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carimiller7391
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I just feel blah today. Yesterday and so far today were horrid eating days. Each meal I tried to get better, but failed epically. My depression has lifted for the most part. I still have bouts of crying but they are due to issues with Reggie. I'm learning more and more and what I am learning I don't like and not sure I can put behind me at this point. But, he and I need to talk and I will make my decision afterwards. Please everyone, say a prayer for me as I am going to need one tonight.
Today is my mom's 72 b'day also. We are going to the Longhorn Steakhouse for dinner. I'm planning steak and veggies. Can't do too much damage there and can get back on track.
I applied for a new job yesterday within Capital One, but different more fast paced dept. Here's hoping I can get it. I've waited as long as 45 minutes between calls in my current role and don't feel my talents are being utilized. Plus I hate feeling like I am bored at work.
I'm excited about vacation. Sunday I have to look at the different themes and get some clothes together for the different parties. Like Karen said, looks like a lot of fun.
I definitely see how eating junk (as I like to call it) can cause that mental fog. I feel as though had I been true to my program this last few days, I'd be able to think better and these issues I am having would be void and gone.
Rant over.
Today is my mom's 72 b'day also. We are going to the Longhorn Steakhouse for dinner. I'm planning steak and veggies. Can't do too much damage there and can get back on track.
I applied for a new job yesterday within Capital One, but different more fast paced dept. Here's hoping I can get it. I've waited as long as 45 minutes between calls in my current role and don't feel my talents are being utilized. Plus I hate feeling like I am bored at work.
I'm excited about vacation. Sunday I have to look at the different themes and get some clothes together for the different parties. Like Karen said, looks like a lot of fun.
I definitely see how eating junk (as I like to call it) can cause that mental fog. I feel as though had I been true to my program this last few days, I'd be able to think better and these issues I am having would be void and gone.
Rant over.
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Good luck with Reggie. From the few things you've talked about on here, I'm guessing Reggie is NOT ready to be in a healthy relationship with someone who is working hard to lose weight and get healthy. He may change after surgery... but he should be changing before, and working with a therapist.
If nothing else, maybe take a break. Too much drama in such a short time doesn't sound like a relationship I'd want to pursue...
my 2 cents
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Reggie and I had a LONG talk last night. I told him that I can't deal with all the negativity in my life when I am trying so hard to change all that to positive things. Losing weight, work on life goals, etc. He actually agreed and said he will do his best to make some healthy changes with me. I told him that I will bounce if changes are not made soon.0
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GIRL, SO proud of you!!!! I'm sorry that you had to go through all of that, but I'm glad you're getting stronger with every breath. I love hearing this from you, Ms. Cari! I'm hoping that Reggie is up to the challenge and worth all the headache! Lordy knows you deserve it.
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Lets hope he listens0
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