is pants I hate my hips(love handles),thighs and butt. shirts I hate that I have long arms and big boobs and that shirts are always to short since i am tall..pretty much everything I guess!!lolnot happy at any weight!

Regaurdless of how much you weigh you shouldnt go below 1300 cals.not good for your body. i understand about tge medication.I take 23 pills with breakfast and dont want to eat the rest of the day..i also have an eating disorder so that doesnt help any. on a good day I get in around 1800-2000 cals. not so good days are…

ok you need to have the doctor help you with getting off laxatives. They just about killed me.Seriuosly. I have no large intestine and had a colostomy b/c of them. It is nothing to play with. I took laxs by the bottles and handfuls and still couldnt go..please see a dr. I am miserable from it.

Well I am a nurse so I know how many cals you can burn at work. Maybe you are at the beginning of an ed. Have some of the thoughts and some behaviors but not totally full blown...this is the time to go get some help. See a dietitian she can help you with the number of cals you need. I used to have a lot of food allergies…

It was nice when I could take prozac..that used to be my miracle drug.. but it is great having all of you on her as supports. Keep fighting girls!

I think we all do it but if I see one of my friends doing good and I am not I do feel bad. Kind of like I am letting somebody down. Even if I eat 300 cals I still can ENCOURAGE someone else to eat more. Doesnt make me a hypocrite means I am trying to be there for that person..since i cant seem to do it for myself. Ido so…

I understand where you are coming from. I used to be mia but am now ana..that doesnt happen often but my metabolism changed for what ever reason. I was never skinny but wanted to be. I was more athletic. Played alot of sports. But regardless of what disease you have unless you want to get better you wont. I resented every…

Personally when I lose weight I would feel good so I would say when I get get to 120 I will be happy. Got there and still want happy. Continued with this all the way till 76lbs. Not happy then either. Many people equate the number on the scale to their self worth too. Some peoples Ed are about control, some about not…

ok I had the (or should I say have) the same situation. I didnt think my ED was effecting my work but it really was. Most of all they are saying this b/c they are concerned. Nobody knew about my ed(or so I thought) now that it is out in the open pretty much everybody supports me. Even the guys(I was surpised by…

glad you are so motivated to get better! keep it up

Well you are not a failure because you are still trying! I found back when I was able to work out and I had a period of not being motivated that after I forced myself to do it I felt better.and by making myself do it for a couple days in a row it just became a routine. As for what he said to you..I know when people fight…

Yes welcome..well admiting it is the first thing..now time to get some professional help. Very few people can do it alone. Besides there are to many things medically that could go wrong. esp with the purging..potassium levels and your heart to start with. But after you get some help we are here if you want to join us. feel…

so do you have a plan in place for the next time you feel like doing it. better to be pro active than to wait until it happens. also is there anyone you can talk to..hate to see you go down that slippery slope. also becareful of labels..good and bad. maybe 3 months of being healthy. bad has a negative tone to it and dont…

well you dont have to say the words anorexia if you dont want to just say trouble eating and how you feel about your self. they are not dumb i am sure..might be in denial, but that is where you tell them that you were told to ask for help b/c of people who have this disease know what it is like and all the problems it…