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nnylacire13

Hi ladies! I'm the mom of six; my youngest is about to turn five months old and the oldest is 25 years old. I'm currently wrapping up grad school (I graduate in June...woohoo!) and I also work part time. I gained about 40 lbs with my recent pregnancy, on top of the roughly 50 lbs I'd put on while we were trying to conceive her. Over a span of about 18 months I ended up having six consecutive miscarriages, which is how I ended up gaining those 50 lbs. Before that I was trail running and active with crossfit. After the first miscarriage my doctor put me on heparin injections, however, so I had to put the weights down for a year. The combo of that, plus going for no longer than 3 months between pregnancies for 18 months, put me in an unhealthy cycle of alternating between being afraid to exercise while pregnant and being depressed after each loss then eating poorly.

So far I'm down 13 lbs since 3 days postpartum and am just under 8 lbs away from my starting weight with my pregnancy. A lot of weight came off at first, and then I stalled out. Since coming back to MFP (only logging calories...not "dieting") I've lost a very modest amount of weight. Historically, I seem to hold onto the pounds with a death grip while breast feeding, but I'm hoping to figure out how to change that this time.