05/22/2015-Today I look forward to:

carimiller7391

Good morning Ladies and Gents!!!

I thought I'd do something different this morning. Instead of celebrating the NSV's that we have, I think we should say what NSV's we are looking forward to. Be it a size down in clothes, fitting into the special jeans you've been saving all this time... Throw out the ideas you are looking forward to celebrating.

This is a hard one for me. I'm trying hard to stay in the present and not look tooooo much into the future. I do think the NSV I am most looking forward to is getting off the 2 meds that I had to be on for 6 months after my surgery. Also, I have a gold charm bracelet that I'd like to have made a bit smaller, and start putting charms on it. I'm looking forward to that also.

How about you, what are you looking forward to??

wennim

I am looking forward to finishing my first 5K race on the 30th. Not really setting any expectations as far as speed but I am just going to be happy to finish it. After watching the marathon and all the different types of people that participated I know I won't be the only less than prime running specimen out there but still makes me nervous to have so many people see me run.

carimiller7391

Wendy, you'll do awesome!!!

melissasue0317

I would love to complete a 5k as well. I have been too nervous to even sign up. I know I've come a long way, but I'm just not a runner. I would walk 99% of it. My friends that would be interested in going with me are runners/joggers so I would still feel subpar. Inner demons of a fat girl brain I'm sure. My friends and family are beyond supportive and excited for me but who knows if the thoughts of being the fattest one around will ever disappear. Even though I know I am not her anymore.

I really hoping the new exercise I've started will allow me to feel comfortable wearing tank tops or sleeveless tops. This is what I want so bad.

wennim

I am afraid that those thoughts of being the fattest one around will never leave. I know in my logical brain that the 120 lbs had to have gone somewhere and that there are a lot of people bigger than me but I still see myself as that much bigger person. A lot of people comment on the weightloss and even my husband and kids have a hard time picking me out in a crowd since they say I look like a different person. I really wish I could see this different person. My husband has started taking random candid pictures of me in crowds of people to try to show me how I look compared to them but I still don't see it. I have always been heavy except for a few years in early college where I thought I was thin but in all honesty was still a size bigger than I am now. It is just the way I see myself and I know I need to work on that but I just can't seem to do it.

I still don't know if I would call myself a runner. I do end up walking a bit here and there and my run isn't going to save me from any bears chasing me. After watching the last race I went and checked some race times and compared them to mine. My pace puts me in the lower third but I don't think I will be last. I know I will look like a fool out there but I am hoping to just blend in. Have you ever watched a race? I think you might be surprised. I never even dreamed of being in one until I saw all the different types of people doing it. The thing I noticed was that there was not a single negative comment from the crowd. I think people were cheering just as loudly for the slower people as they were for the fast runners. I have never felt an energy like that before.

What kind of exercises are you doing for your arms? I don't think I will ever be able to wear tank tops again. I have a real problem with loose skin on my upper arms and my inner thighs. I know it sounds weird but I love my shoulders and I really want to show them off but the upper arms are off limits.

maoribadger

Im actually looking forward to being back on plan tomorrow

Longer term I am looking forward to some of my lovely clothes Ive been unable to wear for the last 4 years

melissasue0317

I had a snow skiing accident years ago that required surgery with a lot of hardware place. I had nerve palsy as well. Now function is probably 90% normal but I had been so skittish about re-injury that I totally neglected my arms since.

I also fear that at this point that I am dealing with excess skin all over. Arms, inner thighs, and stomach. Stomach is the worst by far.

Shoulder press, pulldowns, bench press, tricep and bicep curls

melissasue0317

Oh and I haven't watched a race. It would probably be as enlightening to me as well. Great idea!

I have had friends walk past me before they realized that was me in a crowd also. It's frustrating and exciting. To me, I look the same. To them, am I really THAT different.

KnitOrMiss

Looking forward to...

I'm looking forward to losing the next 20 pounds and FINALLY getting out of the morbidly obese category. I know it's what brought us all together, but gosh darn it, I'm ready - and this has been a long time coming! That will also put me close to 100 pounds GONE....

Kudos on those of you brave enough to run. I'm not even supposed to walk that much now that I'm in therapy for my pelvic organ prolapse and all that jazz....running is categorically out, unless I'm trying to ourrun Wendy escaping that bear! Biking and water aerobics/swimming are the only "fully approved" exercises... So frustrating...