Anxiety starting again

Amybcb

Anytime I start losing weight, I find myself wrapped up in the old ED voice and thoughts and feelings. It is quite a struggle. I am overweight currently and really need to lose so I can help control my blood pressure. I do not have crazy goals, just a healthy weight. I have lost the first ten and was so proud of myself and felt great. But now the old feelings, insecurities, anxieties are coming back. If I do eat something that is deemd not good, I get the overwhelming feeling to purge it. I have not, but the fact that the feelings are there, and so strongly, are quite frightening. This is usually the time I freak out, for fear of sliding back i to my ED, and I start eating whatever I want to prove to myself that I can. Or I start restricting more.

I am smart. I know what is healthy and what is not. I have had therapy and can talk myself through the anxiety (I also have a good support system). But sometimes I just need to vent to those who truly understand (you). I was thinking I would "get back on track" this week by doing green smoothies for breakfast and lunch then eating dinner. But I know that is not enough. The smart side of me says do not be ridiculous. It is too little calories. But the ED side says eat less, eat less, eat less. I hate this struggle. Maybe I need to go back to therapy and get a little push in the right direction... Ugh

MaeKhaleesi

I know this is n old post, but I can definitely relate. It's been a massive struggle for me lately and I feel myself slipping. Best of luck to you!