Got my period today :cry:

WifeofPJ

May market our first year of TTC unsuccessfully. This last cycle we started Clomid, today I just got my period. It never really gets any easier for me. When each month comes and goes I just start getting the feelings of hopelessness and feelling like I'm all alone. There really isn't many people in my life who just let me feel how I feel so many of them make me feel like I'm wrong to be sad and upset when I get my period and then it just makes me feel sadder and more alone. I don't want o make it sound like my husband isn't there for me. He is but things are starting to take a toll on him too.

I know that there are other people on here who have been trying for years and I just don't know how you are able to do it. Does it get any easier to see the months go by and no success?

powellfam2006

It doesn't get any easier Husbands don't experience it like we do, we are the ones that think all the time is this the month, we feel the cramps, we feel the symptoms, we constantly 2nd guess ourselves, I don't think it's that they don't care, I think they just don't get it. They only know what you tell them, or obviously when AF arrives that it's not this month. We constantly think about it. It's hard, you feel like a robot, BD becomes less and less fun. I have one child she is a clomid baby, we were successful after 3 cycles. This time around I have not been lucky. I have been on BC since Ali was 1, she is 7 now, and no luck. I tried Clomid about a year and a half ago for 7 cycles, nothing, then I moved onto Femera and tried that on and off for almost a year. Still no luck. Femera did make AF come regularly, which has been nice, except for this month, I am about a week late, took one test it was negative, and now I keep going back and forth on weather or not to take another test. I have been super stressed this month though. Has hubby been tested? I am starting to think that it's both of us this time around last time he was ok. He was supposed to be tested last month, and there was a huge mix up and he was so pissed, I haven't brought it up again. I am hoping here soon he may do it for me again. For me with baby #2 I have been not preventing for about 3 years and trying for over 2. The last year has been really hard on me. People are popping up pregnant who should not even be thinking about another kid, my sister is pregnant, my cousin is trying for #2 and she has no problem, so I am waiting for her announcement shortly. I suggest maybe taking a break for a few months, have fun bd'ing again.. Usually when I get to my whits in I take a few months off, then call back the dr., and say ok I am ready to try again. My issue now is my age, I am going to be 35. I don't feel like I have much more time left. I wish I could tell you different, just try to keep your chin up, I know a lot of miracle babies out there, you might get yours too!

miranda_mom

^ I agree that a break can be very helpful, just to get the focus back on yourself and on the two of you as a couple.