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maoribadger
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Sorry not about much. Hope you are all ok. Be back soon
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Wishing you lots of ease in your stress and heartache/heartbreak!! HUGS0
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Thanks. Have been reading all your posts and thinking of you. Just cant process my thoughts at the mo but wanted you to know you werein my mind0
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No worries. I will be here!! I'm not going anywhere. Life has handed you some doozies lately. Do me a favor and take care of yourself!!! Sending lots of good thoughts your way. HUGS0
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I went to my doctor today, Ive been signed off work for a week. Dont really wanna splurge my angst on you guys but things are rough here. We lost a kid at work NYE who was the same age as my youngest daughter by a matter of weeks. It was a really rough case, I was lead nurse and with the family for 9 hours and Im having flashbacks. Works been pretty terrible generally, we also lost the daughter of one of our own docs and though a lot of us werent there we are all reeling. And the pressure on us all to perform when we are overwhelmed by seeing a 1000 patients a month more than last year is slowly destroying all of us. Have also lost my nan this week. Went in to work to help as they called a major incident due to having no beds, no room and ambulances out the door and I got called at work to tell me she had gone. Wasnt unexpected but has left me struggling esp with everything else going on.
Went to gp as am not processing my thoughts well, not sleeping, not eating, self harming and having panic attacks. My best mate came over for the evening yesterday, shes in the same dept so we could talk about everything and both spent the evening crying and just hugging. Currently off for the week and waiting to hear from the mental health team to see if something can be done for my meds. Also trying to access some counselling. So all things considered Ive not really logged at all in 2015 though Ive lost 4lb since xmas. Need to try to get back on track but I dont even know where to start right now. Am working on making myself get back into the gym, have been twice this week and hoping I can think about starting to log again next week. For now I am focussing on trying to exercse and log in every day just to touch base and not get out of the habit.
Sorry for long post. Wont be in moaning too much.0 -
Dear gods above, Lise. That makes all my money and other woes fade into the distance. I can't even begin to touch any of that, because I've no realm of experience with it. All I can do is send love and hugs and thoughts. Know I'm here if you need anything, no matter time of day or night. I have a calling plan on my guy's phone that is fairly cheap to the UK, and I'm going to send all my personal info... Just wanna wrap you up in good feels until your heart heals...
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maoribadger wrote: »I went to my doctor today, Ive been signed off work for a week. Dont really wanna splurge my angst on you guys but things are rough here. We lost a kid at work NYE who was the same age as my youngest daughter by a matter of weeks. It was a really rough case, I was lead nurse and with the family for 9 hours and Im having flashbacks. Works been pretty terrible generally, we also lost the daughter of one of our own docs and though a lot of us werent there we are all reeling. And the pressure on us all to perform when we are overwhelmed by seeing a 1000 patients a month more than last year is slowly destroying all of us. Have also lost my nan this week. Went in to work to help as they called a major incident due to having no beds, no room and ambulances out the door and I got called at work to tell me she had gone. Wasnt unexpected but has left me struggling esp with everything else going on.
Went to gp as am not processing my thoughts well, not sleeping, not eating, self harming and having panic attacks. My best mate came over for the evening yesterday, shes in the same dept so we could talk about everything and both spent the evening crying and just hugging. Currently off for the week and waiting to hear from the mental health team to see if something can be done for my meds. Also trying to access some counselling. So all things considered Ive not really logged at all in 2015 though Ive lost 4lb since xmas. Need to try to get back on track but I dont even know where to start right now. Am working on making myself get back into the gym, have been twice this week and hoping I can think about starting to log again next week. For now I am focussing on trying to exercse and log in every day just to touch base and not get out of the habit.
Sorry for long post. Wont be in moaning too much.
I hope you are able to get the help you so desperately need. I can't imagine going through all of that besides working so many hours. Nurses don't tend to get the support and credit they deserve and it is such a difficult job. I hope you are able to at least get to the gym to help deal with the stress. Please take care of yourself and your family.0 -
So drunk0
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Bluch so very drunk0
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Lise, sending big hugs and positive vibes to you that something can ease your pain.0
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Thanks, am just glad I didnt post much more I was as drunk as I have ever been last night as well as having taken sleeping meds. Not to be repeated. Mental health have spoken to me and am seeing them tuesday and have been put on some new tablets. Just got to access some counselling somehow now. Possibly through work once I have spoken to my manager. I am hping the new meds dont cause weight gain but from what Ive read they are fairly weight neutral and ive worked so hard to lose what I put on last cpl of years. On that note Im down 3 1/2 stone now. Ive eaten a bit more today though am stil nauseous but thats also hangover I think0
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